🕯️as A Feather - Blog Posts

I haven’t been active buttt im planning to f4st the entirety of next week (Monday-Sunday) any tips??

im gonna go insane i was f4sting like the best damn 4na and went down 2kg in js a couple days but now im in a cycle of f4sting then b1ng1ng and then f4sting GOD atp only those 4na gcs with super strict rules or h3ll even a damn coach

atp im finna need a non-p3d0 coach becuase ive been having SUCH bad binge episodes its not even funny anymore

sighs in im sick of binging, purging, binging, chilling, purging, and then chilling all day. I can still Taste the throw up in my throat. Yuck.

The BIGGEST motivator i currently have is the fact that my bio-mom used to be a MODEL!? You (unfortunately) can’t find her on the internet.

tip for people who are fasting !! if you can drink water i highly reccomend adding lemon and cucumber slices!! it gives the water a sweet taste,

a SINGLE crumb or two of (bland) rice cake entered my stomach because my father forced me to eat SOMETHING and now I feel like shit! Like I know it’s less then 4 calories for a crumb or two but still..

yesterday morning i was making a healthy low cal breakfest (like 140 calories) and my dad praised me and even took a picture of me...i have never been happier, like yessss, unkowingly support my ed!!!

craving frozen grapes cs i (personally) think they taste like ice cream but im sick so my dad wont let me have cold food 💔

im like 99% sure im sick and have been feeling like shit so i got to go home early at like 12 something am, i binged like crazy and i feel 20x worse but i can at least ⭐rve myself since my parents r gunna think its only cs im sick..

i absolutely love friends who encourage you.

me and my friend are doing a 3 day fast tg starting tmrw and it’s so motivating. usually it’s so hard for me to fast, but making it into a sorta competition makes it sooo much easier.

i 💗 irl ana buddies

I need to lose 7kg by june, i’ve started off jan really motivated but pls send any tips my way i’m gonna need them😭💗

THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID

(get it? The uhhh the .. the biggest friend is HARDER, get it?)

st4rv1ng might be hard but being the biggest friend is harder.

Lowkey would wanna get better. But I am literally nothing without my addictions and obsessions, so we’ll stay here.

Fun dip as OMAD is underrated. (45-50cals)

I hate purging but still feeling some food in me. 😔

(sorry for the pfp it’s temporary but I still figuring it out so you’ll have to bare with me and my choppedness, luv ya’ll.)

Hey just a little PSA.

Moots. I am obsessed with you guys and your blogs. Seeing your posts will never not make my day, good or bad posts. I love y’all so much, feel free to choke me out whenever boo. ❤️❤️

Sorry I don’t rlly reach out. I wish nothing but fairy dust and magic in your lives.

actual icons of everything magical. 💕💕 @angelsdocry @x-psychotictendencies-x @wishhedbeenateenidle @mortifyingdarling @eepiiestgrrl @okkuspokkus

YAYAYAYAY

My brother is planning on getting me xans!! ‼️‼️‼️🌸🌸🦋

I HATE BEING FAT AND UGLY

So just crushed up two Advils. Honestly didn’t do a lot but if you’re just looking to take the edge off it’s fine. Plus if you try to placebo it enough I’m sure it could work. I’m sleepy now.

GUYS I’M GENUINELY TWEAKING DOES SNORTING ADVIL DO ANYTHING? THAT’S LITERALLY ALL I HAVE AND I NEED SOMETHING.

Hey reminder, racists are not welcome here or anywhere. We’re all disordered and sick, but this is outrageous. Seek help and leave the internet and don’t post things like this.

I feel like such a wannarexic, but Mia has been my lifeline lately.

my throat hurts.

seeing your veins and bones poke out more>>>>

IT’S MY ABUELOS BIRTHDAY HE’S TURNING 69 I LOVE HIM SMMM! HE IS THE SWEETEST PEA EVER. He sang to me, and we took lots of photos. We both watch Charmed together, his English isn’t amazing so he calls it ‘witches’ though I think he watches just cause he has a crush on Phoebe lmao. He loves my plushies and treats them like his grandkids. He gives me flowers on Mother’s Day bc I’m ‘their mother’. He’s an identical twin, and they’re both so handsome! Happy birthday to him and my Tio. I hope he gets to see a skinny version of me next year. ❤️❤️

The Gag reflex is back, it kinda sucks though bc I have to take off my nails every time b4 I purge. Then reglue them on. (I wear press on every single day btw.)

I HATE HATE when my parents confront me abt things, like I understand it but I just want them to shut up and leave me alone tbh.

Like today my mom was all like ‘Stop taking to me like your the parent and I’m the child’ well maybe if you regulated your emotions and stopped acting like a five year old I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if I didn’t have to comfort you everyday because you feel unhappy with your life I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you didn’t expect me to always be all sweet with you, and make you feel better about being with my dad then I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you stopped complaining about every single little thing that’s wrong, I’d treat you like a parent.

Stfu.

Also she got mad that I’ve been using pmo, in regular speech since it’s disrespectful, ITS A FUCKING JOKE. She was all ‘What if your dad told his father he was pissing him off?’ Yeah I guess it wouldn’t go over well bc my dad’s father is practically abusive.

Anyway, I think I’m just mad bc I broke my fast.

So this is my one meal for OMAD including fries, how many cals does this seem like? Like an estimate. The place doesn’t have cals listed. (Which I think should be mandatory for all restaurants but whatever.)

Ignore the photo but there’s about 6 mini sandwiches all this size, each with the ingredients I listed above.