Okay But I Just Like Told My Boyfriend Few Weeks Ago That I Blocked My Crush Tiktoker Because She Is

you made me feel like i was not enough

like i always need to pretend to be someone else

someone you wanted me to be

someone you would like to be friends with

even if you didn’t you it on purpose , this stayed with me till now

i will never walk through the valley of my personality without looking back, on this shadow. Scar that you left on my heart. Fear that’s going to follow me into the darkest days, just to give me opportunity to arise

from hellfire i walked through again

10/8/20

Jeez, long time no see! I hope to start making some more original content again over the next few months seeing as the uni grind is beginning once again. I’m currently starting some research towards my dissertation on gender in early modern england (can’t believe i’m going into the last year of this degree…) 

It’s been a whirlwind couple of months, for me and like,, everyone else on the planet- got my second year feedback and averaged a high 2:1- relieved to say in the least! Whilst I’m back on the grind now, here are a couple of productive things I’ve found great for filling up my free time: 

1) Learning a new skill- I’ve always wanted to try out yoga and meditation, seeing as I’m neither peaceful nor flexible. I try to practice 3x a week, and I’ve already noticed improvements in my breathing and flexibility, and I’m just feeling a whole lot calmer! Think of A Thing you’ve always wanted to try, but put off because you thought you’d be no good at it, and give it a good stab while you’ve got the free time. 

2) Reading. All. The. Books. I set myself a challenge to read thirty books before results day, to keep my mind off of it all- proud that I’ve succeeded! Reading is such a peaceful, productive passivity and I will never cease to shut up about it. 

3) If you can, getting outside for a good long walk. In this heat, a good 2 hour walk around my area with my boyfriend, or a podcast, has been a really nice substitute for more high intensity cardio. It’s also a good idea if you’re looking for ways to get outside without putting yourself in a high risk environment- changing up your regular route can be the greatest little adventure! I somehow ended up by the Thames a couple of days back, which was so cool. 

4) Pick up some extra qualifications to boost your CV! I work part time in childcare, and am interested in teaching, so I got a little online certification in developmental psych to stick on my CV. 

5) NETFLIX. So much netflix. Good binge- able shows I’ve been loving include The Umbrella Academy, The Sinner, Nightflyers, and Another Life. Also, I rewatch brooklyn nine nine every. damn. day. 

Hope you guys are safe, and well! 

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay 

Petals are bleeding into the dirt 

Now we watch darkness swallow day

The reaper returns, a price we must pay

Writhing, wizened, woozy with hurt 

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay

Tongues shredded by what we can't say

Moonlight and tears, goodbyes so curt

Now we watch darkness swallow day

Though we'd rebel we must still obey

Our ghosts are sleeping now, inert

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay 

We all have our parts that we must play

Hope is fickle and prone to desert

Now we watch darkness swallow day

The anguish wrapped tight with dismay--

We save the confessions we'd like to blurt

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay

Now we watch darkness swallow day

How to cleanse!

Hello teenies! Here we are to tell you how to cleanse your items - this is great for anything at all, it works for any objects and even works for your own body!

What is cleansing?

Cleansing is a way to remove any negative or unwanted energies from your possessions, a place or yourself. It’s a way to make sure that you aren’t getting negative energies from the things around you! This is a very important part of being a witch because all of your things will absorb negative or strange unwanted energies sometimes!

How do we cleanse things?

There are so many ways to cleanse things! So here’s loads of nice ways to do it! 

Using crystals! Selenite and Kyanite never needs to be cleansed themselves (unless you want to be super sure then you can do!) or you can use clear quartz, tourmaline or obsidian, but these will need cleansing using other methods. Just place them near or on top of the item(s) you’re cleansing and they’ll absorb the negative energy!

Smoke cleansing! You can either use incense or dried white sage to do this, but be careful because white sage may resemble the scent of cannabis, so if that’s an issue for any reason then use a nice scented incense instead! This method is nice and simple, you just light the incense or sage and either place it near an item or take it around a room/house to cleanse it. You can also use specific types of incense to replace negative energies with different energies that you want around you!

Salt! Make sure that an item can have contact with salt, if not then you can place the item inside a bag or pouch to keep it protected, or you can keep the salt in a pouch or jar instead. Bury your item(s) in the salt for up to 3 days OR you can place a pouch or jar of salt near an item instead

Bathing and showering! Yep, you can use basic things like this to cleanse yourself of negative energies. While you wash yourself you can imagine all of the negative energies being washed away. You can even choose washing products that have ingredients that are good to cleanse, Lush Cosmetics are so great for things with natural ingredients but many others will have natural ingredients in too that can give a boost of cleansing! You can also use salt based body scrubs :D

Running water! Make sure your item is safe to put in water, some crystals can’t be put in water and may erode, so check if it’s a crystal you’re cleansing. Find a stream or river, or even use a tap or shower if you want, and then place the item in the running water for as long as you like and the running water will carry away the negative energies!

Your own energy! If you’re feeling particularly positive one day, you can use your own energy to cleanse things by focusing very hard on pushing out the negative energies within an object and replacing them with positive energies. This can be very tiring though, so please be careful using this method so that you don’t drain yourself entirely. You can also borrow positive energy from plants, the earth, spirits or animals if you like, but make sure that you ask and also leave an offering for them as an exchange.

Sunlight! Some crystals or items may fade in colour or be damaged by the sun, so please be careful and have a look if it’s safe or not! All you need to do is simply place the item(s) in the sunlight (or on a windowsill where the sun comes in) and leave it for a few hours to cleanse.

Moonlight! This is much safer than the sunlight, as long as there’s a moon in the sky you can place your item(s) either outside or on the windowsill to bathe in the moonlight for a few hours, but make sure you put them away before the sun comes up (or before you go to sleep) unless they’re safe in the sunlight :)

Sweeping and cleaning! This doesn’t sound very magickal, but as you’re cleaning your space, you’re also cleansing the negativity from it. Imagine that your cleaning is taking away all the unwanted and negative energies!

Music! This is one of my favourite ways to cleanse, listen to some of your favourite music that makes you feel positive emotions. If you want then you can also sing and/or dance to increase all of the positive energy. This charges them at the same time!

Sigils! Find or design a sigil that is for cleansing, put it on or near the item you’re cleansing. You can draw sigils in shower gel on your body or draw one in bubble bath on the bottom of your bath tub to cleanse yourself. Or you can draw one in honey on the bottom of your tea or coffee too. Or draw one in oil when you cook your food!

Other cleansing ideas!

There’s spells and mixtures you can do in order to cleanse as well! Some of these go to links to Mod U’s witch blog and some go to other blogs, all of these links are safe for teenies, but the blogs may not be entirely safe, so please be careful if you venture out onto any of these blogs!

Stardust powder! This is a lovely pretty thing to have around and all you need to do is place an object on or near the powder to cleanse them, it also can charge things! Please be careful because not all crystals or objects will be safe to have direct contact with the powder because of the salt especially, so you can put the powder inside a jar or sachet, or you can lay some paper towel over the top of it to avoid direct contact!

Bubbly friendly cleansing and protection spell jar!

Easy cleansing spray!

Cleansing tea!

Herbal cleansing bottle!

Quick shower cleansing!

Simple ways to cleanse your life!

Anxiety cleanse!

i was just sitting at the starbucks and wanted to draw smth as i only have any kind of inspiration when i’m here so duh, i feel like i do t have progress YET but i’m trying really hard so i hope some day i’ll learn how to drown normally but for now let’s just hope this doesn’t suck to the lowest point :))))

this is going to be my check list :)

Hello do you know any dark academia movies or TV shows that I can find on Netflix?

* DISCLAIMER: this is based off of my personal loose definition of DA. Some of you may disagree with me on these qualifying but I believe they mostly fit. Also, the movies listed are horror movies. If you have any sensitivity to horror, google the movie before watching it. I know there are more DA shows and movies out there, this post contains Netflix DA content only.

DA Shows on Netflix:

The Magicians- magical university with dark themes! Takes awhile to get over the writing but the gist is pretty good

The End of the F*cking World- School setting and a shit ton of misfortune. Also funny and captivating

Dear White People - university with secret societies! Bonus points for diversity plus this is funny af 10/10

A Series of Unfortunate events - you prob know this from your childhood, one of the OG examples of DA I think. Dark shit and (sometimes) a school setting

Derry Girls- Irish school in the 90’s! Deals with the Irish conflict so semi- dark themes, this one is also hilarious and one of my favorite shows ever

Skins- (kind of DA) dark themes + teens. Earliest seasons are best

The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina- Satan worshipping witches! A witch school! Murder! Corruption! Can be very dark, writing also takes a while to get over, but if you watch long enough you’ll love it

How to Get Away with Murder- the title says it all. (This show also helped get me into DA)

DA Movies on Netflix:

A Nightmare on Elm Street- ik this is barely dark academia but it has a school setting and dark themes BC murder, also vintage v cool

The Scream franchise - teens in school + a murderer. Also vintage and great

Silence of the Lambs- (I know this is barely, again I have a loose definition of DA) main character is in the FBI academy + a murderer. Also vintage

Happy October Witches 👻 let the spooky vibes take over your soul:

🎃 read some spooky novels

🎃 start planning your Samhain

🎃 pet all the black cats

🎃 do some autumnal baking

🎃 do a dedication of Samhain in your grimoire

🎃 go for a walk in the woods

🎃 say hello to a spirit or leave an offering

🎃 cleanse your space for the 1st day of October

🎃 do a tarot read for October

🎃 visit your local witch store

🎃 watch some spooky movies

i always apologize for doing some stuff for myself only, for sometimes not considering anyone’s opinion, but then, she is not hungry and i just ask to go to one place, and we go where she wants, i’m not saying anything yet, they don’t serve us there and i’m hungry. once again i ask to go to the place i’m saying and she agrees until she makes a whole drama out of it, because once in a life time stuff didn’t go as she wanted and once again she takes me where she wants, and gets mad at me for not wanting to eat anything from there cuz i didn’t want, calls me piece of shit, ungrateful bitch, and says that i should die. honestly ?i think she is right

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