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fake bl0od :/

keep yourself safe plz plz plz

lmao

Today (or yesterday at 11 pm technically) I reached a hundred days clean of my self-harm addiction.

I don’t know what anything will hold in store

I’m not too scared about that or even stressed

I still believe I’ll get worse again but at the moment, I’m okay

I was like damn. (Still feeling fat) (it didn’t change anything)

Why do people comment on my body? Like bro I know I’m fat I’m trying to change that since I was like 9💀 My dad once told me that my thighs are so big and now I hate them sm and I’m trying to cover them everyday cuz the fat and these scars and just ew ew ewwww😭Btw I relapsed to sh but it’s nothing new actually. I knew that this is gonna happen cuz I’m relapsing every single fucking time. I just wanna die. I’m tired of feeling this way but at the same time I wanna get even worse so everyone can see that I’m really struggling. I can’t be sick when I don’t look sick right? Maybe I’m just pretending and I don’t have ed or I’m not struggling with staying alive. Maybe that’s all a fucking lie for attention (I don’t get any attention btw). I wish I could talk to someone abt it but they’re gonna check me everyday and I don’t want it. I don’t want help. I don’t need help. I just wish someone finally see that I’m struggling really bad and I want people to stop thinking my life is so perfect. I hate every single thing abt myself. I have no friends and nobody actually likes me. Sad but true ig.

STAY SAFE EVERYONE I LOVE YALLLL💋💋💋

so i’m actually ending it. he’s gonna be upset with me cause i relapsed. fuuuuckkkk.

dm if u want pics

what do you use for $h? (like razor blades, glass, ect)

i use the blades from razors, i think they work the best. i don’t use a specific brand or anything just what’s there yk

i swear i cannot be the only one who scrolls and looks at sh when i’m bored or when i’m eating

can y’all please please PLEASE ask me anonymous questionssss

i’m in school and i’m so boreddd

my man said he’s proud of me for not cvtting and said even if i do it’s okay because i’m trying but i reallyyyy don’t know what to do, i haven’t in a few days since i carved his name but i really want to, the urges are so strong but he’s gonna ask me why and a bunch of other shit (he’s studying psychology so he’s always on my ass” WHAT DO I DOOOO

stop y’all, i literally opened tumblr while on the school wifi and forgot they have certain things blocked and when i opened tumblr it showed the “this is usually your dashboard” SHIT AND I GOT SO SCAREDDDD

i’m just scared i’m gonna get t worded again

I DID IT!! DM IF YOU WANNA SEE

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

update- he wants me too 😛😛

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

i love deep cvvts but i get scared to even go to deep styro, do you guys have any tips? i’ve gone to beans before but only twice like 3 years ago

i love all my girly pop moots except the only exception is @styro--boy

what is your favorite song, and also what is your favorite hobby to keep your mind busy? :D

ooo my favorite song would have to be “Someone Somewhere Somehow” by Super Whatevr

my favorite hobbies would have to be ice skating, talking to my man, and calling my friends

how was your day today??

my day was actually very shitty, i went to court, cried, did the ice bucket challenge, argued with my father, cried more, cried, called my man (😍), aaannnddd here we are. the highlight was definitely calling my man, thank you for askinggg

okay so my man wants me to stop cvvtting BUT IT TVRNS HIM 0N SO WHY WOULD I STOPPPP UGHHHH IM HAVING A DILEMMA

i was tryna cvt and my dad knocked on my door asking if we can talk cause we just had a really big fight. i hate getting interrupted istg

this is a little reveal i guess?? not necessarily a face reveal since you can’t see it but you get the idea <3

plz don’t be meannnn

do you got that dawg in you

i do got that dawg in me 🐺🐺🐺

update, i went with my parents and my father lied saying i’m lazy and it’s because of my phone that i don’t go AND said i ran away which is also a lie (he kicked me out) like mf that’s not true. but i have court ordered therapy because they hate me and are trying to take away my personality but when it was over when i was leaving the place my mom pulled me aside to talk abt smth and i started bawling my eyes out because he wasn’t believing me and was believing my father and basically just told me to and i quote “get your ass to school” like mfff

why are you going to court tomorrow (here because your post)

i have to go to court for truancy, i never go to school 😭

oopsiessss

PLEASE ASK ME QUESTIONS OR IM GONNA CRY

i love hitting styr0 multiple times in the same sesh

YALL I GOT T WORDED!!! MY LAST ACCOUNT WAS @trynabeproana

@pxppyboycy @someonezqt1 @styro--boy @fleshcollector @styrofoam-slic3r

IM SO SORRY YALL BUT IM BACK