hey. got involuntarily admitted for 3 weeks. i won't touch much upon the hell i went through but let's just say i am extremely jaded and bitter and angry. i have a severe bruise on my leg from attacking objects, and some more bruises elsewhere. my knees are further fucked from medical neglect. i was threatened with restraint within hours of arriving. nothing feels real and i keep breaking down in tears.
i just got out today. my bestie picked me up, we hung out, it was cathartic. i was going to be put into inpatient rehab, then i realized i didn't want to be locked up and was just being manipulated. then i tried for respite and outpatient, but respite won't have a bed until after thanksgiving. i'm terrified to even go now because i want to keep what control of my life i have left.
so now i'm home. with my abusive family. no one has seemed happy to see me. only my mom visited me, when i asked her to bring something. my psychiatrist at the ward broke HIPPA and told my mom i'm an addict, who then told my aunt, and now my whole family knows. my father included. i have already abused drugs within half an hour of being home.
i don't even have the option of relaxing in my own room, which i had begun turning into a safe haven, because my family turned it into storage. there is virtually no walking room and it is a massive safety hazard to me. they also killed half my roses, and the others are barely alive. they said they'd take care fo them. fuck my life. fuck all of this.
why is everything i touch dying.
Saw a post like this with negative outlook so I asked for it to be fixed
I'm so going to redraw this at some point but I have to share the old one- Post Reboot Warner Activities
This is not my picture- but husband just called, made me put it on video phone, and walked up and down the block to show me this amazing library and I really want to go to Kansas City now.
These are so pretty! Niceđ
Shout out to anyone that ever made a character thatâs a âSecret Government experimentâ that escapes the lab and is now wanted and misunderstood. Thatâs top tier character design, thank you.
demisexuality can be so hard to explain because itâs misconstrued as you just wanting to trust the other person before you have sex with them. and I get why the misconception happens. But demisexuality differs in that there isnât sexual attraction at all before that bond forms.
I think what people have difficulty with is the idea that there are people out there who arenât experiencing sexual attraction at all until a certain point, if ever, because weâre taught that sex, libido, and sexual attraction are all the same, both in and out of queer spaces.
And when youâre learning about asexuality and demisexuality, you may learn that people have romantic and aesthetic attraction separately from sexual attraction, and that sexual and romantic attraction arenât necessarily intertwined, and that may challenge your worldview on sex.
But âI trust you enough to have sex with youâ isnât the same as âIâm not sexually attracted to anyone but you, and the reason Iâm sexually attracted to you now after weâve established this close bond is literally because of the bond of trust weâve been able to formâ.
Itâs easy to see how those can get conflated. On the surface, if youâre unfamiliar with asexuality, they may sound the same. But itâs important to acknowledge the difference between âno sex until I trust youâ and âno sexual attraction unless I trust you and maybe not even thenâ.
Demisexuality is housed under the asexuality spectrum. Itâs part of the gray area between being allosexual and asexual. Itâs part of why the definition for asexuality includes âlittle to no sexual attractionâ. Itâs a mostly asexual experience with an asterisk.
While being demisexual may have impacts on a persons sexual activity, even demisexuals have a varied relationship to the act of participating in sex. Libido and sexual attraction are not always intertwined either, which can make telling the difference tricky.
I think of sexual attraction as libido that has a compass. Since I rarely ever experience sexual attraction, but do have libido, itâs noticeable for me when that libido actually has a direction to go, rather than being a floating, nebulous, independent thing.
Remember, not everyone is demisexual. Thereâs a difference between waiting to have sex and not having sexual attraction at all until a certain point. This also inherently ties demisexuality to romantic attraction and relationships, and not all demisexuals are alloromantic.
But if you read what demisexuality is and think âeveryone is like thatâ or âthatâs just being a womanâ, you either 1) are demisexual 2) donât understand what it is or 3) both. And itâs okay to not know. Just as long as youâre willing to try to learn.
This is so pretty and I love it
Found this masterpiece on my For You page- I have no idea how heidysartstuff does this. (All credit goes to them, obviously)
Just when I thought I couldn't be more excited, I find this on Hulu
Call me Skyler ⢠My main fandom is Animaniacs, but I also like Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, Frasier, (kind of) South Park, etc ⢠I'm practicing my drawing skills but I suck lol ⢠I love books and am pretty decent @ writing ⢠I post like every 2 months about random crap, and I mostly reblog.
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