I Don’t Have A Specific Anxious Jim Head Canon (yet), But I Was Wondering If You Could Explain To Me

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‘A hell of his making’ is a great AOS fic full of angst, and don’t we all love some angst when it comes to our boys! 😂 Spock is struggling with the knowledge that Jim is his T’hy’la but that he has been harmed by Spock’s own hands (choking him on the bridge) one of the most grievous transgressions in Vulcan culture. How can he reconcile his guilt and self recrimination and find a way to remain at Jim’s side?

spirk fics i've read recently(ish) and loved

My Heart to Your Heart by greenforsnow @m-b-w - TOS - need a gentle fic? this is it. softness pervades every syllable of this fic!

Through the Wall by Sexy_Lil_Emo - AOS - a fic inspired by nsfw fanart. who needs plot with that?

Malfunction by Maeko - AOS - a nice, short nightcap when you need something sweet to read before bed

Impulse (or, Three Kisses) by decidedlynotheterosexual @decidedly-not-heterosexual - TOS - spock loses control but in the *sweetest* way and they talk about it like adults and this is just soothing and nice

The Proposal by TheKittyCorps @contrascene - AOS - spirk version of "the proposal." laugh out loud funny in parts (yes, hijinks included)

Heirs to the Glimmering World by gunstreet @gunstreet - SNW/TOS - sybok, michael, and sam conspire to get their brothers together!! siblings! tentative first meetings! sex!

De Profundis by Rhaegal (RhaegalKS) - TOS - tmp-era spirk. spock knows he fucked up so he's gonna woo jim

The Kiss by awarrington - TOS - there are some super dated things in this fic (it was originally written in 1994) but this is one of the best i've read dealing with jim coming to terms with his bisexuality and attraction to spock. def don't read if you can't or don't want to take it in context of its time. if you can/have the emotional bandwidth to, then it's well worth it

On the Arrow by Fic_me_senseless - AOS - post-into darkness, heavy read, so much longing, and pain, and it makes you ache in the best way

i'm also in a "watch beyond on repeat phase" so here are my favorite post-beyond fics:

The Steadfastness of Stars by itsnatalie - AOS - this fic. THIS FIC. i was only going to read one paragraph, really. i skipped work, read the whole thing, and now this is in my top five spirk fics

in my life, i love you more by spaceisgay (ChancellorGriffin) - AOS - idek how many times i've read this now. i watch beyond, i read this fic. if they never make a fourth movie, this will be my canon

And Then I Let It Go by kianspo - AOS - yorktown happens, spock goes missing, jim goes after him. this could so be canon too

on the complete opposite side of post-beyond angst is two (YES TWO, we are so blessed!) "spock makes jim coffee" fics that will both make you smile and feel warm all over:

Home in a Mug by Lizzy0305

certainty relief by itsamew @enterprise-me-capn

and (because i can never quite seem to keep these lists solely focused on spirk) one AOS mckirk fic:

retro/spect by slightlycrunchy @slightlycrunchy - best friends to lovers anyone? this is just so so so lovely!

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This is probably a bit of a Marmite fic... (and for those of you who aren't from the UK, that's a reference to an old marketing campaign that stated "you either love it of you hate it" lol)

It a pretty intense AOS Pon Farr fic, which delves deep into the writers interpretations of Vulcan biology and what goes on during their Time. If you like Feral!Spock then there's a lot to recommend it. And if you like your smut GRAPHIC then you're in for a treat!

If you're of a more sensitive disposition then this one may not be for you, but I enjoyed it and hope a lot of you will too! 😊

spirk suggestion...... jim making spock blush and almost smile from kissing his ears or something.......its in the Rules that his ears are sensitive, and hes so serious and unemotional But when he does show a little bit of whats underneath his carefully crafted existence, its just so sweet. yknow?

I KNOW ANON. i know.

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This is a phenomenally good AOS AU fic in which Spock and Jim live next door to each other as kids and are bonded. When the bond breaks Spock believes Jim dead. Imagine his surprise years later when he spots him on the Starfleet Academy campus!

It’s one of my favourites and definitely worth a read 🥰

Reccomendation

The Perfect Man by zoetrope13

Spock and Kirk met young and promptly got bonded. Now they are at the Academy together but don’t broadcast their relationship. Uhura, who thinks Kirk could never do monogamy, starts crushing hard on Professor Spock.

monsterdib: so I really love this fic and I wanted to share it with you guys! You’re all so awesome and I thought since you’re always reccing fics you might be up for receiving one. Hope you enjoy and Happy holidays :D

Been binging the real ghostbusters cartoon while doing uni work recently- its alot of fun XDD

meme image this based on lol

the aos multiverse fic is DONE!!! thank you so much for reading, i hope y'all enjoyed!! :) <3

each coming night (20121 words) by flipthebits Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Star Trek, Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James T. Kirk/Spock Characters: James T. Kirk, Spock (Star Trek), Nyota Uhura, Leonard "Bones" McCoy Additional Tags: Post-Star Trek: Into Darkness, POV Multiple, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Grief/Mourning, Mutual Pining, Getting Together, Not Actually Unrequited Love, When you're so in love w each other but so oblivious you manage to piss off an omnipotent being Summary:

At the start of the 5-year mission, Jim is still unsteady from the fallout of the warp core and its impact on his friendship with Spock, but he’s doing a decent job of pretending like he isn’t. Until an omnipotent being decides he could use a day trip to an alternate universe, that is.

Or: A desperately pining Jim crosses paths with a desperately lonely Spock.

Another Tarsus IV fic rec. Thirty in all.

These recs are made of fics that are about Tarsus IV or reference Tarsus IV. Hope you enjoy. 

Rivers by n_anon on archiveofourown. Rated Mature. Summary: A tale of two people averse to the concept of destiny, but who can’t seem to escape it.

The Cave by elospock on archiveofourown. Rated Mature. Summary: Most probably a slow K/S, post-STID. After Khan was defeated, the Enterprise was given a five-year mission to explore the uncharted and the unknown. However, things seem to be quite rocky between Captain James T. Kirk and his First Officer Spock. And they don’t seem to get any better as Kirk’s past resurfaces in disquieting circumstances…The rating might have to be changed to rape/non-con and graphic depiction of violence, though it doesn’t concern the first chapters. It might eventually get pretty intense, though that part of the story is not written yet. Not for the fainthearted (though I don’t know, it might not be that extreme… better be safe than sorry, in any case! And I don’t want to mislead anybody either!)LLAP!

Five People Who Were Affected by Kirk’s Death by Starsinger on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary: And One Whose Death Affected Him. Okay, so I’m trying my hand at this five things thing, and it’ll probably be lame. Who knows? I don’t.

Jim’s Haunting Past by kiylitier on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary:Jim and Bones are contacted to secretly meet Pike at Star Fleet’s headquarters. But when attacked in an alleyway injuring Kirk, a figure appears to bring back memories that were buried deep. Kirk goes instantly into PTSD causing Bones to worry about his friends. Who is this figure? What causes Jim to act so irrationally? A fight to save each others lives begin. Kirk/McCoy Injured

Murderer, Myself by heathersdomain on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Anton Karidian is dead - shot by his own daughter, who had been aiming for Captain Kirk when Karidian stepped in the way.But there’s more to it than that. It doesn’t take Spock long to see the discrepancy, to notice the difference, to realize its implications. The problem is, what to do once he’s realized the truth: that Karidian died because Captain Kirk allowed him to?Post The Conscience of the King.

What You Are by melonbutterfly on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Spock and Jim are getting closer and closer, gravitating towards each other. They’re not quite there yet, though, and Jim has something important to tell Spock.

Test of Time by notboldly on archiveofourown. Rated Explicit.  Summary: While balancing between two sides of a war, Jim is forced back in time to relive his worst memories.

Strength of Men by 1lostone on archiveofourown. Rated Explicit. Summary: While a deadly disease incapacitates the Enterprise, an old enemy of Jim’s forces him to remember his time on Tarsus IV. Spock finds Kirk’s pain unacceptable.UPDATE: 7, August 2015. Wow, this fic is five years old and I’ve changed a LOT as a writer since then. I hope, anyway. With the help of FoxyK I’m finally getting around to betaing this for typos. Most of the fic- plot points, etc- should stay the same, unless one of us finds something especially cringe-worthy!

Melt This Frozen Heart by Boonaddicious  on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Kirk receives a unique gift on an away mission - a gift that will bring his fears to the light, and test his relationship to the most important person in his life.“Kirk took a deep breath and dropped his impromptu weapon. The energy had left his hands, but adrenaline still pumped through his system. He knew this would require quite a bit of explanation, but the sheer elation of having beaten this psycho with some preternatural ability made him feel like he could walk on water. However, his mood darkened when he turned to look at Spock.Spock was gripping his injured arm as he sat on the ground, and was staring at Jim with unmasked fear.”

the violence of comets by viverella on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Jim has never once, in his life, believed in love. He wears his bare skin with only his own tattoo circling his ankle as a badge of honor.He meets a man named Leonard McCoy on a shuttle in Riverside, Iowa who believes exactly the opposite.(That AU in which everyone is born with a unique tattoo on their ankle that no one else has and every time you fall in love, their tattoo appears somewhere on your body.)

Crash of Expectations by vamprav on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: In another place, in another time Kirk hacked into the Kobayashi Maru and broke it. In this place and in this time Kirk hacks and the Kobayashi Maru and fixes it. But what’s different about him, what made him change his mind. The answer is obvious of course. In that other place and in that other time Kirk was fully human. In this place and in this time he isn’t. (Another T’Pring on Tarsus IV fic.)

His father’s eyes by Captain_Mercurian  on archiveofourown. Rated Not Rated. Summary: “I found George’s son,” Pike told him 21 years later with a gentle and somewhat guilty expression on his aging face. Spock felt numb all over. “He was rotting in Iowa and I convinced him to join Starfleet.” There was a slight pause. “He has George’s eyes.”

Jim’s Wounds by slytheringreen91 on fanfiction.net. Rated Mature. Summary: Jim beams back from the Narada with some ‘not so superficial’ wounds. What happens when Bones and Spock find out? Rating for language only.

Harnessing Starfire by Sherza on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: The Enterprise has a crew unlike any other. They are the best and brightest that Starfleet has to offer, the vast majority of them are painfully young, and they are largely untried. They are led by the most unpredictable and explosive duo that has ever graced Starfleet Command.Alpha and Beta Quadrants are reeling under the after-effects of Nero’s second rampage. The Klingon Empire’s fleet has been gutted. The Romulans are ominously silent. The shattered remnants of the Vulcans are desperately trying to save their culture and their people.All eyes are on the Enterprise, the boatload of children who succeeded where an entire armada failed. Depending on who you talk to, they are heroes, villains, or ignorant, blindingly lucky upstarts. After their rather explosive beginning, how will the Enterprise and her command crew fare?

Space Husband Ficlet Collection by Phyona on archiveofourown. Chapter Summary: Kirk was saved from Tarsus IV by Vulcans when he was fourteen, but the memory of Kodos the Executioner and his child soldiers still haunts him. It takes another Vulcan to save him when a man resembling Kodos comes aboard the Enterprise, reminding Kirk that he never truly escaped his past.Based on 'The Conscience of the King’ from Star Trek TOS. Mentions of trauma, panic attacks, and starvation. (Link takes you to the chapter about Tarsus IV.)

Not This Time on SineadRivka on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: The crack of rock startled Spock, causing him to bark for a status update from Chekov. He wrapped an arm around his mother’s waist, fingers gripping hard enough that he hoped he wouldn’t bruise his human parent. And then the ground gave way. Distantly, the words, “I’m losing them, I’m losing them!” echoed from the communicator clipped to his belt.White surrounded them, and he felt himself falling …

Overcast Horizons by Ael on archiveofourown. Rated Not Rated. Summary:  Spending three years exploring deep space is starting to take its toll on the crew of the Enterprise. The discovery of a new planet should be routine, but this time, the consequences are greater than anyone was expecting.A rewrite of Star Trek Beyond, in the mutantverse.

To the Sea and the Sun by perhapsoneday on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Everyone’s heard of the Kelvin Incident. The same can’t be said for the Massacre of Tarsus IV, or even the name James T. Kirk. But for every two things that change, at least one remains the same.

Genesis by beamirang on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary: A Captain is all things to all people. Jim is running on fumes, and it takes more than good luck and nerves of steel to be the leader the crew of the Enterprise need.

Men and Monsters by  Aneeta Potter on fanfiction.net. Rated: Teen. Summary: Kirk’s never really come to terms with the mess of his life before Starfleet, opting instead to ignore it. But when (one of) his childhood monsters reappears his past slams into the present.

The Reminders of Yesterday by Nibelethe on fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary: During a routine mission, two years after the Narada incident, the Enterprise beams its Captain and away-team back from an uninhabited planet, only to find them drastically altered. No Pairings.

When Q Becomes Your Last Chance…  by  whiteraven1606 on livejournal. Rated NC-17. Summary: Jim Kirk gets himself de-aged and his crew can’t figure out a way to fix it until Spock Prime makes a suggestion that leads to drastic actions.

Reunited by golden_rhythm on livejournal. Rated Not Rated. Summary: Written for this prompt on st_xi_kink: So, how about Kevin gets assigned to the Enterprise, and Kirk instinctively becomes big brother protective over the guy, even putting friendships and relationships on hold for Kevin(but no sacrificing the ship for him)! Taking a hit or almost dying for Kevin on a mission is fun!! Angst ensues! 

Streetlight People by adyblahblah on livejournal. Rated NC-17. Summary: AU. Strangers waitin up and down the boulevard, their shadows searchin’ in the night.  Streetlight people, living just to find emotion; hiding somewhere in the night.

Marching On by Rusting Roses on livejournal. Rated R. Summary: For the Tarsus IV fic challenge #29: I want to see Jim forced to relive Tarsus IV–but not just because some aliens were sadistic or whatever, but as a test–and I would love the reward to be one of two things 1) either Vulcan is restored or 2) Amanda is alive again. I’ll make you wait til the end to see which one I picked. The title is taken from the OneRepublic song Marchin On. 

The Handmaid of Genius by ladyblahblah on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: For the [info]trek_hc fic exchange.  When the replicators go offline, Jim reacts unexpectedly.

Wholesome Heart by WerewolvesAreReal on m.fanfiction.net. Rated Teen. Summary:  14 year old James Kirk finally encounters someone else on Tarsus IV, the first ray of hope he’s encountered since the takeover. Mirrorverse, Tarsus ficlet.

Anything by IvanW on archiveofourown. Rated Explicit. Summary: Spock would do anything to be with Jim…for real.

Time’s Divergence by logical_stimuli on livejournal. Rated Not Rated. Summary: Written for st_xi_kink http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/4104.html?thread=9589768#t9589768 Let’s pretend that Spock Prime came through the same time Nero did, and Kirk lost both parents in the attack. Spock Prime raises Kirk, teaching him all he needs to know. Bonus points if Kirk ends up meeting nuSpock.You own my soul if you include the line: “He is just like you Jim. A bit more calm, a bit more knowledgeable, but I can see you in every move he makes. You’d be proud of him, dear friend.”

can’t watch you drown anymore, my friend by pieandsouffle on archiveofourown. Rated Teen. Summary: Normally, Nyota is happy than usual when Kirk shuts his stupid mouth. But this kind of quietness… it doesn’t make her happy. It just doesn’t feel right.

Spirktober 2022: Drabble Writing Challenge

Link to original post: https://at.tumblr.com/blairamok/made-a-spirktober-prompt-list-feel-free-to-join/z294y5s90nw4

Day Fifteen: Comfort

Bone-weary and feeling every one of his 160 years, Spock sank into his chair at the end of a long day helping the colony on New Vulcan. His hand strayed to the side table next to him to clasp a locket. Up sprang a holographic projection, the off-key singing echoing through the empty house.

  “Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you!...” The image of James Kirk serenaded the tired Vulcan. Spock knew the entire projection by heart, but that didn’t stop him from deriving comfort from seeing his beloved t’hy’la. The projection looped continuously as the Vulcan dozed off.