Simon Weil's 'The List Of Temptations (to Be Read Daily)' From Her Diary.

Pluto conjunct/opposite ascendant - the invincible child

I did an overall pluto-ascendant in obs. 4 and this is a more in depth observation. pluto-ascendant is strongest in conjunctions and oppositions (up to 10°). It directly influences the native's character and life journey. Whatever the ascendant is, the native may appear or act like a scorpio rising but even more visibly especially if they have scorpio placements elsewhere. These aspects give so much inner strength and stamina, depth of character and unique wisdom. Pluto natives possess a lot of power that may be displayed outwardly even if the native is quiet, or if other placements reduce or balance the intensity, people still intuitively sense that there's more to them. But no information will ever feed their curiosity. They’re smarter than they show, darker, more wicked, wealthy, addicts, royals whatever it may be others think there gotta be something hidden.

In reality, it’s the complexity and different traits that the native mastered or will through hard life lessons. The extreme deaths and rebirths of their character, perspective, and appearance. Whatever you see in their intense eyes and presence is interpreted differently. They may hide parts of themselves that others won't comprehend, but because they lack the capacity to do so, their life journey is much different from theirs. Though they themselves can easily understand others, they see right through you, they understand your pain, and share their secret healing formula with you. Pluto won't allow the native to be narrow-minded or comfortable or will cause destruction. No room for escape or pretendence of change. Those people learned and relearned the darker parts of themselves and others, faced their toxic traits, and faced the hidden and broken in the world. 

They likely been through many changes in life that inevitably built their wisdom, invincibility, and power. They may gain more power through money, status, control, or any other tangible means. In terms of traits, they are intelligent, calculative, obsessive, instinctual, passionate, cunning, humorous, truthful and loyal. These people have a sort of intimidating magnetic aura that can draw or repel others depending on how healed or familiar they are with this energy. 

In the houses

Pluto can be in the 1st, 7th, or 12th house, where natives learn lessons about controlling their conscious and unconscious minds, the thoughts, actions, and memories that they need to let go of and transform to strength, to something of a better value. In the 12th they are dealing with these things alone, feeling trapped and broken, feeling deeply alone. People leaving them in the dark. Their mind isn't letting them have peace, it's uncontrollable. They want to detach from it or possibly throw it off the window, it's a burden. Trapped in a mindset, reflected through their nightmares and fears, their triggers, self image, limitations and doubts. They're discovering the power they have over their subconscious, whatever is controlling them, even the collective consciousness. It shouldn’t hold them back, but fly them to the top. They are leading the way but it's never easy.

In the 1st, they encounter people and places that trigger their shadows. People that want to break them, take their power, and show them a false version of themselves. What they think they are, they're not. They may be arrogant and overly protective. In their darkest times they may even feel like they can't tame themselves or actions. It's an aries house so they act immaturely and selfishly but they see it later. As they control their impulses they learn that they don't need to prove anything, to control everything, they are already powerful. They can use it with ease, it's not a fight it's a blessing, no one can take it. They may have trust issues because others have attacked them and betrayed them. They learned to only depend on themselves because everyone seems manipulative. They want and can attract someone as deep, passionate and honest as them who will love them as intensely.

In the 7th the traits and fears they don't see in themselves are reflected to them through others, they are a damn mirror and not a pretty one, one that reflects what others are trying to hide. They meet people that trigger their fears and strengths, some with nasty intentions and weak egos, jealous, and deceitful, wanting to see them fail, trying to gossip, and project their insecurities. Connections are a nightmare, no one is trustworthy. Others see their power more than they themselves do, hungry to feed off of it. Once they see it and unapologetically embrace it, the weak ones can’t reach them and they build better connections with people as confident and genuine. They gain a better perspective, a wisdom to discern who's lying and who's real. A healthy balance of trust and distrust in people. They crave an intense connection like pluto 1st, and they get it but through learning those lessons. 

Bisan's recent post. I think it's important for you to read it. Tonight 03.12.23, journalists in gaza share their last messages. There are no words to describe the horrors unfolding in gaza right now.

I no longer have any hope of survival like I had at the beginning of this genocide, and I am certain that I will die in the next few weeks or maybe days. I have been sick with severe viral infection for days and cannot move from the mattress!

I suffer from nightmares that are so closely resemble reality that I no longer differentiate between reality and dream.

I live in a world other than the one I claimed to be building! I am a community activist who lived on the fantasy that the world was free and just, and I sought to bring rights not only to my people, but to many men and women in third world countries!

I was shocked that I was not from the third world! Indeed, we are the most humane and moral! Yes, because the world approves, supports, and finances the genocide we are being subjected to, legislates it, and gives reasons for for 58 days! While we are a people who have been living on occupied land for 75 years and are still searching for our rights and communicating our voice to the world!

My message to the world: You are not innocent of what is happening to us, you as governments or peoples that support Israel’s annihilation of my people. We will not forgive you, we will not forgive you, humanity will not forgive you, we will not forget, even if we die, the history will never forget .

A Message to friends: Thank you and the supporters around the world. You have been compassionate and very strong. We ask you not to lose hope, even if the world seems completely unfair and your efforts have not yet resulted in a ceasefire.

sisterly bonding time

Too cute

Bernadette Peters rehearsing for Sunday in the Park with George (1984)

Doctor Lilith Sternin

"I'm going to go out and wander the streets aimlessly... I'll take my usual route."

Cheers - The Crane Mutiny

Astrology Observations: Cancer placements

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🌙Cancer suns are typically the most noticeable ones in the room, they are ruled by the moon after all!

🌙Cancer mercury placements have a very soothing way of speaking. Smooth talkers if you will

~BUT it can take a minute to get them out of their shell & when you do it’s so worth it 😩

🌙Those with cancer venus have such warm ideals & visions that you can really get lost in them if you allow them to show you everything they love & adore

🌙Cancer suns can also be the loudest ones in the room from my experiences with them. They really know how to catch everyone’s attention with their voices!

🌙Cancer rising are typically curvy & have round features in general that are very flattering✨

Pretty doe eyes being one of them!! 🥺💗

🌙Cancer moons have the power to make you feel their emotions as they are home in their planets sign :,)

This also gives them the ability to potentially be emotionally manipulative so watch out for that kind of behavior if you catch yourself doing that. Your emotions are sacred & should be honored, not used for evil 😭

🌙Cancer mars people also have powerful emotions but theirs can tip over to the more diabolical side of things. Do not make them feel bad for being emotional whenever they are, it only makes things worse lol. Angry criers~

🌙Cancer rising people also have very beautiful homes that are veryyyy clean and welcoming. With the Capricorn descendant they might take a while to feel comfortable with inviting you there or staying the night though, but when they do you can make yourself at home 😌🥹

These are not fact or fiction, just observations I’ve made along the way~

✨I love you Cancers!✨

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Doctor Lilith Sternin Crane

Cheers - How to Win Friends and Electrocute People

“I knew if they ever found out about me, I’d end up like Johnny Yablonsky. Johnny was soft, he was feminine, he was clearly gay. The neighborhood guys would make him blow them; then beat the shit out of him. He always had a lot of bruises, and absenteeism. He was so defeated. I’ve always assumed he killed himself. And I didn’t want the same thing to happen to me. It was a lot of fear, and shame. The fucking shame. I participated in my own self-negation. I laughed at all the jokes. I tried to tighten up on the masculine stuff. I’d stand in front of the mirror. I’d practice my walk, my diction, the movement of my hands. Somehow I managed to make it out of that town alive. During our first Christmas break at college, I went with my friend Howie to visit his family in Long Island. Afterward he dropped me off at the airport. He thought I was flying home. But I caught the Greyhound Bus to New York City. I put all my stuff in a luggage locker and started walking down 5th Avenue. It was night. It wasn’t lit up like today. All the storefronts were dark; it was like lyric poetry to me. Unopened boxes full of mystery. All I knew was I had to get to Greenwich Village. I kept asking people—is this the village, is this the village? They kept saying: further south, further south. Finally I get to the corner of 8th Street and 6th Avenue, and I’m waiting for the light to change. And this guy starts hitting on me. A few years older than me, good looking. His name was Charlie. And he put a spell on me immediately. From the very first moment, I had a hard-on for Charlie Bacchus. I felt safe with him. He took me to my first gay bar. Then afterward we went to his mom’s loft apartment on Washington Square. She happened to be in Rome. So it was just me and Charlie Bacchus, in this gorgeous apartment, with the door closed, cut off from the rest of the world. There was sex, beautiful sex. First time I’d ever had sex with my shoes off. The next morning I came out of the shower, and wrapped a towel around me. Charlie said: ‘What are you doing? Take that off. You’re beautiful.’ He said it so gently, like someone looking at a painting. And it was my first profound lesson in shedding shame.”

ੈ✩‧₊˚ Random things that remind me of Venus in Water signs <33 *ੈ✩‧₊˚

: ̗̀➛ Cancer venus

Moon goddess, white cupcakes, soft makeup, pastels, twinkling stars, ball gowns, sleeping beauty, Bridgeton, velvet dresses, aurora borealis, moonstone, labradorite, ex lovers, childhood crushes, historical events that for some reason bring you a lot of nostalgia, warm cardigans, rosy cheeks, plump lips, angel wings, tattoos that are aesthetically pleasing but also have some rlly deep meaning behind the..in saying that probably has tattoos that are relate to their loved ones, mini skirts, crescent moon, autumn leaves, picnics in the park, constantly getting hit by nostalgia then crying about your childhood, sad/serene resting face, calm river flow in forests, doll eyes, cathedrals, atonement, victorian homes and decor, mid-western gothic towns, struggling to live in the present because you you’re in a constant state of reminiscing on the past, red and white candles, love spells, love sick, Ludus (playful love) and Agape (love for everyone), learning that unconditional love has its consequences.

: ̗̀➛ Scorpio venus

The mystics, love magick, killer smile, captivating love, people are addicted to you and the way you love, possession, the goth kids from southpark 😭, the hot detective in crime/horror films, small snowy village, probably went through a creepypasta phase, alex g, rlly cool piercings, coraline, uniquely shaped snowflakes, ending up on the scary side of Ao3, twitter, tumblr on multiple occasions, whimsigothic clothes, bela lugosi's dead, american horror story, finding solace in painful memories, joe goldberg (derogatory), exploring abandoned buildings, dark crystal, Evanescence, religious imagery, cathedrals, questionable taste in the people, alluring eyes, creepy cute dolls, interest in the paranormal, sirens and pixies, deftones, obsidian, malachite, lavenders, twilight, overgrown houses.

: ̗̀➛ Pisces venus

shells, frozen lakes, Falls for the wrong people, likes the idea of light and dark energy.. yin and yang.. opposites attract type of beat, gives out too much love, normally the medic or healer in video games, always there for moral support, grandfather clocks, mermaids, poison tree by grouper, randomly remembering early childhood memories, angel numbers, spiritual/astrological tattoos, auras, maladaptive daydreaming, falling for the idea you create of people, kogal gyaru or Himegyaru, snails or turtles both seem very wise :), castles, the backrooms LMAO, angels, water lilies, american horror story (specifically the coven and hotel season), ENA, blindly following a cult or being the cult leader, playing in an empty park, rainbows, cottages, persephone and hades, blue lace agate, aquamarine, mazzy star, the cure, koi fish.

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