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i hate food

but not in a way of just being picky or sum shit like just thinking about food makes me wanna throw up my insides out, when i eat i feel so dirty as if i rolled around in dirt. I despise it idk how ppl enjoy it

oh to look like this

(sorry for the pfp it’s temporary but I still figuring it out so you’ll have to bare with me and my choppedness, luv ya’ll.)

Hey just a little PSA.

Moots. I am obsessed with you guys and your blogs. Seeing your posts will never not make my day, good or bad posts. I love y’all so much, feel free to choke me out whenever boo. ❤️❤️

Sorry I don’t rlly reach out. I wish nothing but fairy dust and magic in your lives.

actual icons of everything magical. 💕💕 @angelsdocry @x-psychotictendencies-x @wishhedbeenateenidle @mortifyingdarling @eepiiestgrrl @okkuspokkus

I HATE BEING FAT AND UGLY

Hey reminder, racists are not welcome here or anywhere. We’re all disordered and sick, but this is outrageous. Seek help and leave the internet and don’t post things like this.

seeing your veins and bones poke out more>>>>

The Gag reflex is back, it kinda sucks though bc I have to take off my nails every time b4 I purge. Then reglue them on. (I wear press on every single day btw.)

Yep, I'm the girl who st@rves but still ends up fat cause I'm a weak b*tch

My brother is such a dick (positive) we were watching breaking bad a few weeks back, there’s a scene where a character purposely throws up, and very subtly, especially bc we were with our parents and they don’t know, he just turns to me, and points his finger just a little bit, like oh fr.

I love my brochaco‼️‼️

I need advice, my gag reflex isn’t working right, I ate like 1000 cals at dinner, and tried to purge but nothing would come down, only like 10 mins later. I have the shove my fingers all the way down to even get a feeling. Please, how do I like..Reset it or something?

Mia is starting to control me a bit more than Ana. Idk how to feel, I feel like Ana has better results. Any tips?

Ugh they need to leave you alone. 💕

you know the drill… they t worded me but im back T^T

pls share so my moots can find me AGAIN

I want to commit suicide with my crush. Like overdosing and kissing each other then cutting our necks open. 🌸💕🦋

But before then I need to lose weight so she’ll want me.

guys i see the light at the end of the tunnel (i didn’t b1nge today after a whole month of eating literally everything)

I’ve been cvtting all afternoon..It’s so euphoric, but I always feel like I need to go deeper after a while bc it just doesn’t effect me in the same way. I’m always thinking about how much easier it will be to cvt when I’m thin.

I feel so pretty and empty after purging.

My life is a fucking joke, I just purged like 77cals. And my brother got suspended for 10 days, for buying 10 yarts. One day for each yart ig. LMAOO

We are so back.

“the difference between your body this week and next week is what you choose to do for the next 7 days”

About me!!

Ana/Mia/Sh Blog! (Block don’t report.)

You can call me Minny!

Stats+Fun Facts under the cut.

Teen, Girl, Lesbian.

Height :5’10

SW/HW: 255lbs

CW:240lbs

GW1:195lbs

GW2:170lbs

GW3:145lbs

UGW:120lbs (And lower)

(Fun facts: I’m Mexican, I LOVE comic books and superheroes. (X-Men And Batman are my favorites.) My shows include, X-Men 97’, Batman the Animated series, X-Men the Animated series and Breaking bad, along with Black Sails.

DNI- If you’re a minor DNI blog, I am a minor. Or if you are here to spread hate of any kind to anyone.

Have a good day lovelies. <3

It's true that you shouldn't stay in the "fuck it, whatever" mindset after a binge - food-wise, anyway. You most of the time can't make up for binges - physically, again. But you can stay out of the "my day is ruined and I'll wallow in self-pity for the rest of it" been there, done that.

But honestly? That's NEVER worth it. So why not make use of the energy - and not by working out or trying to make up for it, because that's not gonna happen and because it doesn't work, you'll feel even more it was a bad day. No, try to do homework, a creative project, sit down for video games or movies, whatever. Something to distract you and that makes you still think by the end of the day, that even if you binged, you had a great or productive time and so that you can end it on a good note.

I get that it's difficult, but chances are high that due to this disorder, you neglect other thing which were once important to you - so see that as a way to make up for that, even make up for the binge in a different way if you want, but make it feel like you still spent your time with something positive, that wasn't for nothing by the end of it.

I hope no one noticed how I literally bought six cans of sf monster and nothing else

Still at my Grandma's... And I fucked up. Usually when I'm here, I either do really well or straight up binge, and it's appears that this time, I do both. Yesterday, I did really well actually but today was horrible. To be fair, no one in my family ate "normally" today, it's the ore-Easter shit, but I mean, they're not disordered, so I feel even more like a faker rn 😭

It's Easter tomorrow and I'm really scared. I'm feeling motivated to do well, but my family wants to go out for lunch tomorrow. I'll just get something from the kids's menu, skip breakfast and only eat a small dinner with my family if I can't avoid it.

And I really have to work on my steps! I feel awful for neglecting them, but I have a really important school project I need to work on... It feels like am excuse, but logically, it really isn't.

I mean, the day after tomorrow my Dad and I will leave already again, and the rest of the fam will stay with my grandma still, andy Dad will leave too after a few days, so my other sister and I will be home alone for a couple days at the end of the holiday s, which is great, since she doesn't really like me and won't force me to eat with her or something. Maybe she'll expect me to cook, because she's prepping for some exams, but that's fine Ig. I mean, I'm kinda planning to fast, but I'll also have to work on that school project, and I'll have to plan my eating depending on how much brain power I'll need then lol. So I have to finish as much of the project as I can now so that I'll be fine fasting/doing high res then.

Bruh why is this post so loong

First day at my Grandma's, and she moved her bathroom scale an now I can't find it :(

So now I'll have to go two days without weighing myself, and I can check my weight in three days after my Dad and I are home again... it's not an issue, I usually don't weigh myself everyday, either, it's just that I was planning to do it to keep myself accountable... Easter with my Grandma, a dangerous game food-wise

Why do I feel so tireeed

I've eaten and had an energy drink and two cups of coffee, plus I worked out so whyyy dooo III feeel soll exhaaaauuusted and heeeaaavyyy omg I'm stupid

Was trying to read a book while pacing around my room but a couple pages in I realized just how heavy that thing was like okay, may not be the best to read while walking then, but also how am I supposed to read all that? Ugh

I've been trying to read more lately, because I always thought it was a bit of a waste of time really (I just sit around and do nothing even remotely productive, especially when it's novels I'm reading (I'm trying to get myself a couple scientific books now though so that I'll also feel like I am really doing something for my brain and interests then)) but then I got myself a digital watch and I've really started paying attention to my steps and work outs now and I got the brilliant idea of "what if I read during that?"

My neck is not thanking me. The books are not thanking me. I am NOT thanking me. But it's cool! It's books, after all.

And I used to read a lot as a kid, but that was because I got bullied (especially about my body) and literally had nothing else to do during break time back then because no one wanted to hang out with the fatty kid. Anyway, and that's one of the reasons I kind of stopped reading novels, but now I'm getting back into it!

I know that's a random ass lost but whatever. I don't even plan to write that much, I just wanted to tell you about my heavy book and then the words just started flowing lol

No better feeling than finally being locked in again after binging for days

I can't believe I keep throwing this feeling away when it's literally the best thing ever and nothing, truly NOTHING feels good about binging, because I don't even enjoy the food I eat when I do and even if I did in my head I'd be screaming at me to stop but most of the times I can't

It's one of the worst experience s in my opinion, whereas restricting does have a couple downsides but they don't outweigh (heh) how good it feels

"If you lose some weight you'll fit into that!"

-My 10 year old sister to me as we were looking for outfits to wear at a special event

Like... bitch. But you're right. And no, you weren't "just kidding". It's fine. It's fine. It's FUCKING FINE.

Just gonna do some red paintings on my legs later is all. It's fine.