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Today we took our little brother to the hospital because he suffers from an infection that affects his breathing and causes him pain. I hope that every living conscience will help us save our young sonās life and donate any amount you can.
Unfortunately, there is no treatment in the hospital for my little. Help us before it is too late.
Hello my dears! My name is Mahmoud Abed, I ask you to support my campaign to help me reach my goal. I am now in dire need of your support to help my family save them from the besieged and destroyed Gaza Strip. Gaza is a very dangerous place. I need your financial support to enable me to obtain the basic needs of my family until the Rafah crossing is reopened to transport my family to safety and peace. Please help the family survive their ordeal through your small donations or by sharing my campaign with your friends and others. Thank you very much for standing by those in need.
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Hello everyone
I am Nour from Gaza
.I need your help if you can
Please donate to save my life and the lives of my children
I'm asking for a small donation of $25 from each person. $35 will save my children from death and help me cover expenses and rebuild.
Through the link (please see my CV) https://www.gofundme.com/f/donate-to-help-nour-and-his-family-escape-the-war-in-gaza
My account has been verified by @90-ghost
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PLEASE DONāT LET US DIE ā¼ļø
I am writing this post amidst the constant artillery shelling and shooting from quadcopters on the area we are inš„¹.
We have been ordered to evacuate, but to this moment we donāt know where to goš
.I have no where to go and i am asking for any kind of help to get rid of the genocide in Gaza, I am reaching out to you with a warm heart so that you can share my post against friends and family to spread the word, and a small donationš° if you can, Please I am on my knees asking you to help me complete this.
Thanks for your kindness and generosity šššµšø
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Hello dear friends! ā¤š¤š¤š
šI am Mahmoud Ayyad, a Palestinian from the besieged and destroyed Gaza šš, coming from an extended family of young children, women and elderly people ā¤ā¤ who have been sufferingšš for 300 difficult days from an aggressive war.
Our lives are harsh because we lack all the basic necessities of life. Everything has become scarce and unattainable. There is no food, no water, no medicine.
So, I ask you to help me keep my family safe and alive, especially after we had lost all our sources of livelihood.Please do not leave my family to struggle and suffer these difficult days alone. You can support my campaign by donating whatever you can or by sharing my posts to reach others who can help us survive the war to safety and peace. You are helping the lives of many people with your small contribution. Every donation makes a difference in our very difficult lives. But this is a legitimate campaign and has been checked by 90-ghost.
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I am Imtithal from northern Gaza. I live in very difficult conditions because of the war and I struggle to provide basic necessities. I was displaced with my children 17 times in search of a safe place. There is no safe place. We suffer from a shortage of water, food, medicine and milk. Because of the famine war that we have been going through for 10 months, I need your support so that we can survive. Even if the support is simple, it helps my family a lot. Please donate and participate.
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Hi š,
I hope youāre doing well. Weāve raised very little so far to support me and my family during these challenging times due to the conflict in Gaza. Weāre still working to reach our goal and would greatly appreciate your help. š
If you canāt donate, could you please share or reblog my pinned post? Your support in spreading the word would mean a lot to us. šŖ
Pinned post: https://www.tumblr.com/ahmedharara/757031731268386816/weve-been-able-to-raise-only-120-so-far?source=share
Donation link: https://gofund.me/f751a38a
Thank you so much for your kindness and support! ā¤ļø
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Hello, I hope you're doing well.. My name is Mahmoud, and I'm a 17-year-old from Gaza. The ongoing war has devastated my city, destroyed my school, and made daily life incredibly challenging. Despite these hardships, I'm determined to continue my education and build a better future. I've been given a chance to study abroad, but I need help to cover the costs of leaving Gaza, as well as living expenses and other essentials abroad once the crossing opens. If you can, please consider donating or sharing, your kindness can truly make a difference. Thank you. https://gofund.me/bd3ccf0b
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I can feel the second hand embarrassment coming from the screen
Friendo went to see Jack Desena and gave me this beautiful audio to go nuts with
IāM SAT
art by: nyakkari
Please stop for a moment
Hello
I am Nour, a Palestinian girl from Gaza. I am 5 years old. We were displaced from our home after the occupation bombed. We were displaced to southern Gaza. I, my father, my mother, and my grandmother, who also lives with us.
And the three sisters: Bana, Dana and Menna
I saw the ravages of death on the way to the south, where I had to walk long distances on my feet .....
After arriving in southern Gaza, we saw all forms of suffering. After living in a tent for 8 months, we do not have any necessities for life. My sisters and I suffer from illness and weight loss due to malnutrition and lack of it. There is no source of livelihood for my father, who lost his job there in Gaza.
Sometimes words cannot describe what happens
We need your help and support to provide a better life for me and my family
Who suffers from all aspects of life
Please help me share
This is a longshot, would you be willing to help me get my insulin? I'm down to my last pen and its pretty much close to being empty.Nt asking for much only need $370 rn to save my blood sugar. please help me with a small donation or share my pinned any help can save my life.Please help & Blessings ā¤Thanks
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Hello dear friend šØ
Please I am on my knees begging you to at least read my story a little,
I really need help and support I am struggling to live with my children against this genocidešµšø...please share, reblog and donateššš¹
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Chiitan our savior
if nothing else can save america this zero-year-old fairy baby otter with no gender can. chiitan's platform is love. and chaos.
Hahaha haha I'm so normal about this
-ro <3
Toxic gays and their twinks
I swear D-stroy only did this to prove D-structs gayness about Skrap-it lmao
btw what type of conversation is that? DREAMWORKS?!
Also, this scene resumes very well D-stroy personality, which I just LOVE
I THOUGHT THIS SPOILER WASNT GONNA BE THAT BAD DAMM
@ghosty-0w0 (you asked about drawing turtles?)
I want to make more if anyone finds this useful
feel free to download and use if this helps
lmk storyline with no context
The notes arenāt serious at all lol
and if we dont get it paid soon, we risk being kicked out of our apartment. We have no money to move to anywhere more pet friendly, no one we know that could take our cats, and nowhere to go if we get evicted.
I hate having to beg for money on here so often but I genuinely have no other choice. We risk losing our apartment or losing our cats, and it would be really great if we didn't lose either. Please PLEASE help if you can.
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AHHH THE COLORSSSS
donnie.
thank you doraemon <333
yāall know what day it is
Happy Star Wars day everyone !!!
To celebrate may 4th I'll be posting some sketches I did of Anakin and also Ahsoka and Padme :D
(Some of it got blurred or is smudged so please excuse my amateur photography ;-;)
Cole dancing? hahah aw <3
Never have I felt so called out on liking bpd coded fictional men in my life. I just found out that I might have bpd so my type being bpd men is just the cherry on top
Note: This is a breakdown of why I believe Macaque has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and how that shows in his actions and affects how he treats others. I will try my best to properly explain each symptom and how the show writes it into Macaqueās character as a whole. (This will be set up by symptoms and wonāt reflect all episodes Macaque appears in, only putting emphasis on season 1 episode 9 and season 2 episode 7 in particular.)
Note: I am a Borderline and this will have some personal experiences reflected in how I deal with my disorder so. With that, letās begin !!
Favorite Person
This isnāt necessarily a symptom as not every borderline has an fp but it is noted to be an important enough occurrence for it to be a staple of being borderline.
A favorite person is someone incredibly important in a borderlineās life that becomes their constant source of happiness and validation. Itās someone who the borderline goes to for the majority of their attention and heavily relies on that other person to the point where it damages their relationship.
Now youāre probably wondering, āWhat does this have to do with Macaque?ā, well I am a firm believer that Wukong was (and still is) Macaqueās favorite person. He is very clearly co-dependent on Wukong and probably has been for centuries. He actively seeks out some sort of response from Wukong as a way to gain his attention. Going as far as messing with the next closest person to the ginger, his successor.
Macaque torments and mocks Wukong constantly because he thrives on negative attention. He may not fully register that itās negative because itās attention nonetheless, and it wouldnāt matter if it was positive or not because it has the same effect. With this in mind, you could see him changing the logo on Mkās jacket as a statement meant to mock Wukong. (Because we know and have seen Macaque be a lot more sneaky with his attacks, he could have easily hidden it but he chose to keep it in the open and the logo even laughs at Wukong.)
He sees Wukong as a hero, someone who is loved widely by others, and this comparison goes hand in hand with Macaque calling him the sun. Something bright that shines upon everything and everyone around them. Mac says these things very bitterly though, despite showing us that he once saw the two as equals.
Because of this, it might be a bit debatable whether Macaque truly hates Wukong or not. Borderlines suffer from extreme emotional dysregulation and tend to amplify their emotions (will elaborate on this further down) so Macaqueās hatred could stem entirely from this dysregulation. But he uses these comparisons as a way to express his emotions without downright saying them, considering itās safe to assume he sucks at putting his emotions into words. It makes him angry when Wukong doesnāt go all out when they fight, mocking him and lashing out in his anger. To the point where it becomes obsessive, and itās causing him to spiral into these feelings of anger constantly. (Especially since heās quick to resolve every problem with a fight)
āCāmon! Show me the real Sun Wukong! The old you would have leveled this whole mountain range to stop me, but now youāre afraid of hurting some kid? Pathetic!ā
With the heavy reliance borderlines have on their fps, strong instances of jealousy are bound to sprout up and Macaque is a prime example of how that jealousy can affect someoneās actions towards those around them. When heās introduced, heās given this light carefree attitude seemingly to make him feel more approachable, at least from Mkās perspective. When Mk asks him to teach that move he had done to hit the smoke monster, Macaque is quick to say a very backhanded thing that is very obviously meant to be a jab at Mkās confidence. Both in himself and in Wukongās teaching. (This could stem from Macaqueās jealousy of Mk, that this kid is who Wukong cares for so deeply and is able to stay on his good side. Unlike Macaque.)Ā
ā[...]...Iām sure Monkey king would agree. Itās not like he would want to hold you back.ā
This jealousy leads to him projecting his insecurities onto Mk and causes him to have this warped impression of the kid before even meeting him. Macaque constantly mentions how alike Mk is to Wukong, in ways that only Macaque seems to notice. Theyāre all negative traits that Macaque amplifies or may have completely fabricated, calling him selfish and implying that Mk is going to eventually forget about his friends simply because heās a hero, just as Wukong did. (It could also be part of the reason why Macaqueās steady target has been Mk). He even goes as far as to try and tell Mk he missed the point of his shadow play, causing Mk genuine confusion because he doesnāt believe heās anything like how Macaque portrays Wukong. āOther people are going to tell you to be patient, they are slowing you down.ā
Now, this can be reaching or something entirely different but you could see Macaqueās bitterness towards Wukong and his insistence that heās a bad teacher slightly stemming from jealousy as well. We know Wukong isnāt actually a bad teacher, or at least not as bad as Macaque seems to emphasize, but heās been so bitter that heās convinced himself that Wukong is much worse than he actually is. And because of this, he tries pushing this mindset onto Mk so he doubts Wukong and leaves him, much like Wukong did to Macaque.
The most obvious thing that actually stood out to me first and was the reason I thought Mac had BPD in the first place was how incredibly personally he took the falling out. He reacted so violently to it that itās permanently stuck on his mind at all times. The emotions from that moment are so amplified that Macaque is unable to move on, latching onto the events like a lifeline because itās all he knows. He had dedicated the majority of his new life to getting revenge on Wukong for this falling out because he blames all of it entirely on the latter. Thereās a headcanon that LBD may have altered his memories of that event to make him further hate Wukong but I donāt entirely believe thatās true. Itās possible LBD probably did have a little tweaking in his memories but I donāt think she altered anything related to Macaqueās feelings about Wukong because he already did that himself. Macaque sees that day as the day Wukong left him, abandoned him for a surge of power, and planted the idea in his own head that Wukong was being selfish. That Wukong must have left because Mac wasnāt useful anymore and therefore he must not have cared all that much, which makes Macaque an unreliable narrator and heās shown to be manipulative and choosy with how he phrases things. He sees Wukong as a backstabber who was quick to leave as soon as he became that hero that Macaque equates to being close to Heaven. (see pedestal screenshot)
Macaque let himself become so overwhelmed by that abandonment that he firmly believes Wukong didnāt and probably never cared about him to the same degree that Macaque cared. (Even though it is implied that Wukong did care, the two being inseparable and doing everything together. The two even were equals at some point.) And as much as Macaque makes himself want to hate Wukong, he canāt truly do it because heās still codependent on the other. He still seeks out Wukongās attention and still aims to mock him, continuously bringing him up when he speaks with the other members of Mkās group. He sees himself as someone who was ātoo closeā to Wukong and suffered the consequences of that, despite many of the consequences being forced on him by himself. (All this could be why he is so adamant about telling everyone how much he thinks Wukong sucks. He firmly believes Wukong was entirely in the wrong and he had nothing to do with it and jumps at the opportunity to play the victim card. Even if it means leaving out details that might paint it the other way.)
āWhat would you like to hear? The hero suddenly remembered his beloved friend the warrior? That they lived happily ever after?ā
It's obvious that Macaque still cares so deeply for Wukong to the point where it could even be implied that he wants a happy ending. He wishes for that happy ending, to be able to say Wukong did remember him and did come back. Him constantly talking about this falling out and painting himself as the victim could be his way of saying he wishes it ended differently, could be his way of trying to raise a jumpstart in Wukong. It could be a way for him to try and see if maybe something else will come out of this, that doing the same thing over and over might cause a change of outcome. (Obviously, it doesnāt work because nobody knows what heās thinking, ever.)
Intense fear of abandonment
This symptom is one that I think Macaque struggles with the most. He does not handle rejection that well and will do anything to avoid it, much like how heāll do anything to avoid abandonment. He saw Wukong reject him and leave him and decided that heāll never leave Wukong alone, that he will continue to show up because he will always be Wukongās shadow. He saw Wukong leaving continuously as an attack on him as a person, immediately internalizing it and believing he was the problem. He makes sure to keep Wukong as close as an armās distance so that if Wukong does choose to leave again, Macaque wonāt be as hurt by it as he was the first time. It causes him to dwell on the past, not being able to stop. He keeps reliving what happened because he truly believes he needs to accomplish some sort of justice against Wukong for what happened.Ā
Alternatively, Macaque also will do anything to prevent new people from getting too close. When he notices that Mk is starting to grow on him, he starts to withdraw, amplifying his attempts at showing the kid he isnāt worth it. He becomes more and more aggressive throughout season 3, partly because of his rush to get out of lbdās control but also because heās slowly beginning to warm up to Mkās group. (With the way his first initial idea was to try and convince Mk to come with him willingly and when he had done the same thing with Tang.)
He schemes and manipulates the people around him because its in his nature but also to keep their predetermined impression of him stay bad. Macaque hates relying on people, much rather staying and working alone than with others because of the disappointment it usually leads to. He doesnāt know how to properly open up anymore for fear of that other person leaving too.
Unstable relationships
As Iāve mentioned before Macaqueās relationship with Wukong was incredibly unstable. He valued Wukong much more than he valued himself, put Wukong on a pedestal, and idolized him, making him unreachable. But this could also be applied to Macaqueās relationship with Mk.
Macaque trains Mk, genuinely it seems and uses that opportunity to plant things into the kidās head. Everything goes well before Macaque ultimately betrays him to go against Wukong, that being his ulterior motive the entire time. He continuously goes after Mk, causing the kid distress one after the other all in an attempt to get back at Wukong. Despite this all, Mkās still willing to give him another chance in season 3 and Macaque doesnāt know how to handle that. (It is shown, or implied at least in season 3, that Macaque ends up showing legitimate care for Mk. He acknowledges that Mk is a good kid on two separate occasions, telling him that heās happy thereās still āroom for potentialā.) He just prefers to keep Mk at a distance, despite the fact he seems to wear the title of Mkās other mentor with pride.
Changes in self-identity and image
āA very, very powerful demonā¦ā
āSince then youāve had me teaching you! Youāre stronger now!ā
We all know this man has a ton of confidence, enough that he actively strokes his own ego every time he opens his mouth. His debut shows us how he sees himself as this strong ancient demon (even if he was referring to himself in the third person.) and he sees Mk as āstrongerā because he had Macaque teaching him.
Though in the same vein, he also understands that he isnāt as strong as he likes to brag he is. He still needed Wukongās power to amplify himself before fighting him, again, (and even lbd acknowledges he needed aid and gives him some of her power after so many failed attempts). Macaque is power hungry and thrives on the taste of being powerful, on the thrill that comes from it, but his body canāt handle that power nor does he actually know how to use any of it. Itās part of why he relies more on his shadows and their sneakiness than he does entirely on his power. Heās an illusionist through and through and nothing more, but he keeps pushing himself for more power because he thinks he can handle it. He genuinely believes he can come out of these fights unscathed and winning and that could be the reason why he continues to go after Wukong.
āAs the heroās light grew, so too did his shadow. And soon the warrior was cast in that shadow. In the darkness, the warrior was forgotten by the hero.ā
This comparison he has of himself as the moon shows just how alone he truly sees himself. The moon is something that is depicted as being reliant on the sun to shine despite it being alone and far from the sunās reach. Thereās solace in the way the moon rotates around the earth and stays in its own orbit, keeping itself confined to its single path. Sometimes the moon seeks out the sunās warmth and they do finally come together, they make an eclipse. But the moon is always the one reaching after the sun and Macaque sees himself as constantly in Wukongās shadow. He sees himself as someone who reached for Wukong and failed, being left behind in the otherās shadow where he truly belongs. He sees Wukong leaving as him losing his purpose, that he couldnāt keep up anymore and now wasnāt someone Wukong could see as an equal.
Macaque sees himself as a warrior, someone whoās a soldier fighting for themself and their own beliefs. He doesnāt think heās ever capable of being a hero, or ever changing for the better because he pushed himself into this villain role. Heās accepted that he will always be someoneās villain and so he has never actively tried to change (at least not until Mk pushes him to). Even though he actively acknowledges he has things he should talk about, blatantly telling Mk to his face that if he ever did try talking things out they would be there all day. Itās this black and white thinking that keeps him from being better, that keeps him in this endless cycle of manipulation and gaslighting and hurting that he doesnāt ever try to break because he doesnāt see there being a point. Heād rather do anything and everything to get what he wants because just the thought of him doing something right or something different like working with people and helping them makes him scoff.
With how Macaque carries himself and how he seemingly just throws his life around, lbdās revival of him probably left him with this constant detachment from reality. He constantly feels empty and incorporeal (which could also be from the fact he is. shadows.) Heās scared of death, the idea of merely going back to being non-existent and in chains causes him such full-body stress especially if itās brought on forcefully by someoneās hands. Heās paranoid, constantly on edge (specifically throughout season 3) because Lbd has his life dangling in front of him and heās desperate to take it back. Her whispers and chains poke and prob him, keeping him on high alert so much that it becomes a driving force for him to impulsively choose to stop following her orders. Anything to get rid of her.
Inappropriate intense anger
He is repeatedly shown to lose his temper, lashing out at pretty much everyone no matter what they do. He weaponizes Mkās insecurities against him in anger, threatens his friends to get them to do what he wants, and pushes people into a corner. Heās quick to anger and irritate, especially if he feels heās starting to lose control over a situation. (Because he is very much a control freak, constantly needing to keep things around him in his control so he can manipulate tier outcomes how he likes.)
All of his anger seems to be misplaced as well. He was so quick to throw all the blame for the falling out on Wukong but never took the time to think about how he could have been wrong too, considering relationships are two-sided. He let this anger fester and alter his once positive view of Wukong and now he just canāt fix it. Macaqueās angrier at the way Wukong left him, feeling more betrayed about that than at the fact that Wukong killed him.
His anger towards Mk is shrouded in insecurities and doubts about himself and Wukong and he feels wronged somehow seeing how much Wukong cares for Mk. Macaque actively tries forcing his mindset onto Mk, trying to worm his way into making the kid see Wukong differently by using his insecurities and doubts against him. He compares Mk to this fabricated impression he has of Wukong and tries to mold Mk into someone he knows Wukong wouldnāt want.
Macaqueās flashback that he gets briefly as Mk lunges toward him shows just how much he hangs onto the past. How much he hangs onto the emotions from that event and how he projects it onto Mk, seeing Wukong in Mkās place briefly. Itās that same amplified POV that we hear Macaque talk about and Shadow Play shows just how much it shrouds his impression of Mk. Because truthfully, he doesnāt know much about the kid other than the insecurities Mk rambled out to him and that heās Wukongās successor. Macaque filled in the remaining gaps with things he took from his initial impression of Wukong and just assumed the two were the same with how close they are. He has no idea where to put all these emotions so he dumps them onto the laps of others to deal with, or to become the targets of.
Final thoughts
Overall, I think Macaque is the biggest bpd-coded character in all of lmk, itās just right there. In all our faces. Heās an incredibly emotion-driven person, doing things based on how they make him feel rather than if itās logical. Heās so shrouded in black and white thinking and in his splitting of Wukong that it keeps just a tight grip on his life and he really does need to go to therapy. He needs to learn to move on and actively be better because if this cycle isnāt broken soon heāll just continue to hurt not only himself but the people around him. Whether he wants to or not.
I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE I tried really hard to articulate my thoughts and such but I might have repeated some things here and there. I also am a firm believer that Shadow Play is actively just one big bpd episode. Like I wholeheartedly believe that whole episode was Macaque having an episode and in the midst of it, he decides to mess with Mk, only to stop halfway through because he snaps out of it and realizes that Mk is being hard on himself enough. He willingly brings back up bad memories through a retelling just to achieve some sort of I told you so moment with Mk only for it to backfire on him and just make him feel worse. (while also attracting the attention of lbd)
I think itās such an important episode to Macaqueās character and what comes of him, especially since it opens the gates to why he decides to do the things he does in season 3. It has so many details in it that show just how unreliable Macaque can be as a narrator, especially when heās having moments like that. It shows how heās the selfish one, not Wukong, and how he let something like this mold him into something so unrecognizable from his past self. All because he was filled with rage and betrayal. Itās easier to fight and hate each other than it is for Macaque to apologize for whatever he may have done and amend. Itās easier being the villain to everyone and being hated rather than owning up to your mistakes and trying to be better. He finds comfort in his black and white thinking, finds comfort in how the others hate him, and actively avoids fighting him.
ALSO THIS.
THE PARALLELS !!! Itās a moment where things finally actively dawn on Wukong and heās suddenly in Macaqueās place, their roles reversed. Macaque being the one who has the upper hand, finding that āpower beyond comprehensionā and leaving Wukong behind. In reference to their relationship, it could be seen as the moment Macaque finally gets Wukong to understand how he felt when the latter left, how he felt being left behind. He finally makes Wukong feel how he felt, that same desperation at watching the otherās back being turned. But Macaqueās is tainted, being forced onto him, and is actively eating away at his body. Itās reflectively of how Macaque remembers it but it isnāt the exact same.
He's a creepy lil dude <3
THIS IS AMAZINGGG
traffic light trio vs LBD