How To Remember Stuff For A Long Period Of Time?

As a dark academic who has searched long and hard for a subculture of dark academia to wear this summer, something that matches the summer atmosphere, I am going to coin a new subculture of dark academia.

I present: Explorer Academia.

HOLLY FUUUUUUCK

WHAT THE HECK DID I JUST LISTEN TO

Episode 52 spoilers:

Sir Vale and the general decline of the rest of the party, the brief realization that nothing they did mattered at the end, that the map led to nowhere and they were not ment to come back from the trip. I was devastated right along with Arthur at that plot point- and THE DEATH OF ANTOINE.

"I was kind"

"very- Very."

"...I was loved"

"Unconditionally"

I don't know why that scene in particular fucked me up, but it did. Arthur hugging Antoine in his last moments in hopes of giving him warmth and comfot, telling him he could rest, I could feel myself breaking apart along with Arthur, and when Antoine died, I snapped back along with Arthur in acceptance just as fast its jarring.

And when John brought up the possibility of bringing Antoine back, you best believe I shot down that offer on my end so fast. He deserves to rest, he was just given his go to, don't take that from him.

And everything with Lilith was crazy. The realization at the end about just how far back Lilith actually knew about Arthur- AND FRICKIN KAYNE.

OH MY GOD THIS COMEDIC ASSHOLE.

"Fruit of my loins"????

BRINGING BACK ANTOINE WHEN MY BOY GOT TO REST???

"SEWING THAT TURKEY BACK UP"?????

AND THEN IMPAILING LILITH IN THE HEAD??

AND WE CANT FORGET ABOUT YORICK.

YORICK IN KAHOOTS WITH KAYNE??? YORICK THANKING ARTHUR AND ARTHUR AND JOHN BELIVING HIM AT THE END???

YORICK GETTING CRUSHED????

Will we ever see him again? Who knows.

The ending was brutal as hell. I enjoy binging the episodes while playing Minecraft so its a lot of Arthur screaming in the background while I replant my crops. Proud to say I'm finally caught up for the first time since I started listening to Malevolent and I can't wait to scroll through the Malevolent tag unafraid of spoilers.

Emphasis on cannibalism

Maybe I should have tried screaming instead...

Sometimes, I wonder if anyone will hear the words I speak towards the wall. Then again, can I really expect anyone to when I know no one will answer? Maybe I'm hoping for a spontaneous thought, an unexpected action that will lead me to a different room that's not filled with silence.

Just finished reading the nightmare before kissmas, wondering what happened between the brother and his interest in the princess, only to find out there a SECOND BOOK STARING THE BROTHER????? GO LUCK YOURSELF WHATTT????

As a saxaphone player, I understand this deeply

bari saxthur got lucky in that kayne didn’t write him a part in The Wager so he didn’t have to go to the world’s longest and ugliest rehearsals

Bro I just finished the one piece live action, and I am floored with how good it was like??? Koby being a main side charecter??? The small details and the scenery?? How the crew's relationship is being portrayed?? The casting?? Amazing. The amount of times the show had got me verbally hyped up got me wondering if imma get a noise complaint. I can not wait for the next season to come out.

I finished reading the stranger the other day, and I could not articulate how the book made me feel. I talked about the book to two different teachers and have lacked an answer to the question, "What did you think about it?" both times. I understood and empathized to a degree on what Mersault was going through and his overall viewpoint. Not in whole, but enough I feel. It's a strange feeling. Funny enough, I feel absurd when trying to explain it.

Just heard somebody say that comparison is the theif of joy and I just snapped back to my senses.

I feel like I'm on a spiral that's only going downwards. Many people feel this way, and I'm not exempt from them. I am not a new case, I am not the exception. But all the same, I feel like they have found solid ground to build off of, and I am close to falling off this rocky surface. I feel like they have found something to lean on, and I am scrambling to be a pillar for myself. I have to be the lighthouse because I don't trust myself to trust someone else. My ship isn't close to sinking. It doesn't even have any holes(I make sure of it), but the sea I have found myself in is tossing and turning, and I can't stable the boat. I can't bring myself to ask for passage in someone elses, for that would be cruel. And I'm too prideful to ask for directions because I know that I will find myself lost again. So I'm stuck on a boat. I can't bring myself to steer it, and it's no one's fault but my own.

If this continues, I fear I will go overboard.