I'm Also Gonna Add Real Quick (I Accidentally Posted Before Adding This):

I'm also gonna add real quick (I accidentally posted before adding this):

I think this really does play into his response when he beats up Kurogiri/Oboro. Like he's letting it out in what many people may think is unhealthy but he's probably felt like this for a long ass time. He's been bottling things up, drinking a lot and trying to get through his life without needing to talk about it and when he did talk about things? It wasn't with the only person he now has left at the end of the main manga.

He preserved Shōta's feelings and memories and took the brunt of it like he did back when they were second years. It's not to say that I'm going to place blame anywhere but not being able to talk about this second round after the war is probably not good for his mental health. He wears a broken mask that he's again gluing back together just like he did fifteen years ago.

That being said, SOMEONE GIVE ME AN UPDATE ON HIZASHI. I care about Present Mic, okay, but I NEED TO KNOW WHATS UP WITH ZASHI PLEASE. His entire mental state collapsed twice in the span of fifteen years, he probably has a lot of trauma packed into himself too and all we have is "oh he's okay!" from Deejaying. No, that's Mic. Mic is as okay as he's gonna get, ZASHI, I want to know what's going on with him, if he's okay. If he talked to someone about something after he had to put on that front again ESPECIALLY after Nemuri passed.

Spoilers for the Vigilantes Manga specifically the School Days Arc because that's what I have to talk about with Hizashi mostly.

Alright here we go. Starting off with the screenshots from my Twitter (a portion is cut out of one because the response was from the OG just talking about how Hizashi was just a boy/kid when they lost Oboro)

(link to the og thread I qrted for this discussion below ⬇️)

Okay let's talk about this. I didn't say a lot in regard to my actual thought process but I have got to talk about it.

First of all: The way in which Hizashi is completely fucking shattered. He's partially mask off in terms of like his entire mental state being shifted into hell. He literally looks about ready to bawl his goddamn eyes out, like he's going to entirely lose himself.

He does technically lose himself, he loses more Hizashi Yamada, the loud "happy" teen with a voice quirk. It's his persona he has aside from Present Mic which I want to say at this point does in some way exist. Maybe not as we know it I'm the main manga but pretty damn close.

When I say he forced himself to glue the pieces of himself back together and "cope", I mean like he's literally gluing himself back together as he's putting back on his smile. He physically is forcing himself to be happy just for a moment. He goes into the mentality of "I need to be strong for others (Shōta), everything will be okay" when it isn't okay.

It isn't okay here and it isn't okay fifteen years later when that façade entirely crumbles again. I always bring up when I in some way write about Hizashi in general pre-timeskip, post-war that he wears a cracked mask with pieces falling off of it. He really does and this mask probably started earlier in time but ended up becoming worse once Oboro literally was dead in front of him.

He puts up the front when his world view is crumbled, shattered to pieces in front of him that he's still happy-go-lucky in a sense. It's jarring because many people in this situation would've outwardly shown how devastated they are. He starts off that way too and as everything progresses, he doesn't give himself the time of day to process what's going on and for the next fifteen years, he still doesn't give himself that.

The shock and horror we see here? Yeah he gives the same when he's faced with the horrible reality that he's losing his "friend" (Kurogiri/Oboro) again and watching it happen in real time.

Like I have so many thoughts on this y'all got no idea. This ain't even the half of it-