I Hate Myself A Little Extra When I Open Up To Someone.

christmas is coming so heres a reminder:

if ur stuck with abusive or shitty family...

u are always allowed to step away. i opt to go for a walk because "the fresh air is nice and its a little crowded in here right now" [using a light happy tone is key here, so hopefully theyre less likely to take it negatively]. u have autonomy over urself even if u dont feel like it

u can go to ur room and say ur just "grabbing something" [say its ur phone or a phone charger, something like that] and take a quick breather

u dont have to listen to the conversations. if theyre being bigotted u dont have to listen or say anything. loads of ppl have started a "if u dont say anything about ur familys bigotry ur part of the problem". u arent. ur keeping urself safe. u can zone out, tune it out, etc [u can even hide an earbud in ur ear for music if that helps]

keep a comfort item on u. i keep fidgets in my pockets.

u dont have to drink. no matter the pressure put on u.

if presents are involved and u feel overwhelmed by ppl trying to force u to give a positive reaction i usually say "wow thank u all so much! im putting these in my room real quick to keep them safe, thank u theyre lovely" [i struggle with this one a lot given im autistic as well so forcing the reaction is hard. i always use a script]

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

Sorry for infodumping about my special interest out of nowhere, you said a keyword and it activated my unskippable dialogue

how am I so easy to abandon?

Kissing her on the forehead before she falls asleep in my arms.

i love tumblr because you see someone losing their mind and you’re just like “omg me tooooo!” *reblog*

longing and jealousy are going to be the death of me chat

Whatever *sticks my dick in the gap between who you are and who you portray yourself as*

i like when my friends are nice to me and like me