Colourbean’d

dearg le fearg.

that’s it.

just that.

(it means red with anger in Irish by the way!)

dream i had in class yesterday

why do i want to grow up?

well, i’m glad you asked!

firstly, antidepressants aren’t recommended to <18s and it’d be incredibly hard to be prescribed any medicine

secondly, the ability to do whatever i want. choose my profession, even if it’s a decision between a shitty job and a shittier job.

thirdly, to come out, i can’t now because-

-fourthly, everyone at school is homophobic. i’d feel more safely gay outside of school.

fifth, i feel chronologically like i am too young to have a proper relationship, and everyone my age is bad anyway. i want a relationship though, probably just cause i want to be someone’s first choice though lmao

sixth, i feel stuck, if that makes sense? i don’t enjoy childhood and want to be in my twenties so i can do stuff, especially without fear of being bullied lmao. i want control over what i do, like i mentioned before.

seventh, social anxiety probably gets better after puberty.

eighth, people will be better after puberty.

ninth, i want to do something with my life. something worthwhile. probably an activist for native people lmao (irish, indigenous, aboriginals etc)

tenth, inconsistency. i want a change in routine.

yes i am aware i will have many more responsibilities, but childhood is not fun for me at ALL

no spoilers cause im on s5ep4 but with weeping angels, can you not just close your eyes and shoot??? 😭

i regret to inform you my favourite books (pre 10 years old) was the shallow transphobic harry potter books 🥲 i moved on to asoue and percy jackson though

ps: no shame to people who enjoy hp, i just prefer reading books that go in depth about characters over plot

me when somebody asks me if i was a harry potter kid or a twilight kid

This is a threat

fuck im actually really disappointed in myself 😭😭

i only come on tumblr to talk about depressing shit what the fuck 😭😭😭

Irishmen and women, Constance Markievicz didn’t fight for nothing. But yeah, i agree with the overall thing. HOW DO THEY NOT CARE? We’re fighting over here in the Sé Chondae (six counties)!!

she's a hero. she should dump her west brit "friends" and become friends with me instead

i find comfort imagining myself playing with my siblings’s children when no one else would. my siblings don’t have children. i just imagine myself doing what no one else would with me