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Ethan Winters Doesn't Get Enough Love and that's Heartbreaking

So I'm gonna preface this by saying yes: there will be spoilers to the ending of Resident Evil 7 and Village. If you don't want that scroll away now. Leave, shoo, outta here, go on git, *angrily shakes broom and smacks it against the door to make a loud, aggressive sound*

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Okay so I get Ethan was the "villain" of Resident Evil Village because he killed everyone's favorite vampire mommy but this is in fact a Resident Evil game. Alcina and her daughters and the rest of the four lords were always going to die. It's the nature of the game. It didn't help that Capcom flipped the script and leaned VERY heavily into the villains of Village when it came to the marketing. (Hell I'll bet Capcom is literally kicking itself for making Lady D the first chapter boss) but they really went heavy on making Ethan kind of take a backseat to Lady Dimetrescu and Heisenberg for this game. Which I think is really kind of shitty because we get to see Ethan at his best in this game both in terms of characterization and development.

I need to give a shout-out to Todd Solely, Ethan's mocap and voice actor. We don't get to see Ethan's face in the game so we have to go off of every little action Ethan does and every bit of dialogue we get from Ethan we pay a closer bit of attention to. It's like when you lose one of your senses every other sense tries to make up for its loss. Some truly stand out moments of this were.

1. When Ethan is rejecting Heisenberg's offer of using Rosemary as a weapon and Ethan just spits back at Heisenberg "Rose is not a weapon, fuck you." Ethan freaking lowers his head and leans into the fuck you. You can just tell Ethan is not having ANY of this at all and while I know a lot of people wanted an option where we could have sided with Heisenberg, I'm glad we didn't. Forcing us to pick between Mia and Zoe in RE7 was already a nightmare. Like would the option have been nice yes, but the canon of Resident Evil is being held together by duct tape and spit at this point. That would have torn down the whole house of cards that is the continuity of this franchise.

2. When Ethan is in the village and after he watches the floor cave under Elena and he watches her burn to death. Ethan starts audibly crying, "why does everyone around me keep on dying?" And when he leaves out the window he slams his fist against the pane and yells out why this is happening to him again. You partially wanna go 'come on Ethan, you're in a Resident Evil game, get with the times.' but you realize Ethan thought he was free, he thought if he and Mia cooperated with the BSAA and did what Chris told him to everything would be okay. Yet here he is, back again in Resident Evil hell and he's had three years of him trying to rebuild his life after an EXTREMELY traumatic event just thrown out the window.

3. When The Duke points out that the jar Ethan has is in fact Rose's head and we see him drop the jar like it was a bomb. We saw Ethan's brain literally break. That's his daughter, the one thing he loves more than anything in this world, in this tiny jar. His whole world has shattered. And then when The Duke tries to make light of the situation the abject fucking hatred and pure venom in Ethan's voice. Especially the line "You'll pay if I find out this is a lie." With the delivery of an almost animalistic, hatred-filled growl. It sent a shiver down my spine. It felt like Ethan was willing to freaking maul The Duke with his bare hand (and what's left of the other one)

4. It's not as serious as the last three, but it's actually rather heartwarming. The whole opening portion of the game where Ethan is walking around the house with Rosemary commenting on things throughout the house. There's so much tenderness in this opening. This is a bit of a contrast to the very terrified but almost cynical towards the end delivery we got for Ethan with RE7. We're now seeing a much more tender and loving side to Ethan. Especially when Ethan is pretending to be one of Rosemary's stuffed monkeys. It's silly and cartoonish but it really shows the depth of Ethan and just how much he loves his daughter.

5. Ethan's become such a little shit by the time Village rolls around. He may be yet another human* trapped in a Romanian hellscape with mutated nightmares, but by god is Ethan willing to verbally beat you down if you step in his way. "Looks like your outside matches your inside now, psycho witch." he shouts at Lady D. in her Dragon form." Or when he talks down to Moreau after killing him. "In death as he was in life. Disgusting." And the delivery of that disgusting too was just *chef's kiss*

6. When Ethan is killed by Miranda and is in the Purgatory state with Eveline. Even though the effects make it seem really hard to make out what Ethan is trying to say, I also think it genuinely is because Ethan is freezing, his body has gone cold, his body has given up on him at this point and Eveline reveals the truth. Ethan has always been dead. Ethan is shocked at this realization. His whole life for these past three years have been a lie. But to see Ethan drag himself up again solely for the sake of saving his daughter? UGH. SO GOOD.

7. The entire ending cutscene where Chris is helping carry Ethan and Rosemary out of the Altar and back to the Helicopter. It's honestly so heartbreaking. Once we saw Ethan's good hand start to disintegrate, we knew. Ethan's time was up. Ethan's body had taken on too much damage and the Mold couldn't keep him alive much longer. His final words while alive in this phase still make me choke up every time. "Mia..? I'm so sorry... I love you... Keep Rose safe. Watch over her.. Teach her to be strong.. Goodbye Rosemary." In Ethan's last conscious moments the only thing that mattered to him were his wife and his daughter. I.. i need a moment..

Ethan Winters was different than any other Resident Evil protagonist. He wasn't some ex-air force pilot turned sharpshooter, super-cop who punches boulders. He wasn't an ex-army master of unlocking turned international savior and founder of a paramilitary group created to stop bioweapons. He wasn't a rookie cop turned direct operative for this universe's version of the Secret Service who saves the president's daughter. Ethan is just a regular systems engineer from California who loves his wife so much he was willing to drop everything for a chance to save her. Ethan's just a civilian forced to survive the world of Resident Evil. Hell, Ethan didn't survive, Ethan Winters was killed by Jack Baker after Jack stomped on Ethan's head. What we know as and see as Ethan is really a collection of mold that re-animated Ethan and took over his body and personality. It's downright horrific when you think about it.

Ethan being a dead man walking is something that I've thought about a lot since finishing Village for the first time. To know that Ethan isn't Ethan, but instead is just a collection of mold cells that used his body and has dog-eared his consciousness and personality is insane to me. Not only was Ethan able to resist Eveline, the source of the mold that created the thing that became Ethan, but he was able to resist The Black God (the Megamycete) completely. The mold collective that was Ethan Winters was able to fully retain Ethan's shape, form, appearance, consciousness and be completely unaffected by most external factors. Even in Resident Evil biological terms, what Ethan Winters was, was nothing short of a miracle. When Ethan "dies" in the game during a game over screen we don't see him mutate into your usual flavors of Resident Evil biological nonsense. We never saw Ethan disintegrate after dying (if he did it was done off screen but bleh) Ethan was a full-fledged human while absolutely not being one.

The complications and plot holes that this opens are very numerous. Why exactly was Ethan able to maintain so much of himself despite purely being a mold being? How was Ethan able to resist even Mother Miranda even while being directly connected to the Megamycete? The source of ALL of the mold infection? How was Ethan able to sexually reproduce and make a (mostly) normal human? How did Mia not get re-infected with the mold by having sex with Ethan? Why didn't Ethan mutate as opposed to say Jack despite having similar regenerative abilities? If the BSAA was able to physically remove mold spores from both Ethan AND Mia, how did they not realize that Ethan was even more infected than Mia?

Don't get me started on Mia, she's getting her own rant soon enough but Mia while being just as much a victim of this situation as Ethan, Mia Winters is easily one of the worst characters as a person in Resident Evil. She lied to Ethan about her occupation as a researcher for The Connections, she physically assaults Ethan on multiple occasions (she was infected by Mold and under Eveline's influence I'll give her a pass here.) But most importantly Mia is fully aware that Ethan is still infected with the mold. This is compounded by the fact that originally in RE7 we were told that Mia was just Eveline's handler. When in reality at the Exposition Bombing at the end of Village we see a photograph (see below) showing that Mia and Miranda weren't strangers. They knew each other enough to take a picture with each other. Mia wasn't just a handler, she was a full-blown researcher and scientist with The Connections and she was fully aware of the extent of Ethan's infection. Yet she willingly allowed herself to be impregnated by a molded Ethan. She sits on the secret for a long time, she almost even tells Ethan the truth in an argument a week prior to the events of Village. Yet she doesn't. I want to give a lore-related theory/explanation to this. I can't remember exactly which game it was but Wesker had entered into a file that he hypothesized that the human psyche plays an impact on mutations on highly mutagenic strains of viruses. I.e. think about how Alexia became this bulbous, insect queen in her second form because she saw herself as royalty, genetically superior and above all else. Mia had no idea what would have happened if she told Ethan the truth, she didn't know what would have happened to Ethan whether he would have just had a full-on mental breakdown or if he would have mutated because his psyche would have become so fractured. Let alone what would have happened to her family. Because while Mia may have been duplicitous and lied to Ethan both in RE7 and Village: Mia genuinely loved Ethan. I don't think there's any way we can debate that.

(The person on the far right of the image is Mia. The woman to the left of the little girl is Miranda. The little girl is Eveline. Mia and Miranda weren't strangers. Which begs the question: why did Miranda keep Mia alive in her lab?)

Ethan Winters is a character who has left a huge impact in only two games. While he's your generic everyman protagonist with a little bit of biting sarcasm in RE7. By the time Village rolls around Ethan is a fully-fleshed character. We get our actions survivor back but this time with basic military training, even more sarcasm, and now with the full range of emotions. We get to see Ethan as a tender and loving father towards his daughter, from criticizing Mia (Miranda) for reading a scary pop-up book with Rose to him swaddling his daughter as she starts stirring and crying. To holding onto Rose tightly but ever-so tenderly as Ethan is physically falling apart and carbonizing. We watch Ethan cry as the people he tries to help die around him, we see Ethan filled with abject and carnal rage towards his adversaries. Ethan truly is Resident Evil's titleholder for best dad. (Sorry Barry lol) and for a character with no face that we can see during the main game, Ethan is exceptionally expressive and emotional and shockingly so human for this franchise.

I'm beyond excited for what Shadow of Rose: the DLC for village will bring. My theory is that since Rosemary has gained access to a remaining sample of the Megamycete, we probably will see Ethan again in some way/shape/form since the Megamycete absorbs the consciousness of all who die within the reach of its roots. Whether or not Ethan is corrupted or he finally reunites with the daughter he loved so much is yet to be seen. But I would love to see a tender moment where Ethan pulls Rose into the tightest of hugs. He remarks how he's been inside of her watching her through her connection to the mold. Ethan would be profusely apologetic about not being there for her, but that he's so incredibly proud of the strong young woman she's become.

Ethan Winters deserves more love and recognition and it's a crime he doesn't get his pearls. I love this daddliest catch of a man who literally goes through HELL just to save his daughter. It broke my heart when Ethan died, just like it did when I saw Piers die from Resident Evil 6. But we got a fantastic character out of all of these two games. So go on Mr. Winters, smile. I hope whatever afterlife you are on you're loved and valued.

cancer, scorpio, & pisces

there are 3 themes that get visited frequently with the water signs. the water element is very dynamic and internally rich. it really encompasses a divine nectar that flows through all of us. water signs are like an access point to heavenly nourishment. firstly there is a high reactivity to their environment. there is also an acute spiritual radar. and there is often a pronounced need to withdraw into solitude

water people are acutely sensitive to the environment, it’s like the lines between themselves and others are blurred and dissoluble. any ether that is circulating, emotional, psychic, unmet desire, conflict, nervous, and unhealed wounds are absorbed. the music of the invisible world plays a loud orchestra in their ears. emotions tend to be experienced on a more extensive and exhaustive wave, inexplicable to those with their heads above the ocean. these emotional experiences are also enduring and difficult to recover from. the individual can suppress it from the mind but the body and spirit will still ache. the pain of decades ago can leak the same intense anguish of happening yesterday. there is also a longer recovery periods from emotional episodes than that experienced by others. water people are typically unable to deflect emotions. they hear the cries of others like howls in their heart. it’s like constantly swallowing water, being able to feel like you can properly breathe. as soon as one storm passes another conjures.

within the water person awaits the gateway to a spiritual palace, filled with the wisdom of all eternity. it’s like they are a holding place, a book that divine scripture can be written into. this is not always a spiritual emphasis in a religious sense. there can be a deep connection to the earth, air, wind, and sun, the individual can sing to the birds and talk to the flowers. water suggests a reception to psychic and occult phenomena, and the divine may express itself through methods and conduct the individual finds hard to ignore. music, art, clairaudiance or clairvoyance, or resonance with esoteric studies may be some of these.

the deep sea is full of mystery and depths we have still physically not managed to uncover. likewise, there are internal complexes so deep and profound it can be difficult for the individual to even contemplate or comprehend. the static of other people, the deafening voices of the world, the intense emotional hurricanes can be wearying. sleep offers a momentary solace, but even dream life tends to be vivid and potent. often there is an internal demand to retreat in solitude, hideaway from the clamor of the world, conceal themselves within their sanctuary, a cavern that is protected, guarded, where nobody can touch them. this cavern can also be what separates the water individual, what distances them from truly connecting with others for fear, alienation, or hyper vigilant defense mechanisms. even the conditions of childhood left bruises deep enough for the individual to begin building walls subconsciously for much of their lives. the water person mostly figures they are safest inside.

-cherry

These dorks will be the end of me I swear to god

ft. Nova & Aleks

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non-confrontational cowboy that wont turn around after the 10 paces

item: photograph of mary

(poem is “death (births and deaths registration act 1953)” by harold pinter)

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everyone say thank you con

I don’t think this fandom appreciates Randalls fronds enough. 

They go from these wobbly little half flaccid head wieners

To these fuckin glorious long majestic head gear beauties.

Convention Tips~

Day Before

Pack a bag with: water-bottle, snacks, money, phone, phone charger, anything you want signed, headphones, jacket

 What to wear:

If you are cosplaying: cosplay, comfy shoes (bring extra make up and change of comfy clothes)

If you are not cosplaying: geeky/anime/nerd t-shirts and appropriate bottoms, comfy shoes for lots of walking (sneakers are good), jacket if cold

Before you sleep: charge phone to full battery, check prepacked bag, check finalized meeting times and place, check how long it will take to get there

Day Of

-Wake up at least an hour before you plan to leave the house

-Pack phone and charger and get dressed in attire

-Have a full stomach and empty bladder before leaving the house

-Get in car with directions to convention

(when driving, send update text to friends you are meeting around every 20 describing weather, traffic, and how excited you are)

-When at destination, do not enter convention without entire group

(if there before other, stay in an area with good signal and/or in site of arriving cars for meet up)

-Enter convention as a group

-Register your tickets (only have to do this on first day)

-Register props (if cosplaying. NO WEAPONS)

-Enter convention floor

Convention Hours

*-Stick together with group at all times (some have a group call to find each other in crowds)

***-Take a partner to bathroom, booth, etc.

-Do not take an item away from a booth unless already purchased

*-Use your manners in the crowds (“excuse me” “pardon me” “sumimasen”)

-Refrain from Otaku Talk (“omg! That cosplay is super kawaii-desu!” “I love you character name!!!1! :3”)

-Set up emergency meeting spot if someone gets lost

***-Always check phone for messages from group

-Take lots of pictures~

-Try not to offend anyone

-Do not point out every set of boobies, be it hentai poster or cosplayer

-Do not shame the other fandoms (bronies, furries,etc)

-It is okay to ask someone in cosplay for a picture (they really appreciate it)

-It is okay to decline a booth vender’s offer

-It is okay to fan over the voice actors and guests (in moderation)

-It is not okay to make the guests uncomfortable (dirty jokes, etc)

-It is not okay to interview people unless you have a convention registered badge

-It is okay to cry (if for some reason you have to)

-It is okay to geek out with other convention goers

*-It is okay to make new friends at conventions (please beware the stalker crazy people)

*-If you are tired or hungry, tell the group, they probably are too

*-If you want to purchase something tell someone in the group so they don’t accidentally ditch you

-Before purchasing something, walk around more and see if you actually want it (also check prices for deals at other booths)(also check online for deals)

-If you purchase something, it is your responsibility to carry it

*-We suggest that you buy your big purchases (posters, wigs, figurines, etc) toward the end of the con

-Often check on your things, do not leave them unattended

***-Watch the clock

*-Keep hydrated

***-Con food is overpriced and usually not so good, try to bring your own or wait till dinner (lunch is usually skipped, just all snacking)

-Try and participate, it’s an annual and exciting event, have fun!

The Demonic Zodiac

One thing I’m surprised people don’t talk about more often is the Demonic Zodiac (also known as The Black/The Dark Zodiac.) The Demonic Zodiac represents the darker side of the human creature. They represent the darker side often overlooked in traditional astrology. The movie “13 Ghosts” created it’s own Black Zodiac to reflect the personalities described in the Demonic Zodiac.

Aries/The Selfish King: The selfish king rules in order to receive all the victories for themselves They are as angry as they are self-centered. Hates the Ravening Dog. They are arrogant, selfish, and hot-tempered.

Taurus/The Fallen Demon: The Fallen Demon lies through their teeth to gain the upper hand. They hate The Poisoned Dart. Main characteristics are malice, remorseful, and braggart.

Gemini/The Viper: The viper spits venom in their words and are skilled at it. They show no remorse when angry. The Viper hates the Hurricane and is emotionless and venomous.

Cancer/The Snake: When all others fight, the Snake crawls beneath their noses and strikes when the moment is right. The Snake is manipulative and drains the life form their victims. The Snake hates the Leviathan and is treacherous and deceitful.

Leo/The War Maiden: Warrior Goddess of Evil, The War Maiden is blood-thirsty and craves the spotlight. They value pride and honor before all else. They hate The Horned Beast. Main characteristics are pride and greed.

Virgo/The Maelstrom: Wrath from the Maelstrom is directed at all. The Maelstrom destroys all out of ignorance and is ruthless to all in their path. The Maelstrom hates the Weapon and their characteristics are aggravation and hypocrisy.

Libra/The Ravening Dog: The Ravening Dog acts on a whim, attacking anything in it’s path without thinking first. Represents the number 666. The Ravening Dog hates the Selfish King. Characteristics are reckless, accusative, and irrational.

Scorpio/The Poisoned Dart: The Poisoned Dart is known to carry grudges for a long time and strike when the moment is right, and it’s sting packs a lethal punch. The Poisoned Dart hates the Fallen Demon and is suspicious, abusive, and sinful.

Sagittarius/The Hurricane: The Hurricane represents blind destruction, withholding emotion until it explodes. It’s reckless destruction is directed toward those it hates, which is mostly all. The Hurricane hates The Viper and is destructive, reckless, and acts first.

Capricorn/The Leviathan: A blood-sucking leech, The Leviathan gains power from others. Their cunning allows them to steal while stealing the strength of the other signs. The Leviathan hates The Snake and is parasitic, powerful, and dangerous.

Aquarius/The Horned Beast: Abusive and controlling, The Horned Beast only shows this side of their personality to gain dominance and complete control over people. Hates The War Maiden and is confusing, manipulative, and abusive.

Pisces/The Weapon: The Weapon is blinded by it’s emotions, especially anger. The Weapon does not show until the easy way out is no longer applicable. The Weapon hates the Maelstrom and is impulsive, narrow-minded, and moody.

It’s important to remember there is a little evil in all of us, and the good parts wouldn’t exist without it. Evil should not be feared, it can be harnessed and turned into something useful. It should never, however, overpower the good. (This is also just for fun.)

Reminder that Merasmus is the best character in all of Team Fortress 2.