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Thinking about Himiko again....

tw!!!: mentions of self-harm

I've seen many artists drawing Toga with sh scars, and, while understanding where it came from, I still couldn't come to terms with the idea itself.

But now... What if these scars aren't only a manifestation of how Himiko couldn't accept her body and let out her pent-up emotions through pain, but also served a practical purpose?

Middle school Himiko grappling with her desire for blood. Drinking her own to avoid hurting others, which, while being a poor substitute, is her only solace?

Himiko, locked up in the bathroom of her so-perfect-so-plastic home, a box cutter at her feet, licking her bleeding wounds while tears are streaming down her cheeks and her trembling lips are curled up into a wobbly smile.

It's so painful, but it's the closest to feeling alive she has.

And Himiko can't bring herself to feel shame.

P. S. It goes perfectly with Himiko wearing her yellow cardigan (?), actually, the sleeves being so long that she has sweater paws. Like, not that Himiko would be ashamed of her scars, she would just hate that people would look at her with pity, so it'd be easier to cover them up.

With the League though... Not that they would pay that any mind. They literally have a walking scar that is Dabi and not like anyone pays attention, so yup, Himiko would become a bit more relaxed about her scars eventually. Maybe they'll even have that scar talk. That'd be cute.

I did this one like, last year when I still had instagram, and don’t remember if i posted it or not. At present moment, it makes me physically sick to look at, which I think means I did good

Don't you love when ur stress toy is regenerative. Don't mind the tears. She asked for it.

Uncensored Version + Bonus, They're not Explicitly SH scars but rather scars from her drawing her own blood. But it looks a lot like SH so I'll put it here

Kanao from the Lullaby Au in Different Clothing's and styles!

Hii ^~^ your art is very nice, 'specially your 2 weeks AU

I have a question if it's alright! How did Rudy end up in the ward? In canon, he doesn't tell his parents much about his current issues since he feels like a burden to them. I am wondering how your AU differs! What are the circumstances that led to Rudy being admitted?

Hi, thank you so much !!! ^_^

Tw for suicide and sh !!!

Basically, what happens is Rudy has a really bad breakdown that leads to him harming himself with the intention of dying (there are two drawings I have posted where he is sitting on the floor with a bloody nose , this is because he slams his face against the wall ^_^ )

he wanted to hide this from his parents but he pasted out from being so exhausted !!! So they found him on the floor lying in a pool of blood and they took him to the hospital

I'm clean for 160 days 😼😼

Rudy

sorry but I love baby cut scars it's cute ....well mine are (☆ denial ☆ )

It's a bit weird but I find cuts attractive.

♡♡♡

oh to have a flat stomach, small ribcage, better shoulders, thin face, bigger eyes, longer eyelashes, cuter lips, no beauty marks, better nose, better hair, naturally big dark eyes, smaller feet, longer legs, longer hair and more cuts ! ! ! !

I drew stars on my scars ☆☆☆

menhera/jirai can reblog doing the same thing

I wanted to do something for Halloween, because I freakin’ love Halloween.

so I drew my favorite guy bein’ all scary.

Now he and Etho will match forever <3

guys do Halloween stuff I need to see the hype everywhere come on it’s like the internet collectively forgot about October 31 like where are are all my cringy diy decorations and soul destroying body horror art and drawings of every one’s favs in silly costumes and ao3 one shots of characters doing Halloween stuff and/or being horribly tortured in the name of the spooky season? Like the actual day isn’t half as fun as the lead up to it!

Also I’ve been kinda feeling like I’ve been spewing art out into the void here so like just so ya know comments and asks actually make my day. Thanks!

Here’s a pun I find funny:

do you occupy space and possess mass? You matter! Unless you multiply yourself by the speed of light squared. Then, you energy.

Drew a body chart for my oc.

it's selfish,

I know it is.

I apologized for it,

which I know means nothing.

yet I still pressed send,

for me not for you.

and I tell you that,

in typed out abbreviated words.

'so sorry chat',

like it fixes my cruelty.

I could've left well enough alone,

but who am I kidding.

my friends wonder why people vape,

when they know it's bad for them.

well why do they procrastinate writing essays?

why do we stay up late on school nights?

why do I scratch and scrape at my scared skin?

why did I press send on that damn message?

it's selfish,

self harm its in the name.

I apologized for it,

which I know means nothing.

I am so fucking sorry,

for all the wrong reasons.

when your mom gives you an oil that helped with her scars

and when your cousin has a semicolon tattooed on his forearm

you just can't help but wonder if you had known it all before

would you do it again?

For I am become the great pretender betrayer of a youthful me

As I pretend not to be bothered by my bff who questions 'why wouldn't you want to be soldja boy?' a youthful me asks my mom for two halloween costumes since you're not allowed to be a bloody zombie little girl with a knife at school in the second grade

As I pretend my bff is right when she says we can't even at the bare minimum be mean girls since 'none of us are blonde' a youthful me describes to my dad the terrible tumble zombie Alice took not only down down the rabbit hole but down down a muddy cliff and that's the reason her hair is brown

As I pretend not to care when my bff calls my guy 'weird' a youthful me demands that if I must date a man he cannot be conventional in any manor

As I pretend to be unharmed by the unexplained absence of my bff at my clubs squid dissection a youthful me is ostracized and abandoned by her only friend

As I pretend the barber cut my hair wrong when my bff tells me 'it's really short' a youthful me wanted purple and blue died hair cut in a shaggy mullet

As I pretend I don't hate my new skin so much that I claw at it raw and bloody a youthful me swore it 'would only be once and I'd never do it again'

The anger was just boiling up. I didn't know what to do with the excess water. It was overflowing the styrofoam cup and I needed to put it somewhere. I needed to throw something. I had to punch someone so hard it hurt me more than it ever hurt them. I grabbed my scalding cup and poured. A whispering drizzle ran down the hill side drilling into the dirt digging at the rocks breaking the dam of soil to bring forth a rushing river. Hurt yourself. I pounded my fist into my thigh. Hurt yourself. I scratched at my arm nails on a chalkboard. Hurt yourself. I didn't stop when I started bleeding. Hurt yourself. My skin was stuck under my nails. Hurt yourself. I was drowning head down in the deep waters so hot it was icy cold to the touch. Hurt yourself. I liked it. That hurt the most.

guess who found more blades? hehe It was me if you didn't know

so i’m actually ending it. he’s gonna be upset with me cause i relapsed. fuuuuckkkk.

dm if u want pics

WAIT CAN I SEE THE CARVING I CANT DM BC I FORGOT TO CONFIRM MY EMAIL BUT IF U SEND IT I CAN STILL SEE GAHHH

GURLLL I DKNT WANNA GET T WORDED, i might put a filter on it if you want OR try to confirm your email

can y’all please please PLEASE ask me anonymous questionssss

i’m in school and i’m so boreddd

my man said he’s proud of me for not cvtting and said even if i do it’s okay because i’m trying but i reallyyyy don’t know what to do, i haven’t in a few days since i carved his name but i really want to, the urges are so strong but he’s gonna ask me why and a bunch of other shit (he’s studying psychology so he’s always on my ass” WHAT DO I DOOOO

stop y’all, i literally opened tumblr while on the school wifi and forgot they have certain things blocked and when i opened tumblr it showed the “this is usually your dashboard” SHIT AND I GOT SO SCAREDDDD

i’m just scared i’m gonna get t worded again

I DID IT!! DM IF YOU WANNA SEE

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

update- he wants me too 😛😛

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

i love deep cvvts but i get scared to even go to deep styro, do you guys have any tips? i’ve gone to beans before but only twice like 3 years ago

what is your favorite song, and also what is your favorite hobby to keep your mind busy? :D

ooo my favorite song would have to be “Someone Somewhere Somehow” by Super Whatevr

my favorite hobbies would have to be ice skating, talking to my man, and calling my friends

how was your day today??

my day was actually very shitty, i went to court, cried, did the ice bucket challenge, argued with my father, cried more, cried, called my man (😍), aaannnddd here we are. the highlight was definitely calling my man, thank you for askinggg

okay so my man wants me to stop cvvtting BUT IT TVRNS HIM 0N SO WHY WOULD I STOPPPP UGHHHH IM HAVING A DILEMMA