Boredom

Hugs

You've always said you hate hugs but, never realize how much you love to hug someone until you can't anymore.

The best thing happened in school today, my family doesn't accept that I'm FTM pre-transition but when I was at school we were doing senior picture and they have outfits for the guys and girls and the photographer asked if I wanted to wear the men's outfit or the women's. One of the best things is when your family doesn't accept you but complete strangers do. 😁

I recently bought biker jeans. These are the best, they help so much with my social anxiety it's nice to have something that I can use as tactile relief and I can listen to instead of getting overestimulated by music

Baba, my father, has chronic leukemia. On Wednesday, he received a bone marrow transplant. Today begins his fourth day of chemotherapy. The insurance will not cover the mandatory 100 days he will be staying in the hospital nor the hospital’s hotel room, where he must be looked after 24/7.

Please, please, if you are able, please consider donating & reblogging to help my father.

paypal.me/dareenm venmo: @dareenm cashapp: $cashdrn

(Photos taken before the transplant, one in hospital & the other while holding my father in the hotel room the night before he checked into the hospital for the next 3+ months.)

I’m really, really frightened.

Break

I need a break from myself sometimes.

Depression

Depression runs suicide they go hand and hand. If you have depression then you think of suicide. But don't think of suicide don't think that death could end it for you. Think about the fact that if you end it for yourself think about the fact that you could end it for other people think about your friend and family. Think about one person that you death will affect.

If you have no reason Try. Just fucking try! Don't Think about if you death think about a reason. The fact that you could help someone else find a reason and maybe you could find your reason. Death hurts it doesn't help.

Keep on living keep trying find a reason to live. All you can do is try. Think of others not yourself. Find your reason.

Meds

I wish I had some fucking useful medication,

like cyanide.

Clothes

You know what's fun picking out an outfit and finding fucking dried jizz on them.

reblog if your account is a trans safe space or owned by a trans person!

Anybody want this kind of life too? 🥺