Sometimes I Feel Like My World Is Not Falling Apart For A Moment.

I want someone to hug ape and tell me I’m appreciated and I’m not dramatic and I deserve this and that and I want someone to care

Just because the days are repetitive at the moment, it does not mean you are not still making progress. You are not wasting your life. You still have time.

Another one…when I fail to put my feelings into words, I don’t know whether to be happy or sad that someone else puts it so well. I’m sad someone else knows the feeling but happy I’m not alone.

I don't like using my parents money. It makes me feel dirty. I thought it was because I care about them or something. But I recently realize it's because I dont want to be financially dependent on them than I already am.

When I ask them to buy me something, it feels like I'm giving them an excuse to treat me anyway they want.

When I was younger, I thought they way they treated me was the price of living since they pay for me, so I don't like taking their money now.

But recently, from talking to friends and family, I realize that I shouldnt be hesitant. I should just take their money--let them buy me accessories, food, jewelry, and clothes. I should think of it like compensation for losing my childhood, or compensation for the emotional trauma.

I’m so tired

Like physically, mentally, emotionally

I just want a break like I want to breath

May your bookshelves be full and your tea always warm.

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أعوذ بالله من أن أكون كَنُوداً، أعُد البلايا و أنسى النعَم

"I seek refuge in Allah from being ungrateful, counting the calamities and forgetting the blessings."

One time the councillor in my school gave out to me and started crying because I kept laughing about the time I was almost sexually assaulted by my (arsehole sonovabitch) cousin (who was twice my age) when I was 7.... and when I kept joking about the fact that I went on a “nice” trip abroad for a year when I was 16 and ended up in a war zone and nearly died...I think she needs therapy from the sh!t I told her ToT she wasn’t prepared

i can be at my lowest point and ima still be laughing at something

— unknown