est4s

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this being on my diet coke, the only thing i got from subway, is hilarious. thanks for the motivation <3

hunger just feels so right

“its seems so long,

i need someone”

I haven’t been active buttt im planning to f4st the entirety of next week (Monday-Sunday) any tips??

considering this for the rest of february or march

what if i only ate an apple a day for the whole of January

I going to cry i wanna finish my steps but I'm so tired and i feel the binge coming, I'm so frustrated

that damn period always ruin my days

Triggering movies/shows to watch

Movies:

•to the bone

•Starving In Suburbia

•Perfect Body

•Little Miss Perfect

•For The Love of Nancy

•When Friendship Kills

•The Best Little Girl In The World

•Thin (Documentary)

•Hunger Point

•A Secret Between Friends

•The brief life of Catherine

•black swan

•The Secret Life of Mary Margare

Shows:

•skins (uk)

•Flesh and Bone the TV show

•secret eaters

•any Victoria secret model walk shows (2000s)

•super size vs super skinny

•1000 lbs sisters

•my 600 lbs life

•Too F@t for Love

•F@t Families

Chubby king

would love to hump a bulge rn

im gonna go insane i was f4sting like the best damn 4na and went down 2kg in js a couple days but now im in a cycle of f4sting then b1ng1ng and then f4sting GOD atp only those 4na gcs with super strict rules or h3ll even a damn coach

Sensitive topic!

TW: svc1d3, mention of 0v3rd0s3, 4lch0h0l p0¡s¡0n¡ng, and s3lf h4rm as well as other issues, please read at your own risk.

basically, I probably won’t be active anymore, I’m planning on km$ today, sometime during the night. I’ve had a cranky shitty 4ss life. I don’t look forward to anything anymore and I feel like absolute shit. I’ve got everything ready, the letters, all that bs. The only thing I want for now is the final step. No quote can turn my the cogs in my brain, no kind of guilt will convince me otherwise. This has been the only thing I look forward too. And I truly, entirely cannot fathom how much I desire the mere suggestion of d34th. I feel as if my whole world lights up. And for once, as soon I take the final step, one final push, I will feel like a true free bird. Of course, I’ve always wanted to at least have some fun before I d¡3, I plan on dr¡nk¡ng down the p¡11s I’ll take, I used to just merely cvt myself yet the pleasure of bl00d flowing out is no longer enough.

goodbye cruel world, sincerely, everyx.

atp im finna need a non-p3d0 coach becuase ive been having SUCH bad binge episodes its not even funny anymore

How long have you been pvrg1ng?How often? What did you come to? What triggered you todo so?

Do you remember how was your first time?

I honestly cant remember, but I’d estimate about 2 or so months. My first time pvrg1ng was really weird, and felt disgusting af. But I got over it because ive intentionally thrown up b4 to get home from skl.

what triggered my pvrg3 was a really bad binge and I felt such immense guilt I couldnt bear it. And after that I started doing it way more often because I felt so empty and even lost weight after pvrg1ng

sighs in im sick of binging, purging, binging, chilling, purging, and then chilling all day. I can still Taste the throw up in my throat. Yuck.

The BIGGEST motivator i currently have is the fact that my bio-mom used to be a MODEL!? You (unfortunately) can’t find her on the internet.

went to the doctors and found out I may or may not have a VIRUS!!! And god oh god knows how long I’ve had it, hopefully it’s one that’ll eat all my disgusting fat off!!!! DATTEBAYO!!! (I’m going insane)

I just binged. fvcking two bread pieces with Nutella, a piece of cake, and juice. Oh my gosh. I’m gonna kms. (It’s like 2k+ calories all together btw.)

tip for people who are fasting !! if you can drink water i highly reccomend adding lemon and cucumber slices!! it gives the water a sweet taste,

can someone PLEASE give me ways to make myself sick QUICK, ive been feeling like shit but I’m scared that I’m actually not sick and just over exaggerating it, so I want to get worse since I’m going 2 the doctor tomorrow..

a SINGLE crumb or two of (bland) rice cake entered my stomach because my father forced me to eat SOMETHING and now I feel like shit! Like I know it’s less then 4 calories for a crumb or two but still..

yesterday morning i was making a healthy low cal breakfest (like 140 calories) and my dad praised me and even took a picture of me...i have never been happier, like yessss, unkowingly support my ed!!!

craving frozen grapes cs i (personally) think they taste like ice cream but im sick so my dad wont let me have cold food 💔

im like 99% sure im sick and have been feeling like shit so i got to go home early at like 12 something am, i binged like crazy and i feel 20x worse but i can at least ⭐rve myself since my parents r gunna think its only cs im sick..

i wont stay up late, again!

and then i stay up late again.

can someone explain to me WHY i crave alcohol even though im not an alcoholic and have only had extremely small sips that were soon spat out???

despretely in need of an almond mom, i geniunely cant do this shit alone i swear