22.11.18

i want to stop thinking about you. i want to stop feeling you. i want to forget all the words you said to me

them: how close are you to a mental breakdown?

me: yes

"are you good?" morally? no

my mind is a fucking nightmare.

not being able to remember a lot of trauma  not being able to explain it  not being able to say why you’re so scared

Would be easier if you just killed me. Rather die than live without you and pretend like none of this fucking shit hurts. And you fucking know it does

You ever miss the way someone acted in the beginning?