Please read fully before getting angry. This isn't just Soukoku hate I promise.
"I told you, Chuuya."
He looked up in the direction of the sudden voice. It was a familiar voice, one that belonged to the person he hated most in the world.
"Your birth itself was a mistake. We're the same. Is there really a point to suffering through all that pain for a life that isn't even real?"
This isn't Chuuya talking to someone else here, this isn't pride or embarrassment making him hide his hidden affection, its a description of his genuine feeling. Verlaine who just killed his friends, N who is currently torturing him, neither of them are as hated by Chuuya as Dazai is.
but it isn't that simple.
Chuuya wanted more than anything to slice off the ear the voice was whispering into. He could see Dazai's wavering shadow by his side, and he wanted to gouge out his eyes.
This visceral anger to his vision of Dazai feels...too strong of a reaction. I know Dazai has done some fucked up things to Chuuya, but none of them should be so bad that he would hate him this much. and that what made me realise Chuuya doesn't hate Dazai, he has tied Dazai to what he hates most about himself.
A crippling feeling of isolation, being so far above everyone around you it feels like your a different species (Dazai in intelligence, Chuuya in combat)
Dazai gave into that, and let it swallow him. So to Chuuya, who fights so desperately to stay alive and connect with people despite his origins. He seems like the worst person in the world.
This line really cements this
"Thats just proof that you at least somewhat believe what I'm saying. because deep down inside, you're the same as me."
"Shut up, shut up, shut up! I'm me! I'm not some piece of shit like you!"
Dazai is everything Chuuya has tried to suppress in himself for years and years.
I firmly believe Chuuya grew to care for Dazai after years of working with him, its just the kind of person he is, but I fundamentally disagree that he never hated Dazai.
Ultimately , this post was to point out how their dynamic changed and shifted over time, and how there's more to them then some people think
kunikida....
Twin
I wonder about Han Sooyoung a lot. How could someone (3rd round) who had only met and known you for less than 4 years would be willing to wait for you for 50 years and then regress and experience hell all over again just to bring you back? How could that someone's other self (1864th round) in another timeline who had also only met and known you for a couple of weeks would be willing to spend 13 years of their remaining life writing a story for you everyday and doomed the entire world just so you could survive?
But when I really think about it—for Han Sooyoung—it did make sense.
Ever since she was born, she was neither wanted nor needed by anyone. Her parents would rather have her not exist. At some point, she also had a friend who set her up to blind dates but with how HSY only mentioned her once and never again throughout the story, perhaps that person wasn't really important to her either. So for the past 26 years, HSY had lived her life alone thinking if the world didn't need nor want her, then she didn't care for the world either.
Perhaps, at some point, she would even think that even if she were to disappear, no one would miss and mourn for her.
So imagine her surprise, when—for the first time ever—someone told her that she was needed. That he didn't want her to become a character. That he was willing to leave his life in her hands. That even if she ran away and hid somewhere, he would still look for her. That he believed in her to take care of the companions he left behind. That he didn't want to extend her 50 years of suffering if he could help it. That he wouldn't let her go because he hadn't heard the conclusion of the story from her yet. That he would cry if she died.
Their relationship might have started out of necessity—they were in an apocalypse after all—and HSY understood that they were merely using each other for their own benefits (plus they were enemies at first, too!). But then Kim Dokja lied about her being his friend before the scenarios (which when I think about it is technically not a lie because she was basically his confidant from his teenage years through adulthood during their exchanges in [Ways of Survival]'s comment section and DMs but they both didn't know that) when he didn't have to and the rest was history. She ended up being his companion for real.
KDJ might have only needed her at first but now he wanted her to be there in the ending he envisioned.
For the first time, HSY was needed and wanted. For the first time, someone was glad that she existed.
So even if it were measly 4 years for her 3rd round and a couple of weeks or so for her 1864th round, meeting him was enough to make an impact in her life. The amount of time spent together was not important but the short time that mattered did.
She didn't care for this world to begin with anyway so if it meant bringing her sole reader back, then she would destroy more universes just for him and him alone.
For that 'small world' she didn't wish to disappear...
[ORV Chapter 533 - Epilogue 3: Author's words (2)]
After having a lover’s quarrel, Atsushi and Akutagawa are destined to reuinite, in a fight that will probably serve as the climactic battle of the arc, happening at the same time as Dazai and Sigma vs Chuuya and Dostoevsky. This fight will also confront Atsushi about his most major flaw, his demonization of Akutagawa refusing to see him as anything other than a murderer even when presented with more sympathetic traits, by now being faced with a vamped up, Akutagawa who cannot kill and is not anything other than death incarnate.
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can i just say how much i adore how Nao-chan's gender is treated so casually in skip to loafer
like, as a white cis woman who is also quite tall and havent read the manga i didnt even realize she was trans until this scene in ep2:
and i didnt even have the time to get nervous how they would handle this as they already moved on, ignoring the comments (just like queer people learn to do so) except for Mitsumi's comforting touch (implying she also heard the comments):
and there were no sad words or anything about this either, it was just handled so.... normally. which should not be something worth highlighting, but, well, you know. also on that note, special shoutout to P.A. Works for casting a woman as her voice actor as well.
she's shown being the supportive and lively aunt and like seconds later in this scene she's back to being her usual self again:
in conclusion
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vetted fundraisers from today. please please continue to take the time to support campaigns like these, whether financially or through amplification. these families are placing their hopes in our care.
july 16th:
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not yet vetted:
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Although originally set at $25,000, the family of recipients have lowered their goal to get the money out more efficiently. This money will help feed and clothe a family currently broke and attempting to survive in Egypt.
Donate if you can spare it! This amount is very achievable!!
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