Vent Post - Blog Posts

vent post bc im tired and feel alone in this

TW; dysfunctional families, implied abuse kinda I'm not really being abused

I fucking hate being "perfect." Stupid, I know, I feel like I should be grateful.

Have you heard about golden child and scapegoat dynamics in dysfunctional households? Because me and my brother are living examples of that. I'm the golden child and I loathe it.

I have it so much better then my brother, I know. But being the golden child, I am my mother's trophy, and it's exhausting. I am a doll, not a person. A bragging right. An award. I have to always do what I'm told, be smart, achieve high things, always have to look pretty, have perfect manners, tons of impossible expectations, be the perfect little girl. Or she starts yelling. I hate it so much. I'm tired, I'm really tired. I stress myself out to be enough for her. I'm the definition of a burnt out gifted kid. Yet i feel like i'm supposed to be grateful because the one above made me smart and pretty. I can only be who I really am online, with my s/o, or with my friends. And I loathe it.

And I just feel alone. I see posts about how golden children will become the abuser and it scares me. I don't feel like anyone understands that both the golden child and the scapegoat suffer. I don't want to be my mother, I swore I'd be better. I don't want to be her. I don't know how to break this cycle.

Fuck.

i will yell and cry and scream until my throat is raw and ragged

I WILL LOVE I WILL BE LOVED! I WILL HOLD MY ARMS OPEN FOR OTHERS AND THEY WILL FIND COMFORT IN MY EMBRACE!!! I WILL NEVER BE LIKE YOU! I WILL LOVE! I WILL LOVE!

So... Reason I haven't really been posting is mostly due to the fact I am losing the passion for making my art, I do still draw and have stories I wish to share! It's just become so much for me, I feel like I'm losing it all especially with the fact that I'm considered homeless. I've been thankful enough that my uncle has taken my family and I in but, I feel like we are imposing. I've been looking for a job but, no one bothers calling or even looking at my resumes. I feel so empty and tired that I don't know what to do. I only keep going for my mom and friends along with my pup.

I apologize for venting but it sometimes is too much to the point I can't even make art or post art sometimes. So I deeply apologize for this. I will find a stable place and income but for now, I'll share what I can and I hope you all can be hopeful for some art sooner or later.

To remind people, I do gore and dark subject matters, so I advise to unfollow me if you dislike that stuff, some of this is vent and others is just be getting bored and w.i.ps

⚠️TW for depictions of death, su!c!de and somewhat realistic gore⚠️

I despise guns due to my own personal stuff, so the pieces with guns in them is just me venting I guess or whatever, idk how to explain it

Can we and by that I mean can trans allies stop assuming people’s transition goals please???

My trans to do list looks like 1) get hairier 2) dress like I’m in a fantasy cartoon 3) sleep in grey sweatpants and no shirt on. Enough with the fitness advice.

I have to re-learn how to draw digitally. . . .someone help. . . .

basically I’m trying to use procreate and I hate everything. . .it randomly re adjustes which is annoying

I tried getting a brush that works like the one I had on the other app but it’s pixelated

It’s pixely . . . It’s not supposed to be that way! Is it the canvas size? I did another drawing and it wasn’t so pixelaly! Not to mention I’ve played around with it and I can’t get the thick and thin ratio right I really like styles like this (art by itsmattibed & beybuniki)

And I wanna know how to achieve this style. . . how do you people put that like gritty soft effects or yur work? It’s got that soft look, is it an effect? and I can’t find the right brushes for that type of look to the lines

I get the feeling knowone who can help is gonna see this but eh. . .

also theres no clear display!!!! oh and art like kadart and Sherlock’s are both good examples to

. . .maby I should just stick to traditional. . . . .

I hate how some people make everything about love and romance in life like don't get me wrong love is amazing but society seems to push this narrative that we NEED love to be happy when that's just not the case love won't suddenly make you happy when your just not okay I'm often told love can just magically make me happy when it can't not to mention aromantic people exist I can't imagine how hard it is for those people living in a society the pushes romance down your throat everyday

(I don't hate love I know it's a wonderful thing I just wish it wasn't all over the place like it's supposed to be my whole life)

This is a vent! Go ahead if you want to read it, you don't have too.

Warning: Vent, Trauma!

Hey, everyone...I know I don't have much liked and followers, but I'm going through so much. It's hard to be the only sister in your family, if yall didn't see the post about me, it tells you everything about me.

I have five brother's, I'm the middle child. I just wanted to vent to people who I think who actually cares about me, so I don't know if yall are going to comments. It's okay if you don't want too.

What I have been dealing with is alot...I have been choked by my brother's, I have been been punched so many times. There is also one I don't want to talk about, unless if yall ask me too and I might do it.

And I'm very weak, I don't have that much friends. I'm ugly, I hate my life, I even cut myself so many times. Watched a Vtuber yesterday and I told he was very kind when I first saw him, but I got banned from his chat and he thought I left. He then said I was no fun and continued to what he was doing.

I just want someone to help me, kind to me, to notice me. But I get ignored alot, I have been going to therapy for the thing I can't tell you unless yall ask me to tell yall. I don't even go out in public that much because of how ugly I am.

And yes, I do wear glasses. And the pfp I have now is not me, it's a cosplayer.

So as of late, news in America has been devastating for many communities especially the LGBTQIA+ community and the POC community. As a trans man myself, I will not detransition (which for me has only been socially not physically sadly) or hide my shame, but, I am also unsure if I can risk seeking asylum elsewhere, as I do not have a valid passport and to get such a passport I would likely get all my documents confiscated due to my Drivers license having an X as my gender marker.

I know many who are afraid or nervous as well and I know my state is typically safe, but my family is not, my local community is not, and the risks and dangers will always be there for me. I remind my family I’m trans, I get screamed at and hit in the back of the head, I get told because I’m pregnant I’m not trans because trans people can’t have kids apparently. All I did was mention how I can’t leave the country anymore in a civil conversation.

Due to the state of everything I’m not very energetic or willing to post or message as much. I would love to post more and share more but it takes a lot of energy to get up anymore and even be around my own family, make my drs appointments, even go to work. I apologize for any radio silence, but living in a Nazi home is rather exhausting for me and my mental health may never recover from this first month of 4 long years.

the longer i don’t see you, the more the bitter bite soothes my tongue. i’ll spike the coffee if it helps the day pass by.

(TW:venting)

I’m so tired, like so dead tired right now

I’ve gotten sick 3 times in the last 3 months, barely gotten any rest from it because my family somehow always throws endless tasks at me whenever I end up sick, and I’m not allowed to miss school either so I never end up fully recovering

I’ve had 35-40 nose bleeds in the span of 3 weeks, now I have to go to an ENT specialist to find out if I have to get cauterized, which is extremely painful

I keep having my own personal doubts about myself and my own insecurities, like whether I’m good enough, or if me friends actually care for me, etc

I don’t like going deep into my personal life, especially with my family, it’s a very complicated life with them but I love them so dearly that I feel so guilty whenever I feel upset with them

it’s so loud here, every little sound and movement ticks me off, I have an endless migraine and I’m sick of the school nurses looking at me with pity or thinking I’m lying to get out of class

and I’m so fucking sick and tired and being treated like I’m stupid. I’m in all honor classes, I learned how to be a therapist for my family when I was younger than fucking 5, I basically raised my older brother, I work so hard. And then people treat me like I’m stupid in the areas I’m actually working and doing well in, like I don’t know anything. Like I’m a stupid little girl in their eyes and I hate it.

when I finally shut down and tell people how I feel, they laugh and think I’m overreacting or that it doesn’t matter, that everything will be okay

and not everything has been okay, but I’m so thankful for the things that are. I’m thankful for my best friends, my absolutely amazing boyfriend, and family even though they have their problems, my school and my education, my hope in my health getting better, and especially shifting. There are so many good things going on in my life but when I get like this all I can focus on are the bad and negative and the pain and hurt.

I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I just want to go home, I want to be with my found family, I miss my mom, I miss my waiting room, I miss my pets, I miss them so bad

I almost shifted today, I took a nap and the second before my alarm went off to go to theater I saw my waiting room and almost started balling tears.

that moment made me realize how much I need to be home right now, I need to rest, I need to breathe.

to whomever took the time to read this, I appreciate you for hearing me. I don’t get to express my emotions much, but I appreciate you

take care of yourself, and whomever you are, I love you, you deserve love, and if you feel like how I’m feeling right now, you deserve it all the more <3

Thank you, and good night <3

Maybe I'm overthinking this but at times anywhere on the internet I decided to share my ocs, barely anyone really interacts with my content compared to when I post art I did for others (e.g. Comms, gifts) , meaning it's other people's characters. It was fine at first, I mainly draw for myself after all but I noticed how it's not improving a single bit over years. Which makes me wonder if my content is simply uninteresting.

Repetitive furry headshots get me a lot of traction, the thing is that's not what I want to be known for, which is why I stopped including these artwork in a lot of places I'm on. (Other than FA because that's were my clients are so I of course post results).

See, a lot of attention gives me anxiety. I don't want to be popular with my content. I simply want to feel connected and I want to have a few people liking my work. Which doesn't seem to work at all. And something that I simply lost completely.

Repeatedly trying to built a following is just exhausting. It doesn't matter how hard you try to connect to others/other artists. Nothing works out for me. I just end up sitting alone in the corner again. Part of the problem might also be that I become very socially awkward. I for example don't like chatting. A few years back I had absolutely no issues building a following but I also just drew animals, something I don't really have interest in that much today. With the current art I create I feel like I'm simply invisible. Not only that but I also get zero commissions in that field too. My art is not bad, I'm proud of it, which is something I can't say about pretty much anything else I do in my life.

Big reason why I feel this way about people avoiding my own original content is the none exciting support in shares. What I mean with this is , I get a few likes, maybe a comment if I'm extremely lucky but reshares, no matter the platform aren't there. I got boosted by a big account on a different platform a few days a go which made me extremely happy but literally nobody shared. As if my art is embarrassing and nobody wants it on their own feed as a sharing post.

I enjoy drawing my own characters for yknow myself. And I don't think this will ever stop. It's just an extra nice warm feeling when I did something I'm extremely happy with and it would get loved by maybe 20 people or so. But it's simply not there which is often a big down-putter (if this word exists LOL)

I have to make a fucking foldable for a major grade in English class, WHY?! I could easily do a multiple page essay with properly cited sources (this project is "so we learn how to cite correctly) like we're sophomores what the fuck do we need to be making a college level career pamphlet for?! Just have us write a damn essay this is so unnecessary and stressful! She thinks just because she gave us a week to do this it's MORE THAN ENOUGH TIME. ITS NOT, she talked every day for a fifth of the period expecting us to pay attention, and I'm in her loudest class and I have fucking ADHD and autism! I can't handle working in that class on a normal day much less one with no structure! And it's not like I can do it at home because it's right before finals so EVERYONE is giving us giant projects and I need sleep! I can't even work on my chrome book because it won't support the apps I need my family doesn't have the extra money to get me a decent computer or laptop and the school library is closed for fucking testing! I was just starting to be healthy and get sleep and eat a decent amount of food at regular times and not replace water with energy drinks and then this shit hits me like a bus! I hate school and I hope whoever makes this system goes through 10 times the mental and physical agony that american students and (most) teachers.

vent I'm pretty sure no one asked or cared about

God, I just hate that talk of "oh, things will eventually get better" so fucking much. I have been to therapy for years, so did I keep on taking medication and tried physical exercise but NOTHING worked. And please, do not view this as a "but it doesn't matter doing those things and not changing your mindset" because, FUCK, i tried. I tried so hard to believe things would be better. That this crippling feeling of loneliness that genuinely make my bones ache would eventually dissipate, if not completely, then at least a little. That the little me as a kid wouldn't need to imagine a world he'd feel truly feel seen and understood because people would be like it in the future. I remember everytime I felt disconnected from others around me, even friends and family, I'd tell myself all would change one day and would lose track of time desperately desiring for simple moments that felt magical in my head, like having a true heartfelt conversation and being truly seen and understood by somebody. Now I understand that it doesn't get to happen, you just keep pushing on until you die and I don't want this existence. I feel like I, ironically, love life and it's possibilities too much to end up like this. I just...i don't know. I was diagnosed as autistic not long ago, and yeah, it surely was one of the big reasons why I felt so disconnected and different from others my age but even with that, it still feels like there's something wrong. Something that no doctor can point at or diagnose. Something rotten and wrong and deeply ingrained in me that makes people leave eventually. That make other people see me as "cool or whatever" to be around for a bit before moving on with their lives and finding actual people. So...yeah. It was depressing

Having panic attacks aren't fun

*Vent TW*

My sister always lies, she's greedy and inconsiderate.

This time was no exception.

I normally take my showers before bed, so on Friday (this is being written on Sunday) I decided that I was going to keep my friendship necklaces in the bathroom. I helped my best friend Roslyn pack up her things for a move beforehand and was sweaty and gross. Before I shower, I take off my jewelry because I don't want them to rust, so I take off my necklaces and put them over the toilet paper holder. (Weird placement on my part, I know.) The necklaces I took off and put there were my ring friendship necklace for my best friends Roslyn and Charlize, and the other was a silver sword for my other best friend Mara.

I had forgotten to put them back on before bed, like a dumbass. And didn't even realize they were missing until tonight, when I went to go shower and saw that only one necklace was left hanging.

I went upstairs to ask my sister where it was because she always has a tendency to take my things without asking and then hide them from me. (She has been able to keep and hide my things from me for 1-2 months before as an example. She even started stealing my makeup on a regular basis a few months back. I had to go repeatedly into her room when I couldn't find my things and of course I found them.) She denied it, of course, like she always does. But all I know, is that she has a necklace that I hold dear to my heart (in which I explained that to her) somewhere and I know she's gonna do something stupid with it, jump in the creek near our house, leave it at her friend's place, or leave it in a gym locker room.

I told her repeatedly, that this necklace was something important to me in which she kept lying. Which, by the way, I have had the same argument with her over other things only to find out she did in fact have that something I accused her of taking.

My necklace is gone, I know she has it, I know she won't give it back unless she gets caught with it. What do I do?

TW: random rant (ventish)

Recently, I had a talk with 2 of my best friends, (R and C) and we had a detailed, serious discussion about a topic that had come up through a mutual... It did happen to be true, and I have come forward and offered my hand to help R alongside C. So, here I am, staying up all night so my sleep schedule can align with them, that way if there is an emergency, because I am the most flexible and free person, R (or C) can call me at night. C, of course, is the day time caller.

I just kinda needed to get this out of my system, R has been going through a lot of high stress lately and it is in her best interest to listen to our advice. Our other friend, S, has been ruining her closets friendships by cutting contact with everyone but family and lying about how she communicates- such as, her phone being restarted but we have seen her active on multiple social medias -and we aren't sure we can fully trust her with the new information about R's situation, but most of the cut contact was due to the current state of her sister and her new nephew.

C on the other hand, has been doing so well, her relationship is good, she is proceeding smoothly in her fighting classes, and just last night, called me as soon as she got home to tell me she was being asked to choreograph a (soon to be pitched) Disney movie with her instructor.

That alone, is big and I am so happy she will be taking part in this, as well as being featured in a future movie if Disney proceeds, but what stuck out to me was that as soon as she got home, she called ME!! She has never done that before, because normally she'd go to S, but because S has cut contact with her best friends, including C (bsf of 10 yrs) they aren't in the best terms, still, it meant so much to me that she called me out of everyone.

I am beyond proud of C for taking on this role with confidence, I am ready to stand firm beside R to offer help with the new possibilities that are being forced onto her, and I will support S in any way if she needs it while she takes care of her family.

I have offered my house as a safe space for all 3 of these people, and they know they can come to me for anything, relationship wise, comfort wise or just to hang out. I really truly hope I never lose these girls.

Y'all ever have one of those 9/11 to 50 shades of gray butterfly effect days? Like where one little thing ruins your entire day in two hours 💀 like I love my family and friends but I may become a felon if they don't start acting civilized.

Yall, I'm tired

im tired of being ignored at my lunch table, by people I thought were friends, and in general

in my house hold, you have to do your chores before you can really do anything, right? Well yesterday, I "forgot" to deep clean the bathroom, which I totally did!!! And so I got in trouble, well, here's the thing my moms not specific when it comes to being grounded, lets say I'm grounded from the tv, you'd think "oh! Just that? And only for the day?" Nope! Two days, and every electronic! And get this! when I used to have a phone, when I would get grounded from it, I would lose all electronics! Bit!!! With my older brother, it would JUST be his phone! Like, wtf?! Favoritism much!

Vent!!!!!!

So trigger warnings!! Death, and depression!! You've been warned!!

My aunt died Wednesday night from terminal colon cancer and it spread to her brain. My mom, dad and older brother are with my grandparents helping with funeral plans. My little brother and sister are stressing me out!! And mind you my little brother has anger issues, and my little sister has disabilities, like not being able to talk right, or thinking straight. Anyways as of this post my little brothers b'day is tomorrow, and my little sister has a concert to attend for her choir grade, and so that stresses me out even more, and we have 7 pets, and I have to take care of them, and we have two Rottweilers and they bark alot and it's annoying, and they are jealousy elementals and so they push people outta the way for love and attention, and you can't really get them to stop it we've tried a whole bunch!! Anyways why I'm posting this is to say sorry that I'm stressed, and looking for someone to talk to, crap if I could get a gf or bf that would be amazing!! I just want someone to talk to about my life ♥︎

Vent warning yall!!❤❤❤❤

So I have bad habits, like any normal teen, and so you know that's fun, I've been in 3 mental hospitals, those were fun, and I'm coming up on my one year release on April 4 of my residential facility, so yay! But anyways, I steal shit, I lie,cheat,you know normal things ig, I'm so off topic sorry lol. Aaanyways who I'm making this is because I have such a bad urge to cry and yell that I'm sorry to everyone I know, so yeah! Gods this is a ramble- but like I know that rumors are being spread about me for... Reasons and a whole lot of that actually has to do with the way i was in 7th grade, I was a serial dater, and was poly, and I was trans, went by Tommy, but now? I'm just looking for the right person, and yall know me as moss, and I'm a demi girl lol, yall get to know that ig, I know that this is a rant now, but like, I just want to feel loved, by someone any one! Even if its ai's... Or even online, is this too much? I think it is- sorry!!!-

Moss

I love yall ❤❤❤

Hii!!

HI CUTIE HOW ARE YOU <33

small update!!

𝜗𝜚 my aunt is getting me piano lessons!!

𝜗𝜚 im cleaning my room more often!

𝜗𝜚 my algebra teacher is giving me assistance with my homework (reminder that im in 8th grade :3)

𝜗𝜚 my friends and i are making plans!!

changing myself for the better!🤍

gonna try to change, because my life is going down and I can’t sink to the floor.

personal changes!! 🤍

𝜗𝜚 learn fluent french

𝜗𝜚 learn piano

𝜗𝜚 clean room once a week again (used to be a neat freak)

𝜗𝜚 apply for a basic job (just to get out the house and get money)

𝜗𝜚 finding a better outlet for emotions

𝜗𝜚 create a secret food stash

𝜗𝜚 become engrossed with books again

𝜗𝜚 find better hobbies

𝜗𝜚 learn how to tango/ salsa (or a form of dance in general, I have 2 left feet)

academic changes!! 📚

𝜗𝜚 study from 12-4 (on weekends)

𝜗𝜚 get a tutor (for math)

𝜗𝜚 complete 3 short response questions for application + apply for program

physical changes!! 🍵🧘🏽‍♀️

𝜗𝜚 go to gym from 10-12 (weekends)

𝜗𝜚 work out at home

𝜗𝜚 purchase skincare

𝜗𝜚 purchase clothes

𝜗𝜚 purchase books/makeup

if anyone has tips on how to achieve any please let me know!

i go into high school this year and i just want to be the best version of myself 🤍

i’ll come back to this in 2026, or I’ll add updates 😋😋

time to glow up or grow up

one step at a time!

dripping in diamonds and depression :3

need someone to get rid of the depression 🍵

I just looked at my phone and started crying

GIRL IN RED MENTIONED??

i dont wanna be ur friend i wanna kiss ur lips :((((

@carcin0-88

lavender, orange, sky blue, purple

I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH

Alrighty! Another ask game, let's do this!!

i watch sitcoms because they remind me of what i could be raised like and the life i wish i could have.

a supportive and sweet family :(

ɪɴᴛʀᴏ?..🥀

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ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʏʟᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ɪᴍᴍᴇᴅɪᴀᴛᴇʟʏ ᴍʏ ʙsғ 💋

ʜᴇᴀᴛʜᴇʀs. ᴏʜ ɢᴏᴅ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʜᴇᴀᴛʜᴇʀs ɪᴍ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɪᴛ 💕 ᴄᴏsᴍᴏᴋɴɪɢʜᴛs (ʙᴏɴᴜs ɪғ ʏᴋ ᴛʜɪs ᴄᴏᴍɪᴄ) ⭐️

୨୧ sᴀᴅ ʙᴏᴏᴋs ᴀʀᴇ ᴀɴ ᴏʙsᴇssɪᴏɴ

୨୧ ɪ’ʟʟ ᴘᴏsᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪs ʀᴇʟᴀᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ (ʜᴏᴘᴇғᴜʟʟʏ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴛᴏᴏ! <𝟹)

୨୧ ɪ’ᴅ ʙᴇ ɢʟᴀᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴍᴜᴛᴜᴀʟs! ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴀ sᴛʀᴀɴɢᴇʀ 💕

୨୧ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴀʟsᴏ ᴀ ᴠᴇɴᴛ ᴘᴏsᴛ sᴘᴏᴛ <𝟹

୨୧ ʏᴏᴜ’ʟʟ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʟᴏᴜ𝟸/ᴀʀᴄᴀɴᴇ/ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜᴡᴀsʜɪɴɢ + ᴄᴏsᴍᴏᴋɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀs ᴏɴ ᴛʜɪs ᴘᴀɢᴇ

୨୧ ɪ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ᴘᴏsᴛ ᴍʏ ᴘᴏᴇᴍs (ᴡʜᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡs?)

ᴡʀɪᴛᴛᴇɴ ʙʏ ᴍᴀxxxɪɴᴇ

Having mental health problems in a house with people that don’t really understand sucks. They have the happy-go-lucky mindset while I’m stuck nonverbal, anxious and the butt of every joke. Is it just me??

Nightmares and..

Vent stuff