Tw Ed Implied - Blog Posts

Man, I have gotta step on a soap box here for a minute fellow gardening folk. I’m stuck home with my parents (who know I smoke and also smoke but like we have to hide it from my grandma and they eat to smoke I smoke to eat iykyk) and my mental health be struggling (see earlier posts) so I’m just waiting to garden so I can shut my brain the hell up and just sleep. But I buy only shit that gives me the drive and focus to lock in. So I’m here at 1:00am loving the sweet breeze that is sativa and wishing I could’ve just done this earlier to manage the badness at a REASONABLE HOUR so I could’ve been asleep by now ;-;

i aspire to have the vibes of dead n gone by luci4 its actual th1n$p0 motivation for me 😭

holy moly um i didn't think me of all people would say this but if you're not a very obvious ed blog please stay away 😭 idk i just automatically assume you're a normal person going down the disordered path so i want you to dni 🥀

i am a SLUT for protein up and go. you will NEVER catch me without multiple protein up and go's in my bag 😭

your boy got a bf you bet your ASSCHEEKS im locking tf in

"summer is in x months!!" "get ready for summer!!" "summer bodies are made in the winter!!" I LIVE IN NEW ZEALAND

psa: if you faint (or almost faint) EAT SOMETHING!!! eat the chocolate in your cupboard, eat a protein bar, make yourself a sandwich, JUST EAT SOMETHING!! it doesn't matter if it's 300 cals or 50 cals, any amount will help you get energized. don't faint and then not eat, your chances of fainting AGAIN and landing in hospital is gonna shoot up.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

i WILL get through this 24 hour fast.

my friend next to me as she watches me like ed stuff on my tumblr feed

when you like all the cool grunge guy stuff so now there's only coquette girly stuff left 🙁💔

I can't even look at myself right now, I'm disgusted by my body

I need to stop being so damn pathetic and starve this fat out of my body. I have to do it, I have to reach my goal.

Just saw an old picture of myself...why am I even alive atp?? 🐽

i think i believe in some kind if higher power, its not like, god, or anything like that. recently ive just been noticing that things are happening that align perfectly with my goals and my needs. like, at work, i had to do a job and i needed a certain number of things to do it and i grabbed the perfect amount first try?!?

(tw ed mentioned under cut)

or, like today, i was going to skip lunch but as i was leaving the house my friend asked me if i wanted some of the curry her mum made and its like. okay, maybe the universe wants me to eat today?!?

TW: Referenced/Implied self harm

So, these little guys may as well be a parasite, but I have made so many drawings of these guys over the last two days. I'm probably not going to stop any time soon, considering I want to make reference sheets for them to look like if they were actually in the game, so watch out for those soon, I will probably go in order of Coco, Azazel than Drina. But for now, just enjoy the two pages of drawing/doodles I have made of these guys. (Also don't mind the weird creature that looks this hatred from Block Tales next to Azazel)

holy shit I think I actually hate eating at this point, it tastes alright but then just feels disgusting. I wish I lived on my own so I could just starve and starve.

this month’s choices are next month’s body.

please interact if youre an active ED blog in January 2025! if we're already mutuals, please tag some of your favorite mutuals/blogs to follow!

IM SO HAPPY I ATE ONLY AROUND 500 CALS TODAY !!!

(i would have eaten less but it is so hard to get around eating when in recovery 😭

Im currently at 42-43 kg (it alternates because yk im in recovery so its acc so hard to starve or purge now)

AND I WAS AT 39 KG !!! LIKE TWO AWAY FROM MY UGW BUT HAUFDAUHWHFEF FUCKING THERAPY SNITCHED ON ME >:[

*cough* @vodozemacc350 *cough*

not a day goes by w/o monster <33

this one is my fav, n it only has 10 cals ^^