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“Maybe I deserved to lose my wings, this pain is all I ever know…”

Mimi is a bat demon character of mine who lost their wings from a gang they were hunting for, they suffer terrible phantom pain and the wound aches so much that sometimes it makes them itch it which reopens it, they feel like they deserve this pain for the sinner thy are. Oh, how wrong they are.

To remind people, I do gore and dark subject matters, so I advise to unfollow me if you dislike that stuff, some of this is vent and others is just be getting bored and w.i.ps

⚠️TW for depictions of death, su!c!de and somewhat realistic gore⚠️

I despise guns due to my own personal stuff, so the pieces with guns in them is just me venting I guess or whatever, idk how to explain it

He's so me fr (Me and my friend hc salieri ftm sooooo have him ftm)

bbg, i know how it feels (personal experience with that kinda thoughts). but i'd suggest this;

any time you wanna hurt yourself, count in numbers.

I like the number five, so i count by fives. five groups of five. count it, tap my foot, my fingers, clench my hands to fives.

five and twenty five. i count by them to try and just distract myself.

How do i not start harming myself one day? Out of a weird curiosity? I'm scared of that idea the most bc that 'try' won't stop and my own actions and thoughts will manipulate my personal beliefs and the limits I'm trying to set- both for my mind and actions.

But seeing and learning others losing against themselves hurts me so much. I don't have a strong personality. I'm trying, for months, to not get a reflexive answer to stressful moments as the mere words of 'i wanna kms'- just so i dont get used to it or don't get affected by it. And yet now those words are what escapes my mind during any kind of a breakdown and im trying to not think like that. İm still trying to not think like that but idk. İm scared. It hurts me so much seeing people hurt. I hate this world :(

Uncensored Version + Bonus, They're not Explicitly SH scars but rather scars from her drawing her own blood. But it looks a lot like SH so I'll put it here

Kanao from the Lullaby Au in Different Clothing's and styles!

It's a bit weird but I find cuts attractive.

♡♡♡

oh to have a flat stomach, small ribcage, better shoulders, thin face, bigger eyes, longer eyelashes, cuter lips, no beauty marks, better nose, better hair, naturally big dark eyes, smaller feet, longer legs, longer hair and more cuts ! ! ! !

Got termed spent a few months off of tumblr binging, but I'm back and fatter than ever. I'm a minor so if that makes you uncomfortable then DNI. Ugw is 88lbs/39.9kg. Ed accounts please Interact!! 🤍

tw mentions of gore/sh

i used to have a really bad problem with watching gore as a form of self sabotage.. does watching horror movies count? i havent watched one in a while and im scared itll trigger me

tw: ed mentioned

met my younger self for coffee today...

she said, "we're still not skinny?"

"we've got something so much better than that, love"

draft poem i wrote the other day about self harn and dealing with urges

TW under the cut: sh (burning)

I need it, I crave the pops of the flesh against the almost frozen heat, the metal kissing my skin as flames send that familiar smell to my face. I hunger for the sting of relief. Each time I pull my hand away from something warm that voice in my head says "stay"

TW: Referenced/Implied self harm

So, these little guys may as well be a parasite, but I have made so many drawings of these guys over the last two days. I'm probably not going to stop any time soon, considering I want to make reference sheets for them to look like if they were actually in the game, so watch out for those soon, I will probably go in order of Coco, Azazel than Drina. But for now, just enjoy the two pages of drawing/doodles I have made of these guys. (Also don't mind the weird creature that looks this hatred from Block Tales next to Azazel)

I don’t feel safe by myself </3

close to relapsing send hate

funny to think that i started cvtting because my former fp was getting distant with me

want to cut so bad

filter: cvts deeper sesh

filter: blade

filter: bone skinny bruises scars

filter: sh

filter: sh

filter: cvt skin knife carving stab

filter: sh

filter: styro styros

filter: relapsing relapse

filter: styro beans