Contemplating Suicide And My Dad Is Listening To Maria And Call Me Maybe In The Living Room. IS MY LIFE

pain no longer tickles that little corner of my brain like it used to, i'm tired

in the mood to start eating really little again what do we think guys

unfortunately none of my thoughts ever become words so when i have to rant about my interests i can only say "AND THEN DID YOU KNOW SHES SO AHSJDJDKSKMSJDIDOO BABYYYYY EKSOODODKEKKD I NEED TO HUG HER SHES SO YUMMY GOSSSHHHHHH"

as someone who spends an unusual amount of time thinking about the vibes of various words, objects, and shapes, i have to admit that GAD and ASPD have crazy aura purely in terms of sound

sobbing bc pjsk fucking hates me and my favorite song betrayed me and there're tears in my eyes so i can't even see the notes anymore so i suck extra and this is just going horribly

i see stripes and they remind me of barcodes and that reminds me of cuts and that's why i really like wearing stripes

just remembered that in 3rd grade my classmates and i would roleplay as a family and i ALWAYS had to play the father and the role consisted solely of giving money to my spoilt kids and mourning the loss of the wife that left me 😭

tell me why i've been dealing w pre-period symptoms for the past WEEK, only for it to STILL not be here????

turns out people actually get hurt when i distance myself from them. this is news to me

my main hobbies are reading and playing pjsk and both are making my forearms incredibly sore