Bingedisorder - Blog Posts

Hi everyone!! I'm back after like month of binging and wanting to kms🤗

I'm locking the f-ck in🍰

Me when you can actually notice my weight loss 🙏🙏🙏

Context: TW for past ED

I have struggled with a BED for almost 5 years of my life, and I have currently been in recovery. It’s not even really recovery because my therapist refuses to acknowledge the fact that I have a BED. I have been eating more healthy foods and have avoided my trigger foods (icing, candies, peanut butter, etc). To actually see that I am actually getting better and to hear it from other people makes me so happy, my goal is to be at a healthy weight and lifestyle and to never binge again.

Got termed spent a few months off of tumblr binging, but I'm back and fatter than ever. I'm a minor so if that makes you uncomfortable then DNI. Ugw is 88lbs/39.9kg. Ed accounts please Interact!! 🤍

I hate the weekends. I can never control myself.

Purged for the first time in a very long time. So fucking vile. Can't believe 12/13 year old me would do this multiple times, every day. Girlie was tough asf, current me could never.

Just realized that one of the main reasons I binge is because I have nothing else to look forward to than food in my life. I don't even fucking enjoy it, but I have nothing else.

Binge eating has and is destroying my life. It has been so many years I can't even remember when I had a normal idea of food.

I genuinely don't know how to stop. I have stopped doing low cal restriction, I have raised my calories a lot, but I still binge at the end of the day.

I can't live on like this, I just want to escape this body and mind.

I LOVE HAVING AN EATING DISORDER !1!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!

!!ED!!ED!!ED!!

this shit fire (from Google).

ED!!ED!!

anyways, recovery update.

I'm so done.

hi, I'm Via!! this is my new intro post!!

-I was born in August 2008, and I'll graduate class of 2027.

-I'm far too inactive on here, my Instagram is @/mellogore.

-I'll be moots with anybody, literally anybody.

favourites!!

•video game: Life is Strange (s1, Before the Storm, and s2).

•artists: Nicole Dollanganger, Taylor Swift, and McKenna Grace. bands: Panucci's Pizza and Twenty One Pilots.

•televison shows: My Mad Fat Diary, Big Bang Theory, Skins, and a plethera of cartoons.

•films: Ginger Snaps 2: Unleashed, Superbad, Star Wars prequels, misc og Barbie films.

-if you want to be moots for fandom reasons, please skip this next part. I do not condone self-harm or eating disorders in anyway, and my page will be used to recover from by eating disorder and joke about my self-harm.

*requested organisations: National Eating Disorder Association (NEDA), National Alliance for Eating Disorders, OA (overeaters anonymous).

*for background, I've been dealing with the binge eating subtype of bulimia since 2017. I will not be going into detail of my development.

*again, this page will NOT be used to promote eating disorders in anyway, this is me documenting my recovery. I do not promote disordered eating behaviors, and my Insta dms are always open for people who need them. my page is open to anybody, no matter where they are in their ED journey.

(this is the part I want fandom moots to skip).

*lw- 82pounds (aged twelve),

*hw- 160pounds (aged thirteen),

*cw- 130pounds,

*gw- 120pounds.

*I am trying to lose weight healthily, while putting on muscle and recovering from my eating disorder. please no ana tips and only venting.

thank you for reading!! I hope you're all doing well!

-via gray, 01•16•25.

TW 3d

i haven't eaten all day and i'm SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

we're getting pizza for dinner as well so that's a guarantee i'm not eating that. worst case scenario i do a ch3w and sp!t

should we go for a 2 day fast?

edit- follow up question, do you end up swallowing a lot of the food from ch3w and sp!t? like is it the equivalent of 1 bite?

edit2- i got it forced down my throat 🥲 what a fun day i've been having

TW 3d

winter uniform is back, you know what what means... hiding in jumpers and stockings so you can st@rve without anyone realising and shocking everyone in a few months :))

chew and spit, you'll forever be my holy grail

baking so i can watch others eat it while i st@rve and smile :)

TW 3d

~goals~

cw- 67kg

1st goal- 65kg

2nd goal- 62kg

3rd goal- 60kg

4th goal- 58kg

5th goal- 55kg

6th goal- 52kg

7th goal- 49kg

and so on

im actually really exited now that i have my goals written down :)

TW 3d

I hate when I consciously binge, I'm thinking, 'Wow i just ate like a pig for 2 days, and yes i am going to continue to do that'. Like actually what is wrong with me. I'm on school holidays so i don't have school to distract me anymore and i literally want to cry.

Recently my fyp has been filled with people spraying clones or other chemical sprays on foods to avoid binging. I think I should try it!

I want something delicious to binge on ngl! 😅

This day has been the worst day in a long time.

Binged on sandwiches, Pizza and chocolate.