How Am I So Easy To Abandon?

i really can’t grasp that people like remember non-life defining things from like over a week ago idk it’s just insane to me

I keep getting lost in scenarios that only exist in my mind.

My bpd symptoms aren't that bad if I don't care about anything, or let anyone get close to me, or leave my house or

*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

DENY. DEFEND. DEPOSE.

ART WILL ALWAYS BE FOR THE WORKING CLASS.

I just wanna rot away and dissolve into nothing.

april fools in a few weeks. who will ask me to be their fool

I say shit like "If my memory serves me" knowing damn well it serves the dark lord

i could add a few more stages to grief if they let me