First WIP O The Night! I Enjoy Drawing Them Happy Damn It. One Of Two Photos That Will Be Cut Off Somehow

Writing out a big ass text post based on a Twitter post I made yesterday about Midnight. I did copy the original four tweets but y'all are getting the bonus content for it. I would love to add this bonus stuff to Twitter but again I'm too scared to talk about my opinions on Twitter very much.

I do start off the post with how younger me in middle school thought Midnight was a bit much for an anime but y'know she's grown on me a lot (thank you, Vigilantes) and things about her specifically being dead make me sad.

So look forward to that, it's almost done and I'll get to everything else when I can.

Happy Halloween y'all!

Usually I have something planned/prepared for the occasion (usually it's OC art which I'll post some of those eventually, maybe) but this year I'm in the spirit just not apparently mentally there to make anything right now.

I did say on Twitter I probably will make something for Halloween when it's over. Like I have an EMic family drawing thought up but it's not even sketched yet so it's not happening until probably November.

For now, I got nothing other than:

be safe, don't over eat candy to the point your stomach hurts, those over 21 drink responsibly and uhhhh have fun. I have class today (boo) so I'll try to be spooky afterward.

Twitter is being wonky so... Hi guys. I'm gonna scream about the new vigilantes trailer-

And I need that song they used in it RIGHT THE FUCK NOW

i also put mic in the leather pants

Long haired Zashi! I really like that first one on the top left and the one on the top right those were fun to draw.

The bottom one on the right is like if he forgot to put on his contacts and basically was more Hizashi than Mic. Like he's got the look mostly but he's missing stuff y'know? Green contacts are the main difference tbh other than forgetting his glasses and speaker.

Bro is running on 20 minutes of sleep he needs a damn nap at least.

Mentally, I'm holding your hand right now. Or just sitting nearby offering comfort with my presence. You're not alone. I'm scared too. We'll survive this night together. Somehow.

Some sketches of the sillies and my MHA OC, she can turn into a big birdie but dw she doesn't bite (I guess.. )

Hey. HEY. Pause the election doomscrolling for a moment and look at me. We're gonna be okay. I'm still gonna be right here on tumblr tomorrow, reblogging my silly little posts, and you'll see them and you'll smile. Nothing is decided yet, these things take time and there is still hope, and however things turn out this is not the end, okay? An idealogy relying on hate wants you to be disheartened and give up, and I know it's hard but we won't give them that satisfaction. None of us individually can hold that line of resilience; that's a community task, and when all else fails that's what we have. Queer people have been in this world as long as people in general have, and we're not. fucking. going anywhere.

Spoilers for the Vigilantes Manga specifically the School Days Arc because that's what I have to talk about with Hizashi mostly.

Alright here we go. Starting off with the screenshots from my Twitter (a portion is cut out of one because the response was from the OG just talking about how Hizashi was just a boy/kid when they lost Oboro)

(link to the og thread I qrted for this discussion below ⬇️)

Okay let's talk about this. I didn't say a lot in regard to my actual thought process but I have got to talk about it.

First of all: The way in which Hizashi is completely fucking shattered. He's partially mask off in terms of like his entire mental state being shifted into hell. He literally looks about ready to bawl his goddamn eyes out, like he's going to entirely lose himself.

He does technically lose himself, he loses more Hizashi Yamada, the loud "happy" teen with a voice quirk. It's his persona he has aside from Present Mic which I want to say at this point does in some way exist. Maybe not as we know it in the main manga but pretty damn close.

When I say he forced himself to glue the pieces of himself back together and "cope", I mean like he's literally gluing himself back together as he's putting back on his smile. He physically is forcing himself to be happy just for a moment. He goes into the mentality of "I need to be strong for others (Shōta), everything will be okay" when it isn't okay.

It isn't okay here and it isn't okay fifteen years later when that façade entirely crumbles again. I always bring up when I in some way write about Hizashi in general pre-timeskip, post-war that he wears a cracked mask with pieces falling off of it. He really does and this mask probably started earlier in time but ended up becoming worse once Oboro literally was dead in front of him.

He puts up the front when his world view is crumbled, shattered to pieces in front of him that he's still happy-go-lucky in a sense. It's jarring because many people in this situation would've outwardly shown how devastated they are. He starts off that way too and as everything progresses, he doesn't give himself the time of day to process what's going on and for the next fifteen years, he still doesn't give himself that.

The shock and horror we see here? Yeah he gives the same when he's faced with the horrible reality that he's losing his "friend" (Kurogiri/Oboro) again and watching it happen in real time.

Like I have so many thoughts on this y'all got no idea. This ain't even the half of it-