Archiefeelings - Blog Posts

i miss her so bad, she looks so lonely in class and she actively avoids me. i miss her personality, her warm words and silly anecdotes. i will feel forever guilty for being the catalyst for our drift. it wouldve happened eventually because, he and i clearly didnt mix. but it hurts that i lost such a good friend and we are both suffering.

getting sick is my body's way of telling me to slow down and take a deep breath. as much as i appreciate the reminder and accept its what my body needs, i really don't want to be sick now of all the times to be sick:/

cw: mentions of sex below cut

She makes me feel so beautiful, i always imagined being intimate would be ruined by the way my body looks but she embraces my body for the way it is, she finds ways to appreciate it in a way that i feel perfectly unique. with her, it seems obvious, of course i love her perfect body, of course its uniqueness is the best part of her. but the idea that she could feel the same way still baffles me. i love her so much

I love my girlfriend, she loves me so much and its actually crazy. i still cant believe it!!!😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

i love music so much. abba was real when they said "thank you for the music"

man i love running so much, its just so much fun😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

i think i believe in some kind if higher power, its not like, god, or anything like that. recently ive just been noticing that things are happening that align perfectly with my goals and my needs. like, at work, i had to do a job and i needed a certain number of things to do it and i grabbed the perfect amount first try?!?

(tw ed mentioned under cut)

or, like today, i was going to skip lunch but as i was leaving the house my friend asked me if i wanted some of the curry her mum made and its like. okay, maybe the universe wants me to eat today?!?

my girlfriend is so beautiful, im so excited to see her again, its been almost a week and im having prettiness withdrawals.

she lights up my life i am so ecstatic 😊😊😊😊

tw mentions of gore/sh

i used to have a really bad problem with watching gore as a form of self sabotage.. does watching horror movies count? i havent watched one in a while and im scared itll trigger me

I love my laptop so much its so cute!?!? And i especially love the kitties with my and Charlies initials😊😊😊

(lowkey doxxing myself if anyone from school finds this but ah well🤷)

the hardest thing to cope with is that the scars might never fade, i accept them for the most part, because the people i care about love them as a part of me. but sometimes i struggle to understand that ill never feel safe leaving the house in a singlet.

CW - slightly suggestive under the cut

something that really helps is when my girlfriend kisses my scars or runs her fingers along them telling me shes proud of how far ive come or that im beautiful either way. that really really makes me smile and feel better