I’m so tired, like so dead tired right now
I’ve gotten sick 3 times in the last 3 months, barely gotten any rest from it because my family somehow always throws endless tasks at me whenever I end up sick, and I’m not allowed to miss school either so I never end up fully recovering
I’ve had 35-40 nose bleeds in the span of 3 weeks, now I have to go to an ENT specialist to find out if I have to get cauterized, which is extremely painful
I keep having my own personal doubts about myself and my own insecurities, like whether I’m good enough, or if me friends actually care for me, etc
I don’t like going deep into my personal life, especially with my family, it’s a very complicated life with them but I love them so dearly that I feel so guilty whenever I feel upset with them
it’s so loud here, every little sound and movement ticks me off, I have an endless migraine and I’m sick of the school nurses looking at me with pity or thinking I’m lying to get out of class
and I’m so fucking sick and tired and being treated like I’m stupid. I’m in all honor classes, I learned how to be a therapist for my family when I was younger than fucking 5, I basically raised my older brother, I work so hard. And then people treat me like I’m stupid in the areas I’m actually working and doing well in, like I don’t know anything. Like I’m a stupid little girl in their eyes and I hate it.
when I finally shut down and tell people how I feel, they laugh and think I’m overreacting or that it doesn’t matter, that everything will be okay
and not everything has been okay, but I’m so thankful for the things that are. I’m thankful for my best friends, my absolutely amazing boyfriend, and family even though they have their problems, my school and my education, my hope in my health getting better, and especially shifting. There are so many good things going on in my life but when I get like this all I can focus on are the bad and negative and the pain and hurt.
I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I just want to go home, I want to be with my found family, I miss my mom, I miss my waiting room, I miss my pets, I miss them so bad
I almost shifted today, I took a nap and the second before my alarm went off to go to theater I saw my waiting room and almost started balling tears.
that moment made me realize how much I need to be home right now, I need to rest, I need to breathe.
to whomever took the time to read this, I appreciate you for hearing me. I don’t get to express my emotions much, but I appreciate you
take care of yourself, and whomever you are, I love you, you deserve love, and if you feel like how I’m feeling right now, you deserve it all the more <3
Thank you, and good night <3
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May this year bring goodness, joy, peace, happiness and love to all of you and may we be brought together to move forward through the difficulties life throws us ❤️🙏🕊️
I love you all, good night!
terrifying (shifted to the wrong reality one to many times, explosives + minefields were involved 😭)
but in all honestly shifting is such an extraordinary feeling and experience, the rest of my experiences are positive 👍
have you shifted before? if so, how was the experience?
nope
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OMG so first I’d like to say congrats!! I believe that to be a shift, and I actually have a similar story for comparison
I dream very vividly, up to the point where I can feel pain, water, heat, etc (basically anything that you can use your senses to detect) within my dreams, but I don’t go lucid in them often mainly bc lucid dreaming every night gets mentally exhausting for me
one specific night, I had such an experience that it had to be a shift
Before I had fully realized I was asleep and dreaming, I had the most vivid dreams, but the one that caught me off guard completely was the last “dream” I had. In this dream I woke up in an unfamiliar room that felt familiar to me already, and although it felt familiar I knew *I, my CR self* have never been in there. I looked out the windows and I felt the breeze, I could see people walking around going about their day in this little modern town, yet it was also not modern fashion. I looked around the room and I felt baffled, and in the dream I literally said holy shit I shifted, and I felt everything yet part of me felt that I was still asleep. I ran out of this bedroom and into a kitchen with my CR family, and it baffled me, none of my dr's involve any of this other than my better CR script, which takes place in my actual house and not some random house presumably in a different time zone. I went throughout the dream with hints of shifting being spoken about, with my brother, friends, and even myself speaking out loud. I know it's not normal for most persons to feel things in dreams, but l'm used to feeling pain, cold, hot, out of breath, and basic human emotions and physical pain while in REM sleep. But that’s when it happened, I looked at a clock on the wall and it was exactly what a clock should look like, NEVER in ANY of my dreams had I ever seen an actual clock without looking distorted. In parts of the experience I would repeat I’ve shifted and I’m grateful but now I’m gonna go about my day, and I was suddenly woken up by my cat jumping on my chest. Although I didn’t become aware while awake, I knew I was aware in the dream, not only that but I could feel and experience everything as I would when I’m awake, so I call it a minishift, but a shift nonetheless :D
Remember, you don’t even need to set an intention to shift prior, you know what you want, and keeping that belief and trust in yourself is enough!! I’m so proud of you and I send you love and prayers for your future shifting journey! 🩷✨
i think i shifted last night?
(can yall help me with determining if i did or if it was just a dream?)
details abt before becoming aware:
my dog usually wakes me up around 5:30 to use the bathroom, and after i had let him out i went back into bed and was thinking about being in a reality where it would be easier to be with my crush.
*crush context: she lives in the state that i moved away from a few years ago but we still keep in contact!
i wasn’t even thinking in depth about what it would be like, i was just thinking about what it would be like if i still lived there, and how i would probably be dating her.
becoming aware:
i woke up in my old room, in the house we lived in when i lived in -insert state name-. my bedsheets were the same, my room looked so familiar it was crazy.
*side note: my memory is really bad in this reality, so since i didn’t script any differences consciously. most likely leading to my recounting of my experience not being too great.
i remember sitting up in my old bed, and was thinking to myself, “holy shit, this is my old room, with my old bedsheets.” i felt them and they felt like how i remember them feeling. i even looked out my window, and saw the same view that i would see when i lived there in this reality.
another thing i remember thinking immediately that i should text my girlfriend. (aka my crush in this reality.)
i remember thinking about how i must of shifted. then i got up and went out of my room, and made my way to my old bathroom.
then i got worried about my OR, and felt homesick and shifted back.
after thoughts:
i’m 99% sure that it was a shift. the only thing that takes up that 1% is that i wasn’t consciously setting an intention to shift to that reality before shifting.
one thing that makes me lean towards it legitimately was a shift is that it felt so real, and i was able to feel the sheets below me in detail in order to ground myself.
all my previous shifting experiences i wasn’t able to ground myself because of how excited i was seeing my partner in that reality.
i’d love to hear your thoughts and opinions!
Hey guys,
I ended up having a very difficult night last night, had a couple nightmares, but one specifically happened after I woke up at 4:25 am
my cat had been chewing on my draw strings so I tried to pry his mouth open (they are plastic and falling apart, I didn’t want him to choke) and he bit down on my finger and it started bleeding a lot so I got up and cleaned the bite
Normally, after waking up early and walking around for 5 minutes and then going back to sleep leads me to having prophetic dreams or lucid dreams, last night was prophetic and unfortunately a terrible nightmare to wake up to
I don’t want to get into it too far, but it had a people from my CR who are currently going through something difficult, and in the dream they were suffering from something/someone else I know
after having prophetic dreams I wake up with intense worry and a pushing feeling to check in on them, I can’t with one since they are in the hospital
I’m going to consult my tarot deck today to get some more information about whether it was prophetic or not, and what I can do to help or stop/lessen whatever is coming
I might post my spread and the meanings behind the cards
I hope you all have blessed days 🫶
eek!!!
which oddly specific colour palette are you? tagged by the lovely @creamflix to do this quiz!
no pressure to do this but i'm tagging: @kisstoru @omitea @hiraethwa @dulcento @itachiiwrites ❤️
Hallo!! I was wondering (if you're comfortable with sharing) if you shifted to your Mphfpc children dr yet? I'd love to hear about it if you have :]. I haven't shifted to mine yet so I'd love to hear about what that universe is like. (Or any universe if you have another one you've shifted to).
eeek!! Thank you for asking :0
(This will be pretty short explanation cuz I’m currently at the hospital rn so I can’t write much, but I can post more about it later!)
So unfortunately I have not fully shifted there yet, but I have had times where I was partly there physically that I wasn’t aware of! I haven’t tried shifting in general in a while because of mental health reasons but I’m hoping to get back in the loop of it soon (catch the reference 😉)
I have shifted to other places though!
One of the first times I tried shifting (wayyyy back when) I accidentally shifted to attack on titan. It was terrifying. GOSH IT WAS AWFUL
I was there for like 2 seconds but it was utter chaos, I won’t even explain how bad because it would probably be too graphic
I also shifted to my apocalypse DR (it takes after the apocalypse is over and it’s really beautiful because natural took over everything, very lovely and non dangerous version) it was very relaxing being there, I didn’t stay long as I felt kinda weird being completely alone so I decided I would shift back here and write in some friends (this was before I realized I could just do that automatically lol)
Describing the universes as how they are or felt is very difficult, the best way I can is that it is all real, and it’s experiencing this reality in a different lens (obviously it isn’t this reality but that’s just how I describe it)
I hope this helps you out a bit!! You’ve got this, and when you do shift PLEASE I WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOUR DR 👹👹👹
anyways happy shifting !!!
STOP OMG ‼️‼️‼️
I have this horrible problem/habit of referring to myself as “we”. Like I talk to myself about things that I do and I say “oh yea we did that *insert something* and I DONT DO IT ON PURPOSE. Like whenever I say “we” I just mean myself, yet part of me knows there are more “me’s” out there, especially my DRself so I conjoin them together into just saying “we” instead of “I” now that you bring this up, I’m honestly gonna start doing that because I talk to myself a ton (I swear I’m not crazy just when I’m alone I like to think out loud to better my plan or work 😭🙏)
thank you so so so much for this you have no idea 😭🙏🩷
you heard of the "refer to your dr self in first person instead of talking like it's somebody else."
now may I present to you: "referring to your cr self in third person" to detach from this reality.
I'm not involved in this bitch's life anymore, I'm leaving.
"To Peculiar children everywhere. You are not alone"Hi! I'm Echo! An advid member of the MPHFPC fandom and a reality shifter ♾️I am 16 years of age Antishifters please do not interract My interests: singing/guitar/music/mphfpc/shifting/drawing/paranormalactivities/and of course musicals
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