Watching How To Get Away With Murder And Reading The Secret History At The Same Time Is Such A Surreal

I am completely not normal about Love for Love's sake.

It brought up so much pain, so much emotion and trauma that I'd buried deep inside for the sake of my sanity. It opened up this small chest of sadness I carry with me at all times, and all of the things I thought I had worked through spilled out. Tae Myung-ha is a character I relate to on such a visceral level, from his perpetual weariness to his self-destructive tendencies. I relate to feeling like you're older than everyone else around you, like you already know better, like there is no point in trying.

In the very first scene we already get the feeling that something is wrong with Myung-ha. That question from Sunbae - I swear to god, I've had people say the same thing to me, and I answered in the same dismissive and sarcastic tone. Yes, I am drinking like I want to die, but, unfortunately, it's not working. So I'll go on drinking like that to see how far I can go before I keel over.

When my girlfriend said she loved me for the first time, I held her and caressed her cheek but I was screaming internally. I was doing my best not to run away. I swear to god I could hear the error alarm going off in my head. I accepted the fact that her and I have very differing views on what love is, and I tried so hard to prove to her that she didn't actually love me, that it was just infatuation, that it was too soon, that she was yet to know the real me, so she couldn't love me, right? Then I realized that I was hurting her, because throwing someone else's feelings in their face is a cruel thing to do, especially to my girlfriend, who has issues with expressing her feelings.

I still don't believe her. And I am trying so hard to accept the fact that people love me in the way they do.

One of my friends once told me that I needed to rely on others, that she loved me and cared for me, and that I needed to accept that. Refusing to accept someone's love for you can be just as hurtful as not being loved at all. Other people love you, and it's important to show them you appreciate their love.

YES TO EMBRACING SEXUAL FLUIDITY YES TO NORMALIZING CASUAL QUEERNESS

#bl tropes who? #the lgbt energy in this building is astronomical!

Thank you for tagging me, @galaxynerd1 and @darkileah! I finally scraped myself off the floor to write this post

So here goes

Gender - female

Sexuality - bi/queer (I have an identity crisis every two weeks so)

Height - 160cm or 5'3

Hogwarts House - Ravenclaw

Favorite animal - cats

Average hours of sleep - 5-7 h

Dogs or cats - I'm a cat person to the bone

Number of blankets you sleep with - I have one thick blanket for all seasons. And 4 billion cushions and pillows

Dream job - I really don't know either a filmmaker or a psychologist (but I'm qualified for neither of these jobs)

When I created my blog - like 2 years ago

Followers count - 190

How I came up with my URL - I cannot maintain any aesthetic for longer than a month and I become obsessed with a lot of things so people who follow me should know that I post whatever I'm interested in at the moment

I cannot come up with 10 people to tag( So I'll tag a few: @whatsmidoingawake, @darc-academiia, @oscar-do-be-wildin, @starry-skiesabove

Those were the original questions, here are mine:

Fictional world you like to escape to: Harry Potter

Guilty pleasure movie/book: To all the boys I've loved before. God I love a good romcom

The last song that made you cry: Sports by Beach Bunny. I don't know but when I'm sad her songs make me cry and feel nostalgic over shit

"He's not naked, a man, or a friend to me (we're husbands)" - Aziraphale's mind

Do you ever feel so lonely and unloved that you compensate the unreceived affection by obsessing over ships

I am deAD

DEceAsed

Completely DesTroyEd

Han Daon. Humans promise forever, though they know nothing of the future. But I'm sure they are genuine when they make the promise. I can't promise you forever, but I will promise you this. The memories we build together will sustain me for eons to come. So, be happy for the next three years, even if it's just for me. Okay? Okay.

The Judge from Hell (2024)

I feel like if I do this to my crush/friend we'll stop being friends... and by that I mean she'll probably ghost me because what the fuck

when you finally get to flirt with the guy you've been in love with for years and so your first course of action is to ... eat his hands?

Richard Papen is so stupid

His shady friends were like “Hey let’s go for a ride in the night” after they had confided in him that they’d MURDERED someone and didn’t plan on going to jail for it and he was one of the two people that knew about it and Richard was like “yeah sure why not what can POSSIBLY go wrong”

Just a reminder to check if you are accidentally using your data and not your wifi so you can swap back over

every man on this earth should watch daniel sloss’ x right now