Grieve AND Organize.

Characters: Eraserhead (mei_cos_) and Present Mic (me) from My Hero Academia

Date: 12th of October 2024

Photographer: BFF

I need everyone to know if I slow down posting art (might not happen given my track record thus far but it's a fair heads up) that I'm starting new classes and adjusting to the schedules. They are very labor intensive for me so it might be a hot minute.

WIP cookin some EMic cuteness

Spoilers for the Vigilantes Manga specifically the School Days Arc because that's what I have to talk about with Hizashi mostly.

Alright here we go. Starting off with the screenshots from my Twitter (a portion is cut out of one because the response was from the OG just talking about how Hizashi was just a boy/kid when they lost Oboro)

(link to the og thread I qrted for this discussion below ⬇️)

Okay let's talk about this. I didn't say a lot in regard to my actual thought process but I have got to talk about it.

First of all: The way in which Hizashi is completely fucking shattered. He's partially mask off in terms of like his entire mental state being shifted into hell. He literally looks about ready to bawl his goddamn eyes out, like he's going to entirely lose himself.

He does technically lose himself, he loses more Hizashi Yamada, the loud "happy" teen with a voice quirk. It's his persona he has aside from Present Mic which I want to say at this point does in some way exist. Maybe not as we know it in the main manga but pretty damn close.

When I say he forced himself to glue the pieces of himself back together and "cope", I mean like he's literally gluing himself back together as he's putting back on his smile. He physically is forcing himself to be happy just for a moment. He goes into the mentality of "I need to be strong for others (Shōta), everything will be okay" when it isn't okay.

It isn't okay here and it isn't okay fifteen years later when that façade entirely crumbles again. I always bring up when I in some way write about Hizashi in general pre-timeskip, post-war that he wears a cracked mask with pieces falling off of it. He really does and this mask probably started earlier in time but ended up becoming worse once Oboro literally was dead in front of him.

He puts up the front when his world view is crumbled, shattered to pieces in front of him that he's still happy-go-lucky in a sense. It's jarring because many people in this situation would've outwardly shown how devastated they are. He starts off that way too and as everything progresses, he doesn't give himself the time of day to process what's going on and for the next fifteen years, he still doesn't give himself that.

The shock and horror we see here? Yeah he gives the same when he's faced with the horrible reality that he's losing his "friend" (Kurogiri/Oboro) again and watching it happen in real time.

Like I have so many thoughts on this y'all got no idea. This ain't even the half of it-

Edit 1/19/2024:

Holy shit I forgot to put down pronouns my bad y'all. I use she/they pronouns currently and I say currently because it might change in the near future.

Um, I've been on here for not a long while but a bit (I'm lurking sometimes my bad). I'm trying to write out a full welcome post but for now, Hi there!

A little bit of stuff I'll talk about:

I'm an artist, traditional and digital but leaning more digital. I actually am studying to be an animator, currently figuring out some animatic stuff and exercises for my animation skills because by God do I need it. Oh I also sometimes write although you probably won't see it, emphasis on the probably.

I'm very much stuck in TOH brainrot still even though it ended in May. That being said, I am a multifandom and OC artist, at the moment leaning more on the fandom aspect. I don't talk very much on social media to the point I have a Twitter but I don't use it very often.

Anyway, I'll see y'all when either I post that massive intro post or when I post my art/thoughts. Thanks!

i also put mic in the leather pants

Man I'm gonna say it (and I don't wanna tag characters n stuff because I'm just rambling to ramble and it's not like an indepth character analysis or something):

Idk what young teenage me was on when I watched MHA/BNHA to not like Present Mic/Hizashi. How could I not love him back when I was younger?? Bro's amazing and even without Aizawa or Erasermic he's just such a compelling character.

Like I literally look back at how I was watching it (I rewatched when the manga ended so I could remember what I missed because I fell off around 2020 but kept reading the manga) and I don't get it? He's literally everything I love about a lot of my favorite characters and I do think, at least from how the manga presents it, Hizashi deserves better. Like there are of course things that could be fixed in general and he is not the first character I'll say deserves better but come on.

I saw a post on Twitter that I can't find now but it was about "delayed grief" and I think it kinda helped me understand a bit about how Hizashi is for the ending? Still doesn't make me want to see him have a better ending or at least acknowledgement of what happened. I just think he's really cool in and out of persona, cracked mask or not and his ending doesn't exactly make me angry but I'm just indifferent toward it. I could go on and on about it but y'know I don't really want to.

Anyway, that's my speech on the soap box today. I love our voice hero to death at this point and I'm so sorry to everyone who has to hear me yap about it on my blog today. It is way better than yapping on my Twitter (I've been trying not to) when I mostly wanna put my art there.

Also to anyone who I just spam liked your blog over certain takes and things (specifically for Hizashi): Hi, apologies in advance if that was annoying, the takes were just too good and I do agree with em a lot. I don't tend to reblog often so that's why I liked instead.

Nothing to see here, just obsessing over #erasermic

This is a reminder to:

Never mention a possible pregnancy/abortion to anyone, especially not through a social media app messaging service such as messenger, WhatsApp, Instagram DMs, Snapchat, etc.

Delete all period tracking apps and to start tracking using a planner or physical calendar

Book appointments for a form of birth control if possible, or to always carry condoms for yourself and other

Look into sterilization options if that is the route you want to go down (here is a list of 1000 doctors willing to sterilize you without a fight)

Protect your fellow person, protect the women in your life, the queer people, the disabled people, everyone will be affected by this

Form communities. Tell your people that you love them. Protect one another. Check in on one another. None of us are alone.

Making a ramble based off of that last Mic/Hizashi post I reblogged. Yes I'm aware I still have to post the Midnight one but rn this takes priority because my brain is fixed on talking about the injustice that is Hizashi's arc at the end of the manga. I will post her's soon but right now? Right now we're talking about Mic for a second.