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Riverdale S2 Finale

Look I really liked the majority of the episode, the north and south side came together, it was great. But when it came to Hiram Lodge, I was really hoping he would be killed off. He has too much power where he’s not even a fun villain anymore. They can't have the theme of Archie as a criminal stretch for 24 episodes. And now I have to flipping wait 

Artists are cool.

beginners, hobby artist, professional artists, gore/Horror artists, comic artists, all of them.

Art is awesome, all forms of it.

Writers, crafters, sculpters, cosplayers, musicians, all of them.

Art is an amazing form of self-expression. Keep going at it; don't let anyone put you down because your art "isn't good enough". You ARE good enough.

And to all my new artists, you're AWESOME!! Without new artists coming in, our community would eventually die. Keep practicing, with time you'll get better.

Don't spend too much time comparing your art to others, don't put yourself down. Don't stress about if your style is 'good enough', just do art. Create because it makes you HAPPY. Art shouldn't feel forced.

You're all awesome!!!

Tornado season actually makes me want to crash out - I live in the Southern US, and for my state, 'tornado season' is March to June.

We already had a tornado a few weeks ago (like, 2 weeks tops). Then we had thunderstorms and a tornado risk LAST WEEKEND, and now, we have a freaking tornado watch AGAIN, AND FLOOD WATCHES (probably soon to be warnings) UNTIL *SUNDAY*

Oh the joys of ol' 'tornado alley'

I don't understand why people are so scared I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life, I'm fine being alone and on my own. I like being alone with myself I don't have to put on a mask and act like a 'normal' person. I can do what I want whenever, I can buy stuff if I want (on a budget of course) I can clean and have the lights off whenever I want. Have my own schedule of life and I don't have to interact with people. It seems all lovely to me, how can a person hate being alone?

-🦋

So. I may have failed the mARTch challenge.

BUT IN MY DEFENSE!! IN MY DEFENSE!!

it is all mouthwashing's fault. I watched a playthrough and now I am knee deep in hyperfixation territory. Actually? Deeper. I am drowning.

Maybe I'll try to catch up and finish the challenge? Maybe not? Idk. But mouthwashing!

it sucks how neurodiversity terms have become misused by neurotypicals, and then when i show my struggle with that actual thing, I get treated like I'm dramatic. I'm tired man :/ like no janis, you're not going non-verbal just because you stopped talking willingly. if you are non-verbal you cannot speak at all verbally. (I'm not non verbal tho so could be wrong) if you mean situational mutism, that feels like someone taped my fucking mouth shut, and I would not be able to talk then to save my life. I'm tired of seeing the terms non-verbal, overstimulated, hyperfixation, and the like misused. ughhhh

i love being a weird kid ngl. its so fun and honestly the people considered "normal" are all the same to me and seem kinda plain? like what would being "normal" even be like what do yall even talk about.

like yeah so what if I like silly little musicals and watch anime and am a therian and am unapologetically neurodivergent + lgbtqia and dress alt and am in theatre and have obscure interests and have dyed hair and stuff like that. so what if me and my friends use archaic language as a joke and make dances + mess around + watch anime and read manga during lunch. so what if I don't fit your stupid social norms.

yeah I'm weird and cringe but im literally still a fucking teenager and being weird and cringe is apart of growing up and finding who you are !! embrace it !! embrace your whimsy !! even if you're not still growing like me and you're an adult reading this post you should also embrace your whimsy !! being whimsical is fun !! life is too short to care about what others think !!

and the people that are also "weird" that I know are genuinely the sweetest kindest funny people and I can have actual conversations with them without feeling like I'll be judged !! Find those people that make you happy !!

my point is life is short and I am also still a kid so I am cringe but I am free. I will be a kid and enjoy myself as I like while I still have the chance because every adult says don't be in a rush to grow up and my dad always raised me to be my true self :)

have a nice day and stop giving a fuck about others opinions

I lied. Put your clothes back on. We're gonna talk about how we don't hear about women in history. Think about it, think of an artist or an inventor. The first person that came to mind was most likely a man. Because we did not give women the same skills and education they needed to grow and thrive, and live up to their potential. And when they were geniuses anyway, their accomplishments were overshadowed by a man. Maria Anna Mozart? Émilie du Châtelet? We don't hear their names. There's many more we don't even know the identity of. Gifted people with wonderful talents, overshadowed, lost to history. All because they had the misfortune of being born a woman.

have you ever avoided something, just for the simple reason that you don't have time to get a hyperfiction on something right now...🙂

i'm in that situation right now🥲, because i want to watch Arcane season 2... but i don't have time to fixate on a show right now!!!

plus it's so hard to avoid spoilers😓

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DENKI KAMINARI IS NOT DUMB ‼️

i see so many fan-made comics/fanfiction depicting denki as stupid or not as good as his classmates. HE ISN'T?? HE MADE IT INTO UA FOR A REASON. yeah he might be ranked last for midterms but THIS IS UA. LITERALLY THE MOST PRETIGIOUS HEROICS SCHOOL. EVEN IF U RANK LAST UR STILL PROBABLY BETTER THAN THE REST OF THE COUNTRY.

even if his quirk makes him "dumb", thats just a side effect of his quirk. you wouldn't say deku was weak for breaking his bones when he used his quirk, or that ochaco is delicate for being sick when she flies. OF COURSE THEY HAVE THINGS TO WORK ON THEY ARE STUDENTS FFS

and even tho bakugou or jiro tease him for being dumb (i.e. "dunceface") they are NOT insulting his intelligence. he is just a teenage boy who makes dumb decisions. like being friends with mineta.

REMEMBER: he got 272 internship offers!! THE PROS RECOGNIZE TALENT✨️

thank you for coming to my ted talk.

Okay, I'll ask. What's with demons and ducks?

Like seriously. First, it was Crowly from Good Omens:

"Ducks have ears. Do ducks have ears? Must do. That's how they hear other ducks."

"DUCKS!" [What about ducks?] "They're what water slided off of."

"Don't give them bread, you idiot!" (Conversation) "Frozen peas." [...What?] "That's what you feed ducks, frozen peas. They love them, and its good for them too."

And then we have Lucifer in Hazbin Hotel:

They're all around his room as well, and his introduction was literally him finishing making a duck!

Not even to mention that I have an obsession with ducks as well. I am not shitting you. I have: duck pillow case, duck comforter, duck drawings, duck pens, duck notebook, duck keychain, 3D puzzle duck, giant rubber duck, two duck ordiments, duck slippers, and not to mention the 111 rubber ducks I have and the 6 plush ducks I have. (I might be missing something).

And this was BEFORE I found out about these two! I think I've been obsessed for about a little more than a year and a half by now.

The most backhanded compliment ever😭

So cute🥹❤️

how to solve a rubik’s cube a gay valentine’s/anniversary comic about trying to impress a boy (my now boyfriend) [rbs&follows>likes]

The love that this post is getting makes me so happy and proud! I love all of you and I’m so happy that we are spreading the positivity!😊

I feel like we can all agree that labels can either bring people comfort or make people feel like they are being put into boxes. So on that note, I wish you all a good day, and I hope you find comfort with yourselves whether or not you identify with a label.

Listen Up YouTube!

Please👏

Stop👏

Show👏

-Ing👏

Me👏

Trans👏

-Phobic👏

Content👏

Thank you and good night😌🌙

I wish all trans people a lovely day/night, and don’t let transphobes get you down! They don’t even know you! How are they supposed to know whether or not you are trans!?

idk if this is a super hot take but i genuinely do not like Rasey (Raph x Casey)

I can see the appeal for it and tbh idc if someone ships it, im not gonna throw a fit over it but i js personally dont like or ship it

One of the main reasons being is that i see raph as sapphic (transgirl spec yk) and thats not to invalidate other hcs for raph its js my personal opinion/hc

Another one being the oversexualization of it and the fetishization of it, specifically 2012 and its even starting to grow with mm

I also see them more as just friends or qpp, nothing more than that.

In terms of fanon mm casey, it rlly depends on how casey is depicted for me tbh

most of the time i can get behind it and ill genuinelt enjoy some stuff written abt mm rasey but another handful of the time casey is written off as "raph’s boyfriend" so it can be distaseful.

(and honestly i can see why writers can make that mistake, ive done it many times too so yeah, understandable)

when it comes to ppl's personal iterations i dont rlly think so critical of it, not my au/iteration not my business

the difference between that and a canon iteration being the canon ones are open to the public and open for criticism and headcanons and debates cause it is a piece of media, while a personal iteration is not.

so yeah thats js my two cents on the ship 🤓

Again, IDC if someone ships it, im not the type of mf to get all angry over ships and headcanons im js ranting :p

They r a great duo though, one of my favs

Once more I need to talk about Welcome to Demon School Iruma-Kun! Specifically about Mephisto.

As such, manga spoilers ahead!

I've been thinking of the Scala exam a lot recently, and about Mephisto's reaction to Iruma. I realized that this is the first time in the manga that we see someone contrast Iruma from Delkira instead of compare him to.

If you think about it, it is often repeated through the series about how similar Iruma is to Delkira. Asmodeus saw him as Delkira during his first evil cycle when sitting on the throne. Repeatedly Sullivan sees Delkira in Iruma. Amduscias saw Delkira in Iruma during the musical festival. We are pretty consistently reminded the similarities between Iruma and the previous Demon King. It's kinda like we start to see Delkira as this amazing, never wrong being.

I think that is why it is so shocking when we get Mephisto's view point on the very beginning of Delkira as Demon King. For the first time, we see someone viewing Delkira in a negative light. We see Delkira be greedy and selfish enough that someone was essentially fired from the position that they had held for centuries. Mephisto was cast off on the whims of Delkira.

I think it is so interesting that it takes hundreds of chapters to get to this point. When I first read it, it felt wrong. Like 'that's not right.' Iruma is compared so often to this person that seeing something negative about them feels off putting. It's a reminder that Delkira was not perfect.

I also think that is why the conversation between Mephisto and Iruma is so beautiful. Mephisto realizes how different Delkira and Iruma are from each other, and because of those differences, Mephisto sees a future king in Iruma. That Iruma cares so much that he would never cast aside anybody. Everybody is important to him no matter who they are. This is the first time we finally get someone looking at Iruma as a future demon king because he is different from Delkira.

No one means ill by comparing Iruma to Delkira. Instead everybody means the highest respect by doing that, but there is something so refreshing about Iruma being seen as a future leader for being Iruma. For being greedy in a different way. Instead of making it all about himself and his desires, his greed stems from wanting everyone to be happy and fulfilled.

I was not expecting this outcome from the Scala exam. Initially I was very wary of Mephisto, but now I've come to love his character. He just wants to feel needed again, and Iruma offers that without even realizing it. Iruma is so clueless to the impact he has on the demons around him.

I hope my rambling was coherent. Basically, I am really excited for the series to continue and to see how this all progresses. To see Iruma continue to make a name for himself, as himself. This manga is just so beautifully done.

So I need to do a final assignment in any topic I want for my art history class, I decided to do it about the military propaganda in movies (needs to be related to art) like top gun and others, (disclaimer, I haven't watched any one of this films, yet, 'cause I don't enjoy cine about war but military propaganda is super funny, end of disclaimer), and holy shit, this is super wild, like the Americans have a lot of propaganda films? My country, Spain, comes from a military dictatorship but we couldn't talk about the hardships of war and things like that, it was a very taboo topic, now a day's not so much, except with elderly people, but like I had to go to films from Franco's time to find a film that didn't mock them, this doesn't mean we don't have, lately we've been having more, but I don't know, I just find it interesting.

Proof of my work, is in Spanish and not the final title.

I’m really grateful for how randomly invested I was in Greek mythology, because I feel like it really desensitized me to nudity in the world in general (especially considering how literally advertisers take “sex sells” in America), but more specifically in art. I know there are a lot of people who might not be able to appreciate drawings, paintings, or statues because of the nudity so I’m proud of younger me for just not caring because now I get to see cool art like this and instead of turning into some like middle aged prudish Karen I can just see this and be like, “Wow the person who made this is talented! I really like this style!” So yeah, art is better if you don’t instill mental restrictions to the art that you consume. Haha sorry rant over, but yeah, this is pretty!

statues from Musée d’Orsay I drew a while ago 

Why is it normalized for students to literally be having a mental breakdown because of how much schoolwork they have to do? My best friend of around twelve years is actually sobbing to me about how overwhelmed she is and how she feels like she can’t do anything because she just can’t focus. I’ve literally never seen her this way before. I feel so bad because I’m not going through the same thing as her but I want to be there for her the way she’s been there for me but don’t know how. I’m trying my best though and hoping it helps. I’m just so sick and tired of these kinds of things happening to people and not being taken seriously.

ive been through so much pain in my life. Inflicted with it. Helpless to stop it.

And I’m so angry and depressed right now. How dare the world hurt me this way. I was supposed to be given kindness and love- and instead i was tortured. Broken. Made an example of. Turned into nothing.

Everyone else has such consistent happiness within them. Like they have no question that they are loveable. How fucking dare the world take that stability away from me. I was to feel safe and good all the time.

Instead i went through horrific circumstances. People stood back and said, “that kid’s going to be fucked up for life”. And instead of STOPPING it i am now fucked up for life. And those who could? Yeah.. those who SHOULD’VE helped DIDN’T. And it’s as much their fault as it is the inflictor’s fault. The pricks.

To me now it seems that almost all people have parents who love them. Families that take care of them. I hate how my life lacks that. I hate how i SHOULD’VE had that and DIDN’T.

I even feel evil right now, speaking out into the void. Their words. Telling me i am Pretending to be a victim. My pain is my own fault, i am just what is wrong. Not them. Blame blame shame and guilt on me. Not them. And this enrages me when it is so clearly twisted and manipulative.

I feel evil still. Saying out loud the fucking TRUTH. I feel like my words will genuinely hurt someone. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I know I am hurting and that this pain dies with me. No one else should ever have to feel this.

But that’s just it. MY WORDS ARE NOT HARMFUL. The guilt and gaslighting is STILL clinging to me. If I put a voice to my pain and actually say what happened, well means i’m hurting my abusers!!! Oh how DARE I hurt them by saying out loud what they fucking did to me. The liars say they want the truth. Ha.

For the void i will say it. The truth is I was robbed of a loving family. Of a happy childhood. Of kindness and love. I was not only ignored but also bullied mercilessly by people supposed to love me. And I am forced to carry this pain. I must carry this fucking horrible pain and loss. All the way to my grave. I should’ve had it better. And i didn’t.

Evil horrible people abused me.

I am a fucking victim of abuse.

I still don’t believe myself when i say that. I wasn’t abused in ways other people have- so it doesn’t count. It’s not enough abuse

But, These scars… they will last my life. They are real so anyone who says my abuse wasn’t abuse can FUCK off. (looking at you enabler family members .)

Other people had families. And love. I had a fucking posse of bullies. I was hated from the moment i could speak up. Three year old child treated like garbage.

No one else (besides other victims) carries these kinds of scars. Often i feel so alone among those who were loved.

They can live their peaceful blissful lives, happy to be loved and happy to love. I am happy for them. But the jealousy i have towards them too.. It fuels my anger at my abusers. They should’ve loved me. Treated me well. Not twisted me up and broke me and toyed and played and hit and sneered at and despised and grew disgusted with me.

World?

Void?

I am angry. And jealous. Why cant i go back and be loved? Where is the lost hours, days, of kindness? I was not shown affection.

I want to have been loved.

All i am left with is loss.

It makes me mad.

It's crazy that the usa is constantly threatening it's allys like does it know that mexico is its ally like?? How the media and politicians treat mexico is so crazy when you keep in mind that mexico and us are allies. Like I know that us politicians are racist assholes with racist bigot bases that they are trying to cater to, but fuck man.

And recently now Canada is now getting hate by us politicians (trump mainly). It's so disrespectful to treat allies like constant potential enemies.

They want us to have no peace, only perma-war.

In a video essay about home improvement channels and TV shows (the concept of the video essay was about how people recently have trended to decorate and make style choices for their homes based on potential resale value rather than their own personal style preferences) I was introduced to a British tv show (big dreams small spaces) focused on garden improvement and unlike their American renovation show counterparts this show was mainly focused on what the personal style choices and desires of the person's the episode is about.

This show is hosted by Monty Don. I like his attitude towards style preferences that I myself want to emulate and embrace. In an episode, a lady asks about him if he likes her choice of flower for her garden or if he thinks another flower looks better there and he responded with (roughly quoting) " I might think that another flower would look better there but this is not my garden it's your garden" This sentiment I myself want to emulate in my future career in architecture for my clients, to (mostly) set aside my own design choices and help them embrace and bring to life their visions.

I would also like to embrace these ideals in my own life in in my own style choices, I want to make style choices without caring too much about 'resale value' or what other people think. In my personal life I wish to have the confidence, courage, and overall gumption to make bold choices that make me an individual.

A lot of ideas come from and were inspired by the YouTube video

'Why Home Improvement Shows Feel Icky' by Kendra Gaylord

While I was walking to class I was listening to this video and I was imagining a fake presentation I could give to my professor based on ideas I got from the video so I wrote them down.

First post/rant yayy

I don’t know it’s this is the extent to how other people see it but like the fact that we all exist is literally so strange

Like billions of other humans exist out in the world living their own lives unaware that maybe the person that they just walked past is going through something happy/sad and that’s just normal like???

And how are we the only species on earth on this, we can run on two feet, have fine motor skills, can form coherent thoughts and are aware of the world around us. Humans are so unique and it’s so fascinating to me we can have our own interests and hobbies and beliefs that are special to us

Like my all my dog knows is our house and neighborhood like she doesn’t know about the world around her because her world revolves around my family and I but then there’s me I’ve seen more of the world than she can fathom through pictures and my own travels I have my friend group and they have their lives to live outside their interactions with me

And even still your reading this in your spare time in between your classes, at a work break, on your bed anywhere at anytime you just lived out a day or are still finishing it you don’t know me and I don’t know you yet we all have one thing in common and that’s being *human*

Another thing is the way that we’re just little dots in time

The earth has been a thing for billions of years and I’m not even a dent at all I’m not even a dust particle compared to billions of years but I’m still living in this time where I can do the things that make me *me*

I could’ve been born at anytime in the history of the world but I was born in this century at the time I was and have been lucky to live this long and even if I can’t fathom making it past high school I know I will and that I’ll have to make something of myself

And then long after I die my life will be forgotten if I don’t make something big out of it, there are millions of lives lived that are unknown of full lives of real people that we don’t know about it

The fact that we exists in this time is amazing, long before we were born so much happened in the world and long after we die so much more will happen in this world and that’s if the we don’t destroy the place by then

Anywho if you're reading this ur amazing and Ty for reading or skimming through my entire rant because me ranting about random stuff I deem important may be kinda stupid but hopefully I’ll be able to give you a new outlook on something :P

Either way good morning/evening/night lovelies =)

TW: random rant (ventish)

Recently, I had a talk with 2 of my best friends, (R and C) and we had a detailed, serious discussion about a topic that had come up through a mutual... It did happen to be true, and I have come forward and offered my hand to help R alongside C. So, here I am, staying up all night so my sleep schedule can align with them, that way if there is an emergency, because I am the most flexible and free person, R (or C) can call me at night. C, of course, is the day time caller.

I just kinda needed to get this out of my system, R has been going through a lot of high stress lately and it is in her best interest to listen to our advice. Our other friend, S, has been ruining her closets friendships by cutting contact with everyone but family and lying about how she communicates- such as, her phone being restarted but we have seen her active on multiple social medias -and we aren't sure we can fully trust her with the new information about R's situation, but most of the cut contact was due to the current state of her sister and her new nephew.

C on the other hand, has been doing so well, her relationship is good, she is proceeding smoothly in her fighting classes, and just last night, called me as soon as she got home to tell me she was being asked to choreograph a (soon to be pitched) Disney movie with her instructor.

That alone, is big and I am so happy she will be taking part in this, as well as being featured in a future movie if Disney proceeds, but what stuck out to me was that as soon as she got home, she called ME!! She has never done that before, because normally she'd go to S, but because S has cut contact with her best friends, including C (bsf of 10 yrs) they aren't in the best terms, still, it meant so much to me that she called me out of everyone.

I am beyond proud of C for taking on this role with confidence, I am ready to stand firm beside R to offer help with the new possibilities that are being forced onto her, and I will support S in any way if she needs it while she takes care of her family.

I have offered my house as a safe space for all 3 of these people, and they know they can come to me for anything, relationship wise, comfort wise or just to hang out. I really truly hope I never lose these girls.

Y'all ever have one of those 9/11 to 50 shades of gray butterfly effect days? Like where one little thing ruins your entire day in two hours 💀 like I love my family and friends but I may become a felon if they don't start acting civilized.

Y'all, you know what I just realized? People are WAY to judgy these days. Like, I can't even go out for a walk without some 10 year olds eyes me up and down like I'm some kind of walking experiment of mother nature. I'll be wearing a hoodie cuz it's, like, -20 degrees celsius indoors, and some popular boys are staring at me like I just committed a war crime. How am I supposed to "Live, Laugh, Love" when y'all don't even let me "Live, Live, Live"?!

Little rant ig? So I'm a junior in hs and I'm freaking out because I have one more year and then shit gets real. I wanna be a cosmetologist but can I even do it? I wanna specialize in black hair but the way these schools are set up is that possible? I feel like it would be really hard and I'm scared, I'm scared of life and growing up. I don't even know how I'd pay for trade school and will I regret not going to college? Idk I'm just scared and have a lot of questions and wanted someone to talk to since my family isn't really listening.

Rant about black men and women in dating!

Black men know black women will only date a black man so they know they can be the bare minimum and still get you because them being black is enough. I've experienced it, guys who think because they're black I need to give them a chance. And if I dont they'll accuse me of only liking white boys like no you're just not it 💀. It's the gaslighting for me 😬.

Anyway, thoughts? Opinions? I'm ngl I'm a little scared to put this out here especially since my "thing" is astrology but I do wanna talk about other things sometimes. But thanks for your support. My posts have gotten pretty popular in a short amount of time and I'm shocked.

Yall, I'm tired

im tired of being ignored at my lunch table, by people I thought were friends, and in general

in my house hold, you have to do your chores before you can really do anything, right? Well yesterday, I "forgot" to deep clean the bathroom, which I totally did!!! And so I got in trouble, well, here's the thing my moms not specific when it comes to being grounded, lets say I'm grounded from the tv, you'd think "oh! Just that? And only for the day?" Nope! Two days, and every electronic! And get this! when I used to have a phone, when I would get grounded from it, I would lose all electronics! Bit!!! With my older brother, it would JUST be his phone! Like, wtf?! Favoritism much!