"He Was Just Trying To Feel Pretty For Once. And Merle Walked In."

"He was just trying to feel pretty for once. And Merle walked in."

My latest fic is live:

Part 2 of my Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, Don’t Forget: fanfic series

❝ The Weight of Being Seen ❞

(TW: self-harm, panic attacks, verbal abuse, gender exploration, hurt/comfort)

Set in a post-canon TWD AU where Merle and Abe are Daryl’s found family. Daryl is exploring his identity—softness, femininity, safety in stolen moments—until Merle catches him wearing eyeliner and a dress.

What happens next? Hurt. Panic. Flashbacks. But also?

Healing. Holding. Redemption. A couch bed and every blanket in the damn house.

Featuring:

Merle’s clumsy redemption arc

Abraham Ford, actual emotional support tank

Daryl Dixon sobbing in flannel

“If I call you Darlena, you gonna slug me?”

Softness as survival

If you’re queer and tired and ever just wanted someone to say “you’re allowed to want softness”—this one’s for you.

Read it here:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65002894/chapters/167124994

Reblogs are deeply appreciated. Comments will make me cry. In a good way.

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2 years ago

Must Read Fics

I asked, ya'll answered. Here's the list. More under the cut cause it's long. Enjoy.

Must Read Fics

@lovesouthernsweettea

Play Crack the Sky by WeAreTheCyclones

(23/23 I 122,787 I Mature I Sterek)

Excerpt from “Hale Pulls the Plug on the Future of Rock,” Rolling Stone, Issue 1203 – Oct. 2014 “Fans and music industry vets alike are left reeling in the wake of bassist Derek Hale’s sudden departure from Smokes for Harris. At a time when the foursome from Beacon Hills, California seems to be on the cusp of rock superstardom after just one double platinum record, Smokes has everything to lose.”

Excerpt from “Smokes for Harris: Gladiator,” SPIN.com – Feb. 2015 “Smokes for Harris gives in a little to the pop punk of yesteryear in their sophomore effort, but rather than pandering to fans of a lost era they elevate the genre in a way that hasn’t been seen in quite some time. Frontman Stiles Stilinski works double duty as singer and primary songwriter and proves that he can handle the task even without former bassist Derek Hale."

@dereles

Safety in Silence by Survivah

(5/5 I 66,901 I Mature I Sterek)

It's perfectly understandable. Even Derek wouldn't want to be Derek's soulmate.

@ceriat

The Moon's Gonna Follow Me Home by turningterrific

(2/2 I 82,866 I Explicit I Sterek)

Derek doesn’t want to call the window repair guy. He doesn’t want to sweep up the glass. He’ll inevitably miss a few shards and pull them out of the bottom of his bare feet for weeks.

He doesn’t want to try to make this place feel like home when it isn’t.

Derek stayed in Beacon Hills and tried to make it work because he wanted pack, wanted purpose. He gave his best effort and found himself back where he started: alone, with a few begrudging allies. He’s tired, and even though his werewolf body heals quickly, he feels the weary ache down to his center.

He packs his car with the few things he cares about enough to drag them from place to place. He locks the loft and calls a realtor about listing the building he’d bought in a misguided attempt to secure a future.

And then he leaves.

@kitchenisking

A Desperate Arrangement by mikkimouse

(29/29 I 115,506 I Explicit I Sterek)

"I'm sorry, I believe there's something wrong with my hearing," Stiles said. "Because I could have sworn you just told me you set up a betrothal agreement with the Hales. A betrothal agreement involving me. Me."

Scott smiled his easygoing smile and nodded, which told Stiles no, he hadn't misheard a damn thing.

After seven years of lengthy negotiations, the treaty between the Hales and the Argents has fallen apart and the two countries fell into war.

Months later, there's an uneasy truce, thanks to the intervention of King Scott McCall, but it won't last. In a desperate attempt to maintain the peace, the Hales sign a treaty with the McCalls to marry Prince Derek to Prince Stiles Stilinski, King Scott's brother.

In the history of the world, there have been many better ideas.

@minmu

It's Insanity, but... by rosepetals42

(12/12 I 79,678 I Mature I Sterek)

The doorbell interrupts what had turned out to be quite the epic shoe hunt but, really, he’s grateful for the break. Or at least, he is until he heads down the stairs to grab the door, trips over a stuff animal of some kind, bashes his head on the wall and barely manages to catch himself from falling down the entire flight of stairs. As with all things, Stiles would like to state, for the record, that this is Scott’s fault.

Or: Scott and Stiles are raising seven children. Derek is the entertainer they hire for a birthday party (not a clown though, he's very specific on that fact.)

@noyzinerd

walk me down your broken line by geordielover

(1/1 I 18,411 I Explicit I Sterek)

The kissing. That’s important, very important. Not that the homicidal lycanthrope dragging him through dirt and fallen leaves isn’t important, but the kiss that follows? The path to this monumental push of lips on lips began even before this ill-fated venture to the Hale house.

The douchebag manhandling him through the forest, hand clamped tight around Stiles’s throat to keep him from screaming, is just a bonus.

@idoobeg

The Cool Kids by thankyouforexisting

(1/1 I 14,375 I Teen I Sterek)

Laura was four when her parents brought home a baby. [...] The next day, she grabbed a basket and put her brother in it. The four month old baby blinked sleepily at her, and she grinned, “Hey, brother. This is for my own good,” she’d heard something like that yesterday at the movies, and it sounded cool. She carried the basket into the Preserve, taking care not to wake her sleeping parents, and walked for a while before setting it gently on the ground. “Animals of the forests!” she cried, “This is my offering to you! Take this baby in exchange for my family’s safety!” // Laura has tried to abandon her siblings 13 times (each), has convinced Scott that life isn't real in 8 occasions, and she's made her parents wish they'd stayed childless about 1000 times, but not really. A story in which little Laura grows up, and learns.

@stilesxderek

ONE WEIRD TRICK TO CALM YOUR MIND! by DaaroMoltor

(1/1 I 13,138 I Explicit I Sterek)

The result of the quiz isn't particularly convincing.

What his dick does in response to the gif below is harder to argue with, however.

Derek doesn't help.

@cyppi94

Waiting by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

(2/2 I 81,018 I Teen I Sterek)

Not wanting to think on it too much, Stiles took a step forward and passed his hand between the bars, moving the bleeding side closer to Derek’s mouth.

“Not too close, he bites.”

Stiles snatched his hand away just as Derek had been about to lick at it. The snarl he got in response was not comforting.

“He what?” Stiles asked nervously, turning to Deaton.

The man looked a little amused. “Don’t worry, only if he doesn’t like you.”

“Well, he probably hates me, now!” Stiles insisted, turning back to Derek.

He looked extremely displeased.

@wolverinesrogue

He's Not Mine by Sunnee

(19/19 I 68,534 I Explicit I Sterek)

Derek comes home to find an abandoned werebaby on his front porch and Stiles volunteers to help him out. Surprisingly, that is just the beginning of his problems.

@kevaaronday

Indelible Marks by billtheradish

(87/87 I 275,695 I Mature I Sterek)

The house never burned. The pack is strong. Derek will never need to be the alpha, and his sister is a troll. (Actually, most of his family is like that.)

Derek is an apprentice tattoo artist, and Stiles isn't old enough to get ink of his own yet. But that doesn't stop him from being interesting...

@could-we-please-not

Prince Among Wolves by Wrenegade (Wrenegadeone)

(20/20 I 101,000 I Explicit I Sterek)

Looking for full day/evening sitter. 2 twin boys age 4. Must have exp. w/werewolves. Must be human. No pedophiles. No teenage girls. Pay negotiable.

@apathyvsempathywarinside

Actions Speak Louder than Words by isthatbloodonhisshirt (wasterella)

(25/25 I 435,625 I Explicit I Sterek)

“I apologize.” The cop finally looked back up at his face, seeming thrilled. “It’s just—it’s been so long. And we finally have you.”

That was a bad word. Not found.

Have.

Stiles wrenched his hand free and took a step back, but before he could even think up a gameplan, he felt a prick in his neck and jerked away, reaching up to slap one hand against it and twisting in the same moment.

One of the others had come up behind him while he hadn’t been paying attention, and his vision began to swim even as his eyes caught sight of the half-empty syringe the guy was holding.

@shesosquare

Didn't See That Coming by knittersrevolt

(43/43 I 83,838 I Explicit I Sterek)

Stiles leaves Beacon Hills in the dust after he catches his husband cheating on him.

He finds his way to New York where he starts working for the Hale House Nursery, accidentally adopts a werewolf baby (through no fault of his own thank-you-very-much), and somehow starts training to be an Exorcist Emissary. So, in general, life was going good.

Then he hears that demons have found their way into his hometown. Can he face his inner demons and go back to save the day?

@shealwaysreads

(Sacred) In the Ordinary by idyll

(9/9 I 78,759 I Explicit I Sterek)

The Pack, after college, graduate school and the starting of careers, comes back to Beacon Hills. Nothing's gotten less complicated after all this time.

Based on a kink meme prompt that grew legs and got serious.

@relatively_einstein

Two Minutes for Holding by captaintinymite (augopher)

(18/18 I 121,498 I Explicit I Sterek)

There were three things college hockey players Derek Hale and Stiles Stilinski knew for certain. 1) Their lives revolved around hockey, 2) They were madly in love, and 3) Derek was so far in the closet he might never find his way out.

They'd been together for two years now, and for two years they'd been a secret with only a few people knowing about them. Yet Derek's fear kept them from moving forward: fear of his family's rejection, fear of his sexuality tanking his father's career, fear of the rampant homophobia in professional sports. The ruse was growing thin.

Something had to give.

Or: The story of how one epic NCAA Championship run and college, served as the backdrop for some of life's great hardships.

Ink Blossoms by Triangulum

(1/1 I 24,514 I Explicit I Steter)

"So, you're going to ruin your niece's baby shower with flowers in the wrong color?" the florist, Stiles, asks when they reach the counter. He pulls out a binder and starts flipping through it.

"Not ruin. Mildly inconvenience," Peter says.

"Right, messing with a hormonal pregnant woman seems like a great plan."

"To be fair, her fiance and the father of her baby is my ex-boyfriend," Peter says. "And we weren't broken up when they started 'dating'."

Stiles looks up at him in surprise. "And you're still getting her flowers?" he asks.

"It's under duress, I assure you," Peter says. He absolutely wouldn't be here if his alpha hadn't ordered it.

"Well, shit, yeah, let's get you some purple revenge flowers," Stiles says.

Aggressive Support by Merwin_Me

(1/1 I 6,290 I Not Rated I Chris/Noah)

When Chris and Noah start dating, Stiles and Allison make it their business to keep anything from interrupting their dates. Peter's just along for the kicks.

------

His dad was nervous for this date. As nervous as he had been whenever he and Claudia had decided to have a date night. His parents had never stopped being that awkward, loving, first time out couple together. And now it seemed like his dad was going down that road again, falling in love—Stilinski men fell in love hard whenever they did—dating, oh god doing to do no don’t go thinking that.

@thoughts-ideas-statements

Home Across the Universe

@savileho

I Know Where Babies Come From, Derek

@xbeccaritax

The Mating Privilege

@comfyb

The Searching Ceremonies

@jinkeke

Naughty Hookers (Swathed in Wool)

holding back the wind by race_the_ace

(1/1 I 22,314 I Explicit I Sterek)

Sometimes people fall in love young and that changes everything. This is the story of how it changed everything for Stiles and Danny.

@irat-that-s-me

Red String verse

where thou art, that is home

Must Read Fics
3 years ago

by CelesteMaeBearchum

Arthur had once heard it said that when you die, your whole life flashes before your eyes. He didn’t really believe it until he saw it for himself.

Words: 1200, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Major Character Death

Categories: M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Leonard “Lenny” Summers, Dutch van der Linde, Hosea Matthews, Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption), Eliza (Red Dead Redemption), Isaac Morgan

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Character Death, Canonical Character Death

3 years ago

by nomwrites

The gang settle into their new home in the Canadian Prairies. It’s all going well until Arthur starts sleepwalking and townsfolk go missing.

Words: 2927, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Series: Part 2 of Campfire Tales AU

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption), Karen Jones (Red Dead Redemption), Leonard “Lenny” Summers, Sean MacGuire, Van der Linde Gang

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Mystery, Case Fic, Family Feels, AU, will update tags as needed, the vdl gang escape to canada and build a ranch, Established Relationship

4 years ago

by ForReasonsNotKnown

A wanderer, he has always been.

A lone wolf on the prairie?

Not so much.

In which Arthur is split from the gang before Blackwater and has to find his own way in the world and Charles never joined.

Words: 4423, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: canon-divergence, Kinda canon-adjacent too, slowish burn, typical violence, Typical Attitudes, Not Beta Read

3 years ago

by Llaeyro

Charles trusts Arthur to help him work out what he wants.

Words: 2892, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Asexuality, Asexuality Spectrum, Asexual Character, Asexual Charles, Sex-Neutral, sex-positive, Hand Jobs, Oral Sex, Frottage, Hook-Up, First Time, Fluff and Smut, vague timeline

3 years ago

by perilit

Chapter 3 Mission: Magicians for Sport.

Charles and Arthur rescue Trelawny, and Charles realizes how much Arthur is beginning to mean to him.

Words: 1279, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption), Josiah Trelawny

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Asphyxiation, Strangulation, Vomiting, Developing Relationship, Blood and Injury

3 years ago

by Outlier_Writer

Arthur had never been known for his patient temperament and calm demeanour. That was his boyfriend, Charles. Arthur was infamous around town as the gruff, hot-headed fella who drove his kid to school on the back of his loud and obnoxious motorcycle. He glared at the note in his hand as he puffed away at his cigarette, a habit he had mostly broken except for those particularly stormy days.

“Dear Mr Arthur Morgan, It has come to the attention of the PTA board regarding some concerning behaviour of yours which has raised concern amongst several members of the community and their impact on the well-being of your child.”

Words: 1450, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption), John Marston, Javier Escuella, Sean MacGuire

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Implied/Referenced Racism, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Ambiguous Modern Setting, PTA Hell, Charthur stuff is more background, somewhat dialogue heavy, Unnamed Teenager

3 years ago

by perilit, platonicharmonics

Charles and Arthur spend some time playing with Taima one afternoon.

Words: 1872, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 8 of Let the Gate of Sorrow be Closed

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption)

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Horses, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Domestic Fluff

3 years ago

Oh, I guess there's also a power imbalance. He wanted Ethan (who killed most of his family and who is on his way to kill Heisenberg) to sit down, while Heisenberg stands, revealing his frustration and anger while goes on about his life and what he was subjected to by Miranda. And again, when Ethan almost fell back into the pit, and Heisenberg was holding him up, giving him an ultimatum instead of death, and Ethan being the badass he is, is the first to let go.

(Power imbalance. Heisenberg is trying, but Ethan is always on top, figuratively speaking ;) That must be frustrating, tbh.)

I'm just saying, Heisenberg did not stand a chance against an angry protective father willing to take down centuries old monsters for his baby. Lol.

3 years ago

by perilit

John and Charles begin to build Beecher’s Hope. Charles isn’t so sure what home means, anymore.

Words: 1263, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 3 of Let the Gate of Sorrow be Closed

Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Arthur Morgan, Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption), John Marston

Relationships: Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith

Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks

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