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TRIGGER WARNING:

fake bl0od :/

keep yourself safe plz plz plz

lmao

"We accept the love, we think we deserve"

- The perks of being a Wallflower.

So.....I deserve nothing ig?

Trigger warning: ED

As someone suffering from ED. It's really triggering to have those "health check ups" at school. And guess what, mine is back AGAIN. On top of that, the way people talk about weight and body image so insensitivly can make you go back to old habits. Today I heard so many people talk about their weight that I started to feel so anxious about mine. When anyone asked me I didn't say. I just feel like if you do have health check ups, it should be only the person and a teacher and not all the students watching, making fun and comments on others appearance.

I have had BDD since I was 11 or even younger due to certain comments in my family. I have had ED since I was 14. It's not easy. But I know I am not alone.

TW:

It's really hard to be someone with a superiority complex and an inferiority complex at the same time.

Ps: also have GAD, BDD, ED, OCD and other things haven't discovered yet.

i live in active warzone, i'm trans, i have a mental disorder, my family disowned me, i'm homeless and don't have any friends. honestly this has to be some kind of prank, the gods who made me can't be serious about this shit. I just wish my life was normal and not whatever this is, is that so much to ask

so i’m actually ending it. he’s gonna be upset with me cause i relapsed. fuuuuckkkk.

dm if u want pics

what do you use for $h? (like razor blades, glass, ect)

i use the blades from razors, i think they work the best. i don’t use a specific brand or anything just what’s there yk

i swear i cannot be the only one who scrolls and looks at sh when i’m bored or when i’m eating

can y’all please please PLEASE ask me anonymous questionssss

i’m in school and i’m so boreddd

my man said he’s proud of me for not cvtting and said even if i do it’s okay because i’m trying but i reallyyyy don’t know what to do, i haven’t in a few days since i carved his name but i really want to, the urges are so strong but he’s gonna ask me why and a bunch of other shit (he’s studying psychology so he’s always on my ass” WHAT DO I DOOOO

stop y’all, i literally opened tumblr while on the school wifi and forgot they have certain things blocked and when i opened tumblr it showed the “this is usually your dashboard” SHIT AND I GOT SO SCAREDDDD

i’m just scared i’m gonna get t worded again

I DID IT!! DM IF YOU WANNA SEE

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

update- he wants me too 😛😛

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

i love deep cvvts but i get scared to even go to deep styro, do you guys have any tips? i’ve gone to beans before but only twice like 3 years ago

i love all my girly pop moots except the only exception is @styro--boy

what is your favorite song, and also what is your favorite hobby to keep your mind busy? :D

ooo my favorite song would have to be “Someone Somewhere Somehow” by Super Whatevr

my favorite hobbies would have to be ice skating, talking to my man, and calling my friends

how was your day today??

my day was actually very shitty, i went to court, cried, did the ice bucket challenge, argued with my father, cried more, cried, called my man (😍), aaannnddd here we are. the highlight was definitely calling my man, thank you for askinggg

okay so my man wants me to stop cvvtting BUT IT TVRNS HIM 0N SO WHY WOULD I STOPPPP UGHHHH IM HAVING A DILEMMA

i was tryna cvt and my dad knocked on my door asking if we can talk cause we just had a really big fight. i hate getting interrupted istg

this is a little reveal i guess?? not necessarily a face reveal since you can’t see it but you get the idea <3

plz don’t be meannnn

do you got that dawg in you

i do got that dawg in me 🐺🐺🐺

update, i went with my parents and my father lied saying i’m lazy and it’s because of my phone that i don’t go AND said i ran away which is also a lie (he kicked me out) like mf that’s not true. but i have court ordered therapy because they hate me and are trying to take away my personality but when it was over when i was leaving the place my mom pulled me aside to talk abt smth and i started bawling my eyes out because he wasn’t believing me and was believing my father and basically just told me to and i quote “get your ass to school” like mfff

why are you going to court tomorrow (here because your post)

i have to go to court for truancy, i never go to school 😭

oopsiessss

i’m so scared, i have to go to court tmr for truancy.

wish me luck

PLEASE ASK ME QUESTIONS OR IM GONNA CRY

i love hitting styr0 multiple times in the same sesh

YALL I GOT T WORDED!!! MY LAST ACCOUNT WAS @trynabeproana

@pxppyboycy @someonezqt1 @styro--boy @fleshcollector @styrofoam-slic3r

IM SO SORRY YALL BUT IM BACK

i dont know why i stopped.

i just wanted to look healthier.

i look like a fucking skellington, and i eat like a pig, and still look like this, i dont want it anymore, its been like this my entire life,, i hate it.