Girls Love Each Other Like Animals. There Is Something Ferocious And Unself-conscious About It. We Don't

oh my god this is something out of life experience

For my wife, after a near-death experience on the eve of our anniversary

When I tell you I believe in love at first at sight, I mean that every time I look you are a different person. I mean that looking’s not the same as seeing—we’re not static. It’s an hypothesis the sun will rise tomorrow. Every day I see it, and worry is the thief of so much joy, but not of this— that I don’t take it for granted. And when I say “I love you” every time you take the car, I mean not only that we almost hit a moose the other day. I mean it’s easier to write a sex scene than a make-out session. I mean I can’t describe your breath into another mouth, it’s so familiar— and the passion that could make it last forever came from novelty or desperation. So I think about meteors when we kiss. I think of supernovas, blackholes, gamma ray bursts and all the things in space that could vaporize us— every mass extinction event except the Anthropocene because that’s too depressing. I think about there being no god and no heaven and no higher purpose when I look into your eyes and I don’t need them, I just need time to slow down. I’m sorry I haven’t written you more poems, my love, they’re not marketable I think. People like to read themselves into these things and, well you know I like to write them there. But it’s not for me to say— this ‘you’ is only yours. I’ve put nothing on a pedestal that wasn’t my own. And when I ask if you can take a sick day while the kid’s at school, I mean not only that I want to ravish you in every room; I mean it doesn’t matter if we hit those moose or not— I mean that I don’t want us to grow old together, I want to be there when that meteor hits, stopping time forever— I won’t go into that light without you. And when I say “I love you” and “sleep well”, I mean I hope to see you in the morning for the first time. I mean that I would walk a thousand miles in the night to toss a pebble at your bedroom window, lift a boombox and shout: I’ve known you for a century; let me in your life. * * * Written Novemeber 2020.

this is going to be my check list :)

Hello do you know any dark academia movies or TV shows that I can find on Netflix?

* DISCLAIMER: this is based off of my personal loose definition of DA. Some of you may disagree with me on these qualifying but I believe they mostly fit. Also, the movies listed are horror movies. If you have any sensitivity to horror, google the movie before watching it. I know there are more DA shows and movies out there, this post contains Netflix DA content only.

DA Shows on Netflix:

The Magicians- magical university with dark themes! Takes awhile to get over the writing but the gist is pretty good

The End of the F*cking World- School setting and a shit ton of misfortune. Also funny and captivating

Dear White People - university with secret societies! Bonus points for diversity plus this is funny af 10/10

A Series of Unfortunate events - you prob know this from your childhood, one of the OG examples of DA I think. Dark shit and (sometimes) a school setting

Derry Girls- Irish school in the 90’s! Deals with the Irish conflict so semi- dark themes, this one is also hilarious and one of my favorite shows ever

Skins- (kind of DA) dark themes + teens. Earliest seasons are best

The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina- Satan worshipping witches! A witch school! Murder! Corruption! Can be very dark, writing also takes a while to get over, but if you watch long enough you’ll love it

How to Get Away with Murder- the title says it all. (This show also helped get me into DA)

DA Movies on Netflix:

A Nightmare on Elm Street- ik this is barely dark academia but it has a school setting and dark themes BC murder, also vintage v cool

The Scream franchise - teens in school + a murderer. Also vintage and great

Silence of the Lambs- (I know this is barely, again I have a loose definition of DA) main character is in the FBI academy + a murderer. Also vintage

When Emily Brönte said "You said I killed you. Haunt me then."

and when M.L Rio said "Here's the thing about lust: you don't have to like each other. Ever heard of hate sex?"

and when Achilles said  “There are no bargains between lion and men. I will kill you and eat you raw.”

and when Oscar Wilde said "Everything in the world is about sex except sex.  Sex is about power."

and when Donna Tartt said "There was a horrible, erratic thumping in my chest, as if a large bird was trapped inside my ribcage and beating itself to death."

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Those are purely raw emotions.

Passion, love, panic, power and death are an insane combination.

I can never find the right words to tell people what I’m thinking. Telling them I’m tired doesn’t work, but I can’t seem to vocalize that I’m mentally exhausted and sick of existing. Telling them I’m sad doesn’t work either, but I can’t explain that I’m struggling not to kill myself and that the joy in everything in my life is gone and when I wake up to the sun in my eyes, I have to struggle to get myself out of bed because most of me didn’t even want to wake up at all. I can’t tell them I’m numb because what I’m feeling is so much more complex than numb and I don’t have the vocabulary to tell them that I feel like I’m drowning and it terrifies me that I feel nothing as it’s happening, and that my insides want to scream but I can’t even find it in me to shed a tear anymore, that every single aspect of my life feels like it’s shaded in grey because someone sucked out all the colors but I can hardly even remember what colors are because I can no longer remember a time I didn’t feel like this. No, I don’t know how to say that. So I just whisper “I’m fine.”

for sure going to do that tho

Hey, Dark Academia community: if you’re interested in academic talks and intellectual discussion, I’d really recommend you subscribe to the channel virtual BRLSI on Youtube. BRLSI stands for the ‘Bath Royal Literary and Scientific Institution”: a respected organization set up 200 years ago as a centre for Enlightenment ideas and intellectual discussion in Bath, England (where Jane Austen lived!)

They organize lectures and interviews every month with leading academics and prominent authors, which are then posted online. My father is very active in BRLSI and would love for the channel to get some exposure - a lot of work goes into it. BRLSI is a respected historical organization and the channel is genuinely filled with lots fascinating stuff, real A+ Dark Academia material. Please do give it a look if you’re interested!

content of my posts

Health and Lifestyle 

A Morning Routine

Why Making Mistakes Is Important in Life

The Feeling of Grief (COVID 19)

Break the Habit of Procrastinating

Amazing Short Stretch

Stay Health & Active

30-day Journal Prompt

A Mini Guide to Dalgona Coffee

Things to Do When Bored

How to Stay Focused

Coping With Stress and Anxiety

Wake Up Without Feeling Tired

Random Acts of Kindness

A Guide to Sleep for Students

A Guide to Digital Minimalism

Books to Educate Yourself about Racism

Academics

How to Beat Exam Stress

A Guide to Review for Exam

Stress Detox for Online Learning

Tips for Learning from Home (COVID 19)

How to Study When Sick

Reduce Test Anxiety

School Hacks

Studying Snacks

Time Management for Students

Common Studying Mistakes

How to Do Revision

Classic Books to Read

How to Achieve Study Goals

Organize Your Study Space

Avoid and Deal With Study Burn Out

Getting Stuff Done

Improving Your Grade

Websites for SAT

How to Take Better Notes

Vocabulary for Learning a Language

Aesthetic & Creativity

Mini Guide to Graphic Design

Choose Your Academia

Things to Include in Bujo

Themes for Bullet Journal

Technology

Top 6 Apps that I Love

Why Listen to Podcast + My favs

Favorite Studying Tracks

Current Studying and Chilling Playlist

Wallpaper

May Wallpaper 2020

June Wallpaper 2020

Alchemical substances

Cadmia, which was also called Tuttia or Tutty, was probably zinc carbonate. Philosophers’ Wool, or nix alba (white snow). Zinc oxide made by burning zinc in air. Called Zinc White and used as a pigment. White vitriol. Zinc Sulphate. Described by Basil Valentine. Made by lixiviating roasted zinc blende (zinc sulphide). Calamine. Zinc carbonate. Corrosive sublimate. Mercuric chloride. first mentioned by Geber, who prepared it  by subliming mercury, calcined green vitriol, common salt and nitre. Calomel. Mercurous chloride. Purgative, made by subliming a mixture of mercuric chloride and metallic mercury, triturated in a mortar. This was heated in a iron pot and the crust of calomel formed on the lid was ground to powder and boiled with water to remove the very poisonous mercuric chloride. Cinnabar. Mercuric sulphide. Turpeth mineral. A hydrolysed form of mercuric sulphate. Yellow crystalline powder, described by Basil Valentine. Mercurius praecipitatus. Red mercuric oxide. Described by Geber. Cinnabar or Vermillion. Mercuric sulphide. Mosaic gold. Golden-yellow glistening scales of crystalline stannic sulphide, made by heating a mixture of tin filings, sulphur and salammoniac. Tin salt. Hydrated stannous chloride. Spiritus fumans. Stannic chloride, discovered by Libavius in 1605, through distilling tin with corrosive sublimate. Butter of tin. Hydrated stannic chloride. Galena. Plumbic sulphide. Chief ore of lead. Lead fume. Lead oxide obtained from the flues at lead smelters. Massicot. Yellow powder form of lead monoxide. Litharge. Reddish-yellow crystalline form of lead monoxide, formed by fusing and powdering massicot. Minium or Red Lead. Triplumbic tetroxide. Formed by roasting litharge in air. Scarlet crystalline powder. Naples yellow, or Cassel yellow. An oxychloride of lead, made by heating litharge with sal ammoniac. Chrome yellow. Lead chromate. Sugar of Lead. Lead acetate, Made by dissolving lead oxide in vinegar. White lead. Basic carbonate of lead. Used as a pigment. Venetian White. Mixture of equal parts of white lead and barium sulphate. Dutch White. Mixture of one part of white lead to three of barium sulphate. Antimony. From latin ‘antimonium’ used by Constantinius Africanus (c. 1050) to refer to Stibnite. Glass of Antimony. Impure antimony tetroxide, obtained by roasting stibnite. Used as a yellow pigment for glass and porcelain. Butter of Antimony. White crystalline antimony trichloride. Made by Basil Valentine by distilling roasted stibnite with corrosive sublimate. Glauber later prepared it by dissolving stibnite in hot concentrated hydrochloric acid and distilling. Powder of Algaroth. A white powder of antimonious oxychloride, made by by precipitation when a solution of butter of antimony in spirit of salt is poured into water. Stibnite. Antimony trisulphide. Grey mineral ore of antimony. Wismuth. Bismuth. Pearl white. Basic nitrate of bismuth, used by Lemery as a cosmetic. Chrome green.  Chromic oxide. Chrome yellow. Lead chromate. Chrome red. Basic lead chromate. Chrome orange. Mixture of chrome yellow and chrome red. Green Vitriol. Ferrous sulphate. Rouge, Crocus, Colcothar. Red varieties of ferric oxide are formed by burning green vitriol in air. Marcasite. Mineral form of Iron disulphide. Oxidises in moist air to green vitriol. Pyrites. Mineral form of iron disulphide. Stable in air. Cobalt. Named by the copper miners of the Hartz Mountains after the evil spirits the 'kobolds’ which gave a false copper ore. Zaffre. Impure cobalt arsenate, left after roasting cobalt ore. Nickel. Named by the copper miners of Westphalia the 'kupfer-nickel’ or false copper. Copper glance. Cuprous sulphide ore. Aes cyprium. Cyprian brass or copper. Cuprite. Red cuprous oxide ore. Blue vitriol or bluestone. Cupric sulphate. Verdigris. The green substance formed by the atmospheric weathering of copper. This is a complex basic carbonate of copper. In more recent times the term 'verdigris’ is more correctly applied to copper acetate, made by the action of vinegar on copper. Resin of copper. Cuprous chloride. Made by Robert Boyle in 1664 by heating copper with corrosive sublimate. Lunar caustic, lapis infernalis. Silver nitrate. Fulminating silver. Silver nitride, very explosive when dry. Made by dissolving silver oxide in ammonia. Horn silver, argentum cornu. A glass like ore of silver chloride. Luna cornea. The soft colourless tough mass of silver chloride, made by heating horn silver till it forms a dark yellow liquid and then cooling. Described by Oswald Croll in 1608. Purple of Cassius. Made  by Andreas Cassius in 1685 by precipitating a mixture of gold, stannous and stannic chlorides, with alkali. Used for colouring glass. Fulminating gold. Made by adding ammonia to the auric hydroxide formed by precipitation by potash from metallic gold dissolved in aqua regis. Highly explosive when dry. Quicklime. Calcium oxide. Slaked lime. Calcium hydroxide. Chalk. Calcium carbonate. Gypsum. Calcium sulphate. Natron. Native sodium carbonate. Soda ash. Sodium carbonate formed by burning plants growing on the sea shore. Caustic marine alkali. Caustic soda. Sodium hydroxide. Made by adding lime to natron. Common salt. Sodium chloride. Glauber’s Salt. Sodium sulphate. Wood-ash or potash. Potassium carbonate made from the ashes of burnt wood. Caustic wood alkali. Caustic potash. Potassium hydroxide. Made by adding lime to potash. Liver of sulphur. Complex of polysulphides of potassium, made by fusing potash and sulphur. Sal Ammoniac. Ammonium Chloride. Described by Geber. Sal volatile, Spirit of Hartshorn. Volatile alkali. Ammonium carbonate made from distilling bones, horns, etc. Caustic volatile alkali. Ammonium hydroxide. Nitrum flammans. Ammonium nitrate made by Glauber. Brimstone (from German Brennstein 'burning stone’). Sulphur. Flowers of sulphur. light yellow crystalline powder, made by  distilling sulphur. Thion hudor (Zosimus refers to this as the 'divine water’ or 'the bile of the serpent’). A deep reddish-yellow liquid made by boiling flowers of sulphur with slaked lime. Milk of sulphur (lac sulphuris). White colloidal sulphur.  Geber made this by adding an acid to thion hudor. Oil of Vitriol. Sulphuric acid made by distilling green vitriol. Realgar. red ore of arsenic. Arsenic disulphide. Orpiment. Auri-pigmentum. Yellow ore of arsenic. Arsenic trisulphide. White arsenic. Arsenious oxide. Made from arsenical soot from the roasting ovens, purified by sublimation. Aqua tofani. Arsenious oxide. Extremely poisonous. Used by Paracelsus. King’s Yellow. A mixture of orpiment with white arsenic.

“The ‘60s are gone, dope will never be as cheap, sex never as free, and the rock and roll never as great.” - Abbie Hoffman.

My therapist- John Lennon saying and I oop- as George squeezes passed him in the 60s isn't real, it cant hurt you

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Let’s talk about cleansing! 💨 ⁣

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Sage. Rosemary. Frankincense.⁣

These are my go-to cleansing tools. In terms of magic & the craft, I personally favor anything that involves fire or burning, as it seems to be most effective for me. Sage & rosemary I use for cleansing bigger areas, with a deeper impact. The Frankincense incense I use whenever I just have to do one room, cleanse myself, or when the “vibe just feels off.” Most of the time, I light these up, open my windows, and walk around like the crazy witch I am holding a smoking plant or stick above my head. ⁣

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Sage🌱 all cleansing! This not only gets rid of bad energies, but also the good! Sage cleansing creates an open space for any and everything, so I NEVER just use sage and call it a day. When using sage, always replace whatever you just clearned with good energies. This can be done by burning incense right after(that’s what I do), spraying a mist for whatever intention you want, visualizing white light, etc. I sage with the windows open, and incense fill the space with the windows closed. *** SAGE CLEANSING IS NOT SMUDGING. Smudging is a deeply sacred CLOSED practice specific to First Nation people… So the next time I see a Becky at Coachella burning sage to cover up the smell of her own sweat, if she says she’s smudging, I’m going OFF😂⁣

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Rosemary 🌿 has a ton of magical uses; however, for cleansing it’s super effective. I like to use it specifically for spaces I do any spell work in, or read cards in. It helps enhance psychic abilities, purifies negative energies, and improves mental clarity.⁣

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Frankincense🔥 as incense is my preferred method of every day cleansing, and also offerings to both my Kemetic and Norse gods. It corresponds with protection, prosperity, and specifically when burned helps relieve anxiety + stress. I find it works really well when I feel something off during a reading or when I don’t want to sage my whole house.⁣

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These are my methods of cleansing, but there’s tons of others! The next time you just want to reset the vibes, or clear out some unwanted energies, here’s some ways you can do it! ✨Witch frens, how do you cleanse???