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Not gonna lose this battle this time
Sometimes I realize how much potential I have. Both mentally and physically. And when I come back to my senses I feel ashamed and angry at myself. I could be everything I wanna be, but it's all covered up by my laziness and 30lbs of fat. It's miserable to think about what I can become and I don't have the willpower to act. I can feel it, that I'm destined to be more. But how can I achieve it? Im battling depression for a long time now, I don't know how to get started when my pasts chains are holding me back. Can anyone help me?
sighs in im sick of binging, purging, binging, chilling, purging, and then chilling all day. I can still Taste the throw up in my throat. Yuck.
one of my ex-friends has 4n4 too so im lowkey motivated to be sk1nn13r than her to make her regret everything. like yes im skinnier than you bitch deal w it
when i watch my friend effortlessly not eat through most of the day and not even think about food meanwhile im constantly thinking about food and screaming at myself to not eat just to look just like them
tomorrow im fr locking in after my holidays i WILL be at least 59 kg
me after eating three rice cakes as if it's gonna do something after a small binge
gang.... i love akira.!!! and amon!!!!! guys!!!!
hiii there!!! my names theo, im trans(masculine) with an ed . . i've lost like 16 kg since (late-) july and im still going!! i shitpost about this stupid ed a LOOOTTTT and amongst that will be my silly rambles of my silly willy babyboy amon (and akira too ig....) and also just devilman crybaby stuff in general ngl
im ALSO 13!!!! A MINOR!!! PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM MY BLOG IF YOU ARE OVER 18!!!
stats under the cut!! (along with like... general stuff maybe)
hw/starting weight: 79.9 kg (what the freak)
lw: current weight
current weight: 59.5 kg
gw1: 60 kg
gw2: 50 kg (HOPEFULLY BY THE END OF THIS YEAR GANG!!)
gw3: 45 kg
ugw: 40 kg!!! (HELL YEAH GANGY!!!)
— “Akira, why am I the only one talking?”
silly stupid tags i use for my non ed content:
• theo lowkey be rambling
• theos life is super interesting!!
— “Please, be somewhere! Say something! Akira!”
don't report. this is my safe space where i can spew what i want to randos who relate to me. if you feel triggered, just block me.
finally 43kg
need 4kg more 2 lose (157cm 43kg rn but wanna b 39kg)
i just wanna be perfect
i hate food
but not in a way of just being picky or sum shit like just thinking about food makes me wanna throw up my insides out, when i eat i feel so dirty as if i rolled around in dirt. I despise it idk how ppl enjoy it
oh to look like this
New Year’s resolutions!!!
be skinny
lose weight
read 55 books
Reach my gw
be skinny!!
straight As and A*s
lose my thigh fat
be skinny
have an active social life
lose weight
never binge again
study more
be skinny
lose weight
🎀Why🎀 can't🎀 I🎀 just🎀 be🎀 those 🎀 anorexic🎀 girls🎀 with 🎀my 🎀knees🎀 to🎀 my🎀 chest🎀 next 🎀to🎀 my 🎀bath🎀 tub 🎀making🎀 sad🎀 depressed🎀 tiktoks?? 🎀
HUH TELL ME FUCKING WHY
I’m leaving for Europe in 5 week and I’ve got a crazy plan to lose 25 pounds within that time. I’m gonna try my absolute hardest to work at this!! I’m gonna update y’all rn I’m at 145.2lbs and I’m update this every Wednesday.
I’ve fasted today and I feel like I’m winning.
I wanted to get on here and just thank all of y’all for 150 followers. I love you all so much, you’re so sweet and amazing and awesome. Even though this community is built around the unwell, I’ve met some of the nicest people on here, so just once more, thank you!
I live for ts ^
(Not my photo)
(Also they’re only ten calories?How??)
Thinspo
Omfg I think after eating like I did in march and the restriction I’m in this month I’m lwk getting the high again and it feels amazing
I think I’m officially back on that grind 350 cals for all of today
March absolutely sucked. Praying for an angelic Ana April.
(Wishing you all one as well)
No way, I'm actually so mf done. Okay, so yesterday, I was hanging out with my friends, and they know that I’m insecure about my weight and stuff. Not about this and my ED or whatever, but they know to some extent. So I'm sitting there, and I pinch my friend as a joke, it’s a thing we do to each other every time we see a yellow car. I pinch her, and I was standing beside someone else. She yells at me, and I ask her how she knew it was me. She told me I have fat fingers. wtf? Yeah, then she proceeds to tell me that the girl next to me has skinny, small hands. I wanted to cry more than I ever have, I think. I think what kills me over everything else is that she knows I'm insecure. I've opened up to her. I honestly feel so sick.
I hate everything right now. It feels like my body was made to hold fat. I can’t lose anything anymore. I’m literally so done.
(Not my photo)
Guys wake up a new lw just dropped!
Things have been a bit hectic here lately, so I think I can manage a water fast hopefully!
72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.
I feel so gross, I need to cleanse myself somehow.
So, a couple of days ago, I weighed myself and was only two pounds away from my lw. But then this week happened, and I didn’t do so well. I’m genuinely terrified to get on that scale. I know I gained, but if I see it in front of my face, I swear I’ll break down. Ugh, I’m so sick of having no control, somebody please send help.