One Day, Someone Will Find My Bad Attitude Endearing

i might not be a saint but i sure as hell don't deserve to be treated this way

i can't even cvt as well as others what am i good at

honestly, i can't fathom how there are people that actually comment on vent posts to try and help/comfort op. do some people just have enough empathy and kind words to spare? i can barely handle it when my friends vent to me, but there are people that can comfort total strangers? i just can't wrap my head around it

literally the only thing keeping me going is the thought that i'll be able to do something unhealthy or self-destructive if i stay alive

annoyed someone into getting my way today. sometimes life is worth living

i tell people to trust my gut knowing damn well that if i did, i'd be dead

there are many feelings in my stomach at the moment and they are all bad

keep playing hard to get and i'll probably just lose interest, i need attention.

is it a thing that people who regularly struggle with mental health can only ever befriend others who struggle with mental health? i have way too many suicidal friends (this obviously isn't an invitation for them to commit) but i'm genuinely just tired of being so worried

YOU WERE LITERALLY ONLINE WHY DIDNT YOU REPLY TO MY MESSAGES JUST YESTERDAY YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT