Maybe I'm Overthinking This But At Times Anywhere On The Internet I Decided To Share My Ocs, Barely Anyone

Maybe I'm overthinking this but at times anywhere on the internet I decided to share my ocs, barely anyone really interacts with my content compared to when I post art I did for others (e.g. Comms, gifts) , meaning it's other people's characters. It was fine at first, I mainly draw for myself after all but I noticed how it's not improving a single bit over years. Which makes me wonder if my content is simply uninteresting.

Repetitive furry headshots get me a lot of traction, the thing is that's not what I want to be known for, which is why I stopped including these artwork in a lot of places I'm on. (Other than FA because that's were my clients are so I of course post results).

See, a lot of attention gives me anxiety. I don't want to be popular with my content. I simply want to feel connected and I want to have a few people liking my work. Which doesn't seem to work at all. And something that I simply lost completely.

Repeatedly trying to built a following is just exhausting. It doesn't matter how hard you try to connect to others/other artists. Nothing works out for me. I just end up sitting alone in the corner again. Part of the problem might also be that I become very socially awkward. I for example don't like chatting. A few years back I had absolutely no issues building a following but I also just drew animals, something I don't really have interest in that much today. With the current art I create I feel like I'm simply invisible. Not only that but I also get zero commissions in that field too. My art is not bad, I'm proud of it, which is something I can't say about pretty much anything else I do in my life.

Big reason why I feel this way about people avoiding my own original content is the none exciting support in shares. What I mean with this is , I get a few likes, maybe a comment if I'm extremely lucky but reshares, no matter the platform aren't there. I got boosted by a big account on a different platform a few days a go which made me extremely happy but literally nobody shared. As if my art is embarrassing and nobody wants it on their own feed as a sharing post.

I enjoy drawing my own characters for yknow myself. And I don't think this will ever stop. It's just an extra nice warm feeling when I did something I'm extremely happy with and it would get loved by maybe 20 people or so. But it's simply not there which is often a big down-putter (if this word exists LOL)