TW.
TW.
force me to tell you my fears.
i prefer to check up on people. it makes me feel good when everyone else feels good!
i’m scared that if i end it all, no one will notice. and everyone who does notice will simply move on.
i like when people remember the small things about me! it makes me feel special.
no one knows what my favorite color is.
i like to think that everybody is a friend!
i get so, so deeply fearful when i’m unliked.
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how do i care about someone without my entire existence revolving around them or is that just my default setting forever
Is it in my rights to be a little possessive over you even though you technically don’t know who i am? Or is that crazy of me? Be so super honest pretty please
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hm…depends.
do i not know who you are at all? do i not know who you are, but i know the system/the body/another headmate of yours? do i not know you, but know of you?
i’m sure it’s well within your rights. craziness aside.
small world, huh, captain? 'm sure you could connect the dots. use that pretty head of yers.
...looks like you've picked up after yourself these days. wonder if you're still as easy as you used to be.
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easy? what ever do you mean? “picked up after myself”? connect the dots?
oh, now i’m more curious then ever.
y'know, oblivious. blissfully unaware. i'll give you some credit, though. i'm in a better mood. surprise, surprise ":^[
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i try to not confront certain things, especially if it’s negative. i act “blissfully unaware” in that sense.
what’s got you in such a good mood?
i think i found one of the other anon's blogs and its making me have intense feelings of "no! he is mine you cant have him!" i dont wish any harm on this anon but im inexplicably grr about it in a "no, dont take him from me!" kind of way.. also you changing your @ scared me for a second, i thought you blocked me or got termed or something.. -⛓
well, i certainly didn’t mean to scare you! i thought the old @ was a tongue twister, and a little too repetitive. i also couldn’t remember the order the words went in, so i thought i’d change it.
awe, anon! you sure know how to make a guy feel rather special.
a sorrowful source memory…? [tw]
i distinctly remember the aftermath of a particularly rough argument.
he accused me of never caring, of planning to leave. the jimmy i knew was quick to emotion, in every sense of the word: he was quick to fall in love as he was quick to anger. as this argument progressed, our voices were raised higher and higher. it got to the point where my own throat was sore, just from trying to be heard over his frantic yelling. once the end of the argument came about, we both took off to different rooms of the apartment we were sharing at the time. the apartment wasn’t anything too special, just somewhere we could crash when we weren’t doing shipments. he ended up in his (our shared) bedroom, and i ended up pacing the kitchen. about an hour later, he sulked out from the bedroom, and came to me in the kitchen. about 30 minutes into the wait, i decided that food could be a good peace offering, so i was cooking. nothing too extreme, just eggs, as we didn’t have much else in the apartment. i could hear him creep up behind me, wrapping his arms around my middle and laying his forehead on the back of my shoulder.
it was those tender moments that reminded me why i stuck around, why i adore/d him, why i was the sole devotee.
you mentioned having a busy day ahead of yourself, so i should probably let you get on with your tasks. good luck with your todo list. i will catch up with you later ^^ -⛓
well, if you wanted to stop talking, you’ve could’ve said so. /teasing. my todo list doesn’t start until around 9:30 my time. i’ve got a bit of time.
breakfast? what’s that?
( this is a joke, i had two cookies and a dr pepper for breakfast. )
