Being An ADHD Author Is So Counterproductive Sometimes. You Scroll Back Twenty Chapters To Make Sure

Here’s a video of me from this morning when I went nonverbal, I’m using ASL (American sign language) to the best of my ability to talk about why you should learn sign. It’s a great tool for nonverbal, neurodivergent, HOH, deaf, and other individuals to communicate. If you can decipher what I’m saying congrats, I know it’s not super neat or grammatically correct, I’m still learning.

(NV stands for nonverbal)

It is so fricken annoying when you are the only alter who has good posture, and because of all the time shrimping it hurts your back to sit/stand straight.

-Loki

YALL! I JUST FOUND THE ‘GOTH RAVE’ COLOR PALLET SETTING!! WAS NO ONE GOING TO TELL ME THIS WAS A THING??!

Waves!!

I see you in our notes on @crow-collective15 a lot and wanted to say hello!!!

Hi! Hope you are doing well.

-Apollo

Fictive culture is the host never actually sitting through your entire source, so you have very little idea of who you’re supposed to be.

It’s also seeing a lot of fan art of you shipped with someone from source that you know nothing about and being both curious to learn more but wary of finding something you don’t want to know anything about.

-Varian

Okay, hear me out.

Maybe excluding people can be a good thing?

NOT ALL THE TIME FOR ANY STUPID REASON!! THIS IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO EXCLUDE OR HATE ANYONE FOR ANY REASON CAUSE YOU DONT LIKE/UNDERSTAND THEM!!

I’m just saying, there’s a reason they don’t let non addicts into recovery meetings (except for therapists)

There’s a reason they separate grades by age

There’s a reason I don’t like posts saying that no one should ever be excluded, because that denies the fact that people are complex, imperfect, and that they vary dramatically. There are allowed to be spaces for specific people to feel safe.

I understand that the whole world shouldn’t be this way. But I want to hear anything about why my blog has to be tolerant of anything. This includes but is not limited to:

-Hate and bigotry of any kind

-Political beliefs

-Your stance on syscourse

That’s literally it. Now that doesn’t mean that I’m not willing to hear anyone out. But I reserve the right to block anyone I please, because I want this blog to be a safe space for people like me.

Do you want this power? Great. Make your own blog and block whoever the fuck you choose. But this one’s mine.

It’s okay to put boundaries down with people who make you uncomfortable, the same way it’s okay to tell someone they haven’t experienced the same thing as you and because of that they aren’t allowed in your safe space.

It’s okay to be a bit selective of those you tolerate for your and others safety.

But before I go I repeat

THIS IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO EXCLUDE OR HATE ANYONE FOR ANY REASON CAUSE YOU DONT LIKE/UNDERSTAND THEM!!

Anyways, I’ll be up for a while if you want to tell me off

Night -be/apollo

When you’re in a bad place mentally and start reaching out to people you barley talk to in an attempt to get some validation for your very existence….

Anyways, good night

-Varian

Okay, thank you so much for your input/gen This is just about what happens to us too with a few differences.

-Apollo

I’m on a roll with posts today, so I’m going to keep going.

To those who have already interacted with my post on amnesia thank you so much for the information and suggestions, I really appreciate it. But I do have another question for you guys.

When you switch, what does it look like? For me I start to find it really difficult to focus on anything when I switch out. I go into a dissociative catatonic state where I’m processing everything but I can’t move anything -not my eyes, not my fingers- unless I am fighting very hard. Once I get to that point no one can break me out of it but myself and I don’t usually try very hard because I’ll only come back for a minute or two before dissociating again.

But when I switch back in, it’s totally different. I am fully functional the entire time and it can really hard to notice unless I realize I’m acting different.

It maybe important to state that I don’t typically lose control or consciousness when I’m not in the front. I am still very much there, my personality and everything about me is gone. But I still retain my memories. It’s basically PDID but I try not to use that term because I live in the states and it isn’t recognized here.

I just wanted to know if anyone experiences something similar when it comes to such a big functional difference between switching in and out.

Thanks in advance.

-Apollo still

Just realized I have a sensory issue with sweat running down my face/neck. So whenever I have to mow the lawn and it’s like 90 degrees out (not an exaggeration) I always have a mental breakdown because of the sensory issues of sweat and bugs and having pots making the whole fucking experience miserable. And to top it all off, I get inside and my parents yell at me for taking more than one day to do it cause our yard is big and I always want to cry the entire time I do it. Like come on, if you want it done faster go fucking do it yourself, this is how I have to do it, if you have a problem with how it happens then find someone else who will do it your way.

Isn’t it great when you have chest pain and whatnot? And because you have all sorts of undiagnosed physical issues AND you’re afab you just kinda have to deal with it and not let your anxiety eat you alive? Great right?