Vent Post Bc Im Tired And Feel Alone In This

So i made one of my irls read school bus graveyard, and she's been reading it in car rides and during free time at school. She just finished it a few minutes ago, actually. And she keeps hitting me with the most foul jokes in the middle of class today.

like uh here's some things I can remember, idk I'm brainfogged from overstimulation so there's probably more.

teacher: "anyone got any guesses on how to pronounce this word?"

friend: *pulls out her phone and pulls up the picture of tyler getting fucking impaled and puts it in my face*

me: "hematop- [HER NAME]."

me: "uuggh, my head feels like it's vibrating..."

friend: "like aidens?"

me: "wha- NO. FOUL."

please help /j

is that an mcu reference /ij

@mocha-505 i will helena at you

so uh remember when I made one of my friends read school bus graveyard (CHAPTER 48 SPOILERS)

btw my art is usually much better then this I just made this on a whim-

she's possessing me

yesterday @irii-nii said "luka live with rizz"

this isn't even all of our work i have to do all my history classwork because my history teacher is sick today. And read our book for ELA. I'm gonna crash out

Thoughts and prayers for me chat /silly

TOMODACHI LIFE 2 FINALLY GOT ANNOUNCED IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR 7 YEARS IM SO HYPED.

i think about alot how my irl bsf was being jokingly downbad for dabi/toya in art class and then our art teacher asked to see him and then when she did she heard my irl bsf out. she said "i see why you guys go so crazy for these men." we were flabbergasted

also i call him babygirl a lot jokingly, it's very much a joke, I just like calling grown fictional men that i love dearly babygirl, so when the teacher saw him she said "oh that's babygirl!"

shoutout to ms. typh idk how she puts up with us

i love being a weird kid ngl. its so fun and honestly the people considered "normal" are all the same to me and seem kinda plain? like what would being "normal" even be like what do yall even talk about.

like yeah so what if I like silly little musicals and watch anime and am a therian and am unapologetically neurodivergent + lgbtqia and dress alt and am in theatre and have obscure interests and have dyed hair and stuff like that. so what if me and my friends use archaic language as a joke and make dances + mess around + watch anime and read manga during lunch. so what if I don't fit your stupid social norms.

yeah I'm weird and cringe but im literally still a fucking teenager and being weird and cringe is apart of growing up and finding who you are !! embrace it !! embrace your whimsy !! even if you're not still growing like me and you're an adult reading this post you should also embrace your whimsy !! being whimsical is fun !! life is too short to care about what others think !!

and the people that are also "weird" that I know are genuinely the sweetest kindest funny people and I can have actual conversations with them without feeling like I'll be judged !! Find those people that make you happy !!

my point is life is short and I am also still a kid so I am cringe but I am free. I will be a kid and enjoy myself as I like while I still have the chance because every adult says don't be in a rush to grow up and my dad always raised me to be my true self :)

have a nice day and stop giving a fuck about others opinions

... Is Till's Part in "Cure" about Ivan?

now I'm really not sure about R2 in this regard (I've seen theories that it may be more about Ivan than it appears but I really haven't made up my mind on whether I agree or disagree), but what I do personally think is that Till's portion of "Cure" in R6 genuinely makes significantly more sense to me, lyrically, if it is -- at least partly -- about Ivan (consciously or subconsciously), than if it is 100% about Mizi and only Mizi from start to end, even though the MV only shows him thinking about Mizi as he sings the part.

let me explain:

Allow me, to the tips of your fingers Allow me, to the ends of your feet Dissolve me in your gaze I don't want to let you go Please, leave me scars Please, hurt me so that Not a single drop of me remains Let me drown in you

... idk, I feel like if this is indeed entirely about Mizi, Till must have made up a lot about their relationship in his mind by that point because it sounds kind of strange to me otherwise. Mainly because while they are sort of friends and have had friendly interactions, it seems that they are not especially close (based on Mizi's words about Till in the artbook), and what Till carries for her is a somewhat distant & idolizing crush sort of thing, which... isn't the sort of energy the lyrics gives?

Like. maybe this is just me, but I can view this portion two ways:

The singer is asking "you", the person being sang about, to hurt him, because he views "you" as someone who would indeed hurt them (e.g. maybe they have hurt him/harmed him/fought with him before; maybe they have a toxic or tumultuous relationship) and/or someone who is in a position where they have a reason/need to hurt him (e.g. going against each other on the Alien Stage); and/or,

The singer is asking "you", the person being sang about, to hurt him, because of his own self-loathing and depressive feelings -- but in this case this just. idk. to me at least, it sounds more like something you are more likely to sing about, like. someone you have been very close to at one point. e.g. a love interest or w/e, who has been in a romantic relationship or situationship or something in an ambiguous relationship with you -- or a closer friend, frenemy or someone like that, that you have complicated or untold feelings about. unless your idolized crush is someone you view as a person who would (hypothetically) hurt you, in which case it falls under 1... except Till's perception of Mizi just kinda doesn't feel that way to me

which. hmmm. idk because like Till's image of Mizi is someone kind, sweet, gentle, soft, comforting and angelic (even with the R5 stuff, we still see this in the way she's like in Till's eyes in Cure's MV), and she's an idol-like figure to him in that sense (and they are not... so 'close' that it feels like he would very naturally sing to her for her to hurt him out of self-flaggellation reasons), it has always been slightly jarring to me that he would sing about her like this, even back when I was sure he was singing about Mizi.

But if you interpret it as being about, or partly about, Ivan instead, then it feels more natural to me; they have a closer relationship, Ivan has hurt him/fought with him and stuff multiple times, and right now they are going against each other on the Alien Stage where the loser among them will be killed.

secondly:

Until these falling stars Are buried in the blur of time On your icy lips Read my soul Yes, my soul, oh, oh

If this is about Mizi: I guess it could be?? if "falling stars" are entirely metaphorical and/or refers to the rain actually... except, even in this case, I feel like it's very possible to interpret it as him subconsciously thinking of such a symbol / such imagery because of Ivan-related reasons.

If this is about Ivan: ...sorry what, "falling stars"? You mean like. a meteor shower?? Okay no yeah, that is literally a major memory he has with Ivan, not with Mizi. And this particular phrasing, "Until these falling stars / Are buried in the blur of time" does further suggest that this is very possibly about a memory that haunts him to this day. which. points to the meteor shower scene more than anything... yeah I honestly feel like this line ties back to Ivan no matter how I think about it.

in any case this is honestly just my opinion and I don't know if I'm right but. just a thought. I think Till might be singing a bit more about Ivan in "Cure" than it seems from a glance at the MV, even if he doesn't realize/acknowledge it himself

ykw cringe culture is dead. throws some of my fandom OCs at you. in gacha too minus my isat oc because gacha is fun argue with the wall

I probably won't post about my OCs on here much but I was bored sooo

(First image: Aera, she/they, alnst oc

Second image: Akari, she/they/he, bllk oc

Third image: Kioka, she/her, pjsk oc

Fourth image: Rose, she/her, mouthwashing oc

Fifth image: Olive, she/they, sbg oc

Sixth image: Adaya, they/them, isat oc)