April 17th: Studying Rocket Science Is Not Too Bad If You Like It Enough 🚀

this magnificent artist ... @sunnnliwx is their @ on most things I believe . please show your support because this is absolutely beautiful .

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I hate whenever my parents argue. Not because of mental stress or distress- well it's here ofc. But I'm more than often pissed about the fact that it isn't a logical argument, nor an argument where both parties have equal number of things at stake therefore have equal opportunities or freedom to make their point.

It's mostly, if not always an argument where my father - the financial leader of the family interrogates and bullies my mother verbally into resigning her opinion. I've seen my mother more than often soften her tone even when she isn't wrong (which is more than often) simply to avoid triggering my father's anger because his ego can't bear it.

I understand my father takes up financial matters of the family so is stressed but that stress is nothing compared to what my mother goes through and I am not even biased when I say that. It's simply an observation. And I hate the society (just so we're clear on this point).

1, 2: study situation at midnight

3: beau’s delivery yesterday. a thoughtful gift.

4, 5: brunch at brewing point!! it was expensive but lovely. I love that other than one noisy group, most of us were brunching wearing home clothes.

6: the view while I wait with the beau at a vulcanizing shop because my tire got nails on it ☹️ it’s all better though! I’m safe!

THE IDIOT; ELIF BATUMAN

I recently started reading "The Idiot" by ELIF BATUMAN. And so far, it's been brilliant. The protagonist- full or intelligence and dry remarks, is absolutely a compelling presence in the back of your head as you move forward within the book!

i’ve turned into a purple gel pen girl of late

Today I learned about recursion: what they are and how to use them.

Very cool!

I did two exercises (two functions): one with the fibonacci sequence and the other with the factorial function.

my uni dorm <3

Marc: Sunny day, huh? Maybe I'd hit the lake for a while today.

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After 15 minutes near the lake.

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Marc: Steven, I hear you mumbling hello to random fishes one more time and I'll go khonshu on the lake.

I hate these days but here I am, living 'em again; inescapable reality....

What do you do when you don't feel like a person anymore? When all you feel like is an extension to everybody else's life? I like being needed most of the times, but I absolutely hate it in moments when I stop feeling like a fucking valid person anymore, when being needed absolutely fucks up with my personal progress, be it academic, psychological, physical or emotional. When people who need my help feel entitled to it and I feel too exhausted to even defend myself on that stand, when all I want to do is cry about it.