Fires, Episode 5 (2021)

I specifically love it when Eddie takes a figure of speech and turns it into something weirdly sexual. So "it's curtains for you" becomes "it's beef curtains for you," and "you're like a dog with a bone" becomes "you're like a dog with a boner." There are a bunch of them sprinkled throughout the series and I love MS's delivery, I love that it's not clear whether this is something Eddie's always doing on purpose or if once in a while some of it might be unintentional. I have spent so much time thinking about how Eddie talks and why, because sometimes they seem to be intentionally doing a bit, but other times ("colloborate," "Duleese") I don't think they are. I have a whole headcanon that they don't subvocalize so they don't automatically practice the sounds of words while reading/thinking, and also they have a mild auditory processing disorder. Those two things combined mean that sometimes their way of saying a word or a turn of phrase wanders off from consensus reality. I think they realized very young that they had some kind of struggle around this, and at some point as an older kid or a teenager they decided -- as with many things about themself -- to lean into it harder and make it weirder than it naturally was, to turn it into a gag so that people would just assume it was deliberate.

eddie + her colourful similes

[Image description: a gif from the show Brooklyn 99, of Captain Holt on his feet, gesturing with great emphasis and yelling, "And you'll hear it AGAIN!" /End image description.]

few things more humbling than the realization that you really do write the same fic(s) over and over again

This was more challenging than the station because we don't get as many scenes/angles of the house. Still fun, but in places where we don't know what's there I've left it blank and noted that.

Part of the house is an A-frame. As I was drawing the floor plans I realized that they could be hard to understand for that reason, so here's an exterior view as well to hopefully clarify. 

(Please note, I do not have any insider knowledge of this set's floor plan. I have reconstructed this from what we can see in the series.)

(Previously: the station)

good morning dykes, just remembered this photo exists 🫃🏻

[“When we are able to access our “body memories” through the felt sense, then we can begin to discharge the instinctive survival energy that we did not have a chance to use at the time of an event. Regardless of what your particular situation is, you can learn to discharge and transform this energy. The discharge can be dramatic and visible, or subtle and quiet. It can be an intense shivering or the slightest sense of inner trembling; or it may be a changing of temperature between hot and cold, between warmth and coolness. Afterwards, you might notice that things fall into place a little easier, or that you’re calmer and more relaxed. Perhaps things that once upset you won’t seem to bother you as much, and you are significantly less critical of yourself. Or, you might experience a subtle deepening of your sense of well-being. It’s also entirely possible that the change may be more profound. Chronic pain may disappear. You might be able to do things that you’ve never before attempted. Your relationships with loved ones and others might become freer and easier. You might experience a surge in your feelings of passion and personal power. When trauma is healed, shift happens.”]

peter levine, from healing trauma, 2008

We never really talked about it but The Ugly Ducking that grew up to be a beautiful swan was still probably pretty fugly from a duck’s perspective

Deadloch fic rec: maybe, by groove_bunker

(Rated teen and up)

I love how much Dulcie cares for Eddie, and I love seeing the reasons why she feels that way, what it is about Eddie that she responds to. I really got such a physical sense of Dulcie, from reading this, of how she feels in this situation -- her intense need to find Eddie, to make sure Eddie is okay. This whole fic really made me go "Oh, my heart."

These two. I love them so, and @groovebunker has captured them so well, here.

Also: many of us have written fics in which Cath gets her shit together, and I like those; but I also like seeing Dulcie notice the ways Cath is really not behaving well, in this moment. Cath in canon is very unskilled, and it's refreshing to see that acknowledged.

Ugh. This really is just so lovely, and it really stayed with me after reading. Go read, enjoy, comment. <3 (Previously: Deadloch fic rec list)

I still get excited when my friends refer to me as their friend

"My friend said" "this is my friend" "they're my friend"

Im freaking out inside every time

I --

THEY LIKE VEGETAL :-D

🥦 Grocery clerks 🥦