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1 year ago
axii-xix - Axii_XiX

The finale of a never-ending masquerade.

AQ 4.2 spoilers.

5 months ago
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4 months ago
A Rambling Analysis Of Ivan's "Nowhere" (spoilers For Up To Round 7)

A rambling analysis of Ivan's "Nowhere" (spoilers for up to round 7)

I'll start with my thoughts on the song itself, then break down some of the lyrics.

So, "Nowhere" is quite a bit different from Ivan's other songs, mostly in regards to the melody and his singing. His voice is a lot more... flat, and the pitch and length of the notes vary a lot less. In "Cure" and "Black Sorrow," there's a lot more variance: Ivan's voice goes from soft and low, singing shorter notes, to louder and higher, holding long notes, et cetera.

In Nowhere, the notes are typically shorter, and tend to stay in the same general area on the scale. Ivan's tone stays very consistent; in his other songs, it goes from calm and collected to full of emotion and feelings. He sounds a lot more monotone in Nowhere, and not just because he's singing quietly. He's not entirely apathetic; there's still a lot of emotion in his voice. But it's muted. Numb.

The only line that lacks this somewhat monotone, apathetic tone is "In love with you, when you were mine." This line is EVERYWHERE, and plays in the background of the ENTIRE TRACK.

And all of this kind of makes sense. "Black Sorrow" and "Cure" were both declarations of Ivan's love, and his feelings for Till. They were meant to be heard; they were meant to have an audience in Till. Ivan was projecting his emotions outwards.

"Nowhere" was not meant to be heard by anyone but Ivan himself—not even Till. It represented Ivan's internal thoughts, ones he would never say to anyone else—sort of how like someone might find certain things about a friend or significant other annoying, but choose not to say anything despite thinking it. Ivan is tired, and perhaps even a bit annoyed. He's wondering why Till doesn't return his feelings, and likely, wondering why he himself continues to love Till despite that.

Now, onto the lyrics (English translation b/c my Korean is awful):

That's just the kind of kid he is, so laugh Laugh, because he can't do anything No one cares about someone like him There's nowhere in the world for him to rest

It's been stated (see image below) that Ivan feels like he cannot be loved—that he's undeserving of it, or just doesn't have the qualifications. These lyrics are Ivan speaking about himself. Ivan is unable to get Till to return his feelings ("no one cares about someone like him"), and he is also, ultimately, unable to save Till ("Laugh, because he can't do anything"). To make this second thing worse, it happened not once, but TWICE: first when Ivan couldn't get Till to leave with him, and then when his actions in Round 6 ended up seemingly being for nothing in Round 7.

A Rambling Analysis Of Ivan's "Nowhere" (spoilers For Up To Round 7)

Another bit of the lyrics is as such:

Worse and worse this painful wound I become more and more numb

Ivan is slowly becoming more and more apathetic, and resigned to his fate, saying that "this always happens to me." Even the song's title is a reference to this: there's nowhere for Ivan to find solace, and all of "this" is going nowhere—"this" being Ivan's relationship with Till. Ivan is resigned to his fate of loving Till—almost certainly more than he loves himself—un"till" the end: until death.


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1 year ago
🍃 Scholars And Scaras 🍃
🍃 Scholars And Scaras 🍃
🍃 Scholars And Scaras 🍃
🍃 Scholars And Scaras 🍃

🍃 Scholars and Scaras 🍃

For this week’s video I drew some of Sumeru’s finest fellas! ✨🍃 (here’s hoping it manifests some luck for Al Haitham’s banner so I can complete this set in-game 🙏💦)

▶️ SPEEDPAINT LINK

[DO NOT EDIT OR REPOST TO OTHER SITES / ACCOUNTS] ♻️reblogs are lovely tho!♻️


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11 months ago
Now Presenting, Rover-with-his-hair-down: A Concept

Now presenting, Rover-with-his-hair-down: a concept

This could apply to female Rover pretty decently as well, but probably with more white parts of the hair

I haven't really seen any hair-down art of the rovers yet so I decided to draw some >:D

(I made this before I went to bed on impulse so it's a bit messy)


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1 year ago
Reference Sheet Of My Favorite Oc! Karan!! (flat Version Under The Cut)

reference sheet of my favorite oc! karan!! (flat version under the cut)

Reference Sheet Of My Favorite Oc! Karan!! (flat Version Under The Cut)

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1 year ago
Please Tell Me This Is The Fontaine Trio Coming To Their Senses And Seeing That Arle Isn't "good"

Please tell me this is the Fontaine trio coming to their senses and seeing that Arle isn't "good"

I need these three to be free of the Fatui's indoctrination already.

Also Lyney not being here makes me worried... cause from the trailer lines he sounded scared and Arle was obviously angry at him....

You leave my boy alone you bitch... I don't care if you're hot as fuck, no one hurts these three.


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3 months ago
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again
I’m Never Feeling Happiness Again

I’m never feeling happiness again


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