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SPOILERS MAYBE

8 cried while watching SZN 5 ending and SZN 6 first episode..... Chat I am not OK 💔

I love House (and Hugh Laurie himself) too much now💔💔. I just want to hold his face and tell him it's alright even tho he'll see thru my bullshit 😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 (guys I'm OK, I swear. I'm not weird lol)

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Need to be my mc since yesterday, she's gorge I wanted her more than matthias 😻😼

Yes I play interactive games like THTH, episodes and choices or wtv AND LADS<3. What else was i gonna say bout it.... Speaking of, I should get episodes again, I'm done with too hot to handle already 😝.

It’s All About Perspective:

Sometimes, all it takes is a quarter turn.

That dried paint blob: smeared, ugly, accidental — can become a dancing figure with big shoes, a biker, an abstract expression, if you just tilt it. And what if your life is the same? What if you’re not broken, lazy, or lost, but simply looking at your own story from the wrong side?

We’ve all been there. Hair greasy, phone hot from hours of scrolling, a million open tabs and zero opened dreams. You’re rotting in bed, flicking from one TikTok to another, laughing, then crying, then dissociating, watching other people live out the things you swore you’d do. It’s addicting. Comfortable. Even aesthetic. "Girl rot" became a moodboard, for Christ's sake but no one tells you that staying there too long leaves you hollow.

But here’s the truth, my dear angels: you’re not the paint blob. You’re the hand turning the page. You decide the angle.

So how do you shift perspective when everything feels heavy? When life is a loop of doomscrolls, late-night existential spirals, and the occasional burst of fake motivation?

You start slow. You start small. You turn the page.

Maybe I'll post something about this topic tomorrow :)

Thursday Musings - 060225

I was planning on rewatching Lucifer the whole day today but my cousin asked me to accompany her to the dentists office and since I wasn't sure where I'd take a 15hr trip to the other side of the country or not, she advised me to pack a carry on bag incase my aunty calls and tells me that the solo trip is still on while we are still at the dentist's.

Guess what 😃

My aunty called and told me I should pack up and head to the bus station, but good thing I already had the bag with me at the dentist I guess

Well, as you may have guessed by now, I am Not thrilled about this, as I type this my butt cheeks are losing feeling and blood circulation it's not even funny haha 😐

10 more hours to go :D

2/10 day, (told you it would be worse) would've been a zero but I downloaded the entire SZN 1 of lucifer on Netflix and boy is he hot and cocky (just how I like em)

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There’s no WiFi at the moment, so I’m using mobile data. I didn’t do much today—just ate more dates, got my hair done (cornrows this time!), read a little, and did some drawing. A solid 9/10 kind of day; nothing can ever be truly perfect.

Here’s the playlist for today, and honestly, I have no idea why no one is talking about Tie a Cherry by CL. It’s incredible.

It's not the best curated playlist but it's just songs stuck in my head.

OK bye.

imagine talking shit about me and I'm just in my room like :

attitude ive

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Woke up, went for parents meeting on behalf of aunty, came home, went to airport to drop off uncle, he is travelling at night, came home, extremely tired and dehydrated for some reason so now I think I'm getting a headache :D

4/10 day, and it's gonna be worse tomorrow

bye.

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Laundry day, cleaning day, shopping day today. Started watching 'when life gives you tangerines', and gosh do I love IU.

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There's this morbid nostalgia in craving the pleasure pain of losing your milk teeth... Ive been feeling that recently. It has motivated me to explore a thought I had and decided to group with my alter ego; and potentially publish a novella under her in my 20s.

This has been fueled more after starting Hannibal, am I crazy idk... But god do I think about the sweet pain of twisting my loose teeth in my raw tearing gums and hearing it rip out with so much wicked joy I can feel the rush.... OK thats enough for now...

Today I did grocery shopping, helped cook, danced around to loosen up since its day 4 of my period and I don't bleed out so I felt happy lol, i posted on my alt, and binged Hannibal, just had a snack and gonna doze off to Hannibal x

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Slept in, accompanied cuzo to the hospital, came home late, now in bed

7/10 day, see it doesn't take much to make me have a fulfilled day.

I have 2 fashion posts in my notes, but now I have nowhere to post them because I got kicked out for some reason. 😭 I was very much on topic, and I swear I had 2 upcoming posts; it was even in my May goals. 💔

Sigh

#imissmyfuturewithfashionelle

Is it a rebrand AM I BLOCKED HELP