I Hate Everything - Blog Posts

I don't understand why I have to shave my legs, like what-

I like the fluffy feeling it's nice, it also makes me feel so gross when I shave>:P

Like blehh

I act out in hopes that I won't be left alone. I speak loudly in hopes that people will listen. I take fast in hopes that I don't bore people. I say everything I can in hopes that people won't forget. I do so much to try and have friends but at the end of the day I'm just the weird girl who says unhinged stuff. I just want to not feel alone for once. I want to be able to do the things I dream about with someone else. I sacrifice what I want so that someone will stick with me, but I never get that in return. I let them treat me like shit because at least they acknowledge me. I'm alone even when I'm surrounded by my friends because I know they would choose each other over me.

|| X: Oh so your oc was kidnapped for 12 years, does that mean you made the heroes save her or something? ||

|| Me: Nope :D ||

|| When I tell you that nobody save this girl's ass, I tell you, NOBODY DID. And that goes for all the other children/teenagers/young adults who were with her, they saved themselves and I made some die trying to reach their freedom. 🤷 ||

|| Sometimes I don't understand how there are people who think that some autistic people (me included) are stupid and don't know how to do anything. ||

|| Like, yes i can FUCKING cook, study, READ AND WRITE and do the same as you. The only thing you could beat me at is talking to PEOPLE. ||

did you survive the exams?

ANON I HAVE NOT EVEN STARTED YET, MY FIRST ONE IS TOMORROW AND THEN THE REST ARE ALL THROUGHOUT JUNE.

im sorry but what the ACTUAL FUCK. HOW THE FUCK AM I MEANT TO KNOW THIS?!

if you understand music theory, i am BEGGING YOU, help me.

Attempting to ascend to godhood to give you visions of a drawing I had in mind because I'm sick and sitting up gives me a headache and I can't draw while lying down.

attempting to ascend to godhood to give you visions of my next fics so I don’t actually have to write them

I need some of Shuraiya/Sabo Fanficssss so badly

WHY DOESN'T ANYONE LIKE THEM??!!

I hate being the only one in this ship, I'm so desperate for a piece of content that it's driving me crazy!!

I feel you rare shippers, it's hard to be a fan of two weirdos and nobody like them like you do :( especially if there is no content

But i love Shuraibo <3

POV: the voice actor of the character you love is going to the same convention you are going to but you have have the money to meet them…

I am sobbing yall

The "No AI " hack on the searchbar almost got me KILLLLLLLLLLLEDDD ToT

If u don't know, there is a hack where if you curse in your search you will get no ai images.

I was reading the bonus story of a manga called NANA (book 9). Naoki dyed his hair platinum blonde. I had no idea what this looked like so I googled it, but all I got was ai slop of random blonde ppl, so I decided to search "platinum blonde fuck" to get rid of the ai and............................. Yeah, the results were just porn.

If I were alone, I wouldn't care. I'm 22. I can handle it. but what I COULD NOT HANDLE, WAS THE FACT THAT MY COMPUTER SCREEN WAS FACING MY MOTHERS DIRECTION

TW ! Graphic descriptions of abuse, trauma and self hate

P 0 R N Ø G R ª P H ¥

One topic I hardly ever see anyone talking about is how harmful pornography really is. I remember when I was still innocent and naive, when my cousin invited me to go watch something with her.

It was strange, new, she never allowed me to touch or interact with anything that was hers. As a child who had been in an abusive home, I was always desperate for attention. I didn't show anything back then when I first saw it, but whenever I remember it I force myself to vomit that negative thing out.

Never, regardless of the situation, regardless of the reasons, should a child be exposed to p_rn0graphy. A classmate from my old school wanted to have s** with me in the bathroom when I was nine. A f_cking nine year old student wanted to have s** with a naïve, newly adapting person of their own age.

Giving a child a tablet just to keep them quiet is a sick and unhealthy way to lead them to their doom. Because yes, porn is accessible as fuck. And for a child that you isolate from the world and from yourself, nothing is out of reach for them to want to fit into a group.

I'm never trusting anyone, I'm never looking at my own eyes on the same way ever again. And it's your fault. It's your fault that I always look to the sides, that I always feel disgust when I look at myself. Because nowhere was I enough. Nowhere have I been as beautiful as the p****tes that old ped_philes like to show their p_nises to.

I hate you all.

Now do me a favor and buy me a mask to hide this freak you made me see as my face. It's the only thing I need. To forget...

To stop looking at YOUR action's consequences!

(...)

[April 14, 2025_ 9:20 pm]

Gratitude for reading this far!

i DO have the motivation and the desire to write rn, but school is PREVENTING MEEE💀💀💀 I hate school sm

I GIVE UP I HATEE PROCREATEWHAJAHDHEBE

shes alone

actually my first non trashy yttd fanart lol also happy halloween… maybe danganronpa art soon idk

Guys I just found out that some of the scenes of Stranger Things were filmed at a concentration camp- and the fact that the lab children have the number tattoos- I-

What the actual fuck 😀

I thought the Duffers COULDNT get any worse but here we are 😭

UGHH I'm on my period rn (which shouldn't be happening but anyways) so I'm twice as sensitive as usual and I just cried to a picture of LOV cause I kiss them

I can't stay in this app any longer or else I'll bowl my eyes out sobbing and I can't go on ao3 either for the same fucking reason

anyways I miss them so fucking much and I genuinely cry if I think abt it for too long

BEST DAY EVVERRRRR !!!!!

(*≧ω≦) /j

Dont you hate it when teachers say take your time but not mean it? Like whenever you pause to think they either interrupt by saying the question again or keep giving tiny hints that interrupt your thinking so you cant answer and then make yourself look like a dumbass?

The jealousy of other people's skills, the weight of insurmountable expectations, the fear of not achieving and the limitless procrastination keeps me from doing anything.

The fact there's someone out there working hours after midnight and into the lazy afternoons. The fact there's people who run in the rain to reach a destination. The fact there's people who have someone they think of when they sleep or someone that makes them feel alive. The fact there's someone who works harder than you ever could. The fact there's someone who is way better at what you do without any extra effort. The fact.....you will never be what you want to be in life.

I wish I didn't care about anything. To live a life with no destinations, a path where I don't know to what it is leading to. I want to be a no thoughts; head empty kind of person. I want to have no interests in life or so many interests that the failure of a particular thing doesn't bother me, that I can move on freely from one thing to other without regrets. A life of no assumptions, regrets, resolutions, promises, expectations. A life that's full of colour and light, where I walk as if no one else is watching, talk as if none of my words matter, eat as if there's no effect of the food on my body, sleep as if I can be in an endless slumber.

If you don't have to think or care about anything, you can live a life of a nobody. Your actions won't matter and that's okay, actions make past or future but you would always live in the present.

"It's not about the want to die but the desire to simply not exist"

-Me, 2022

The only way to go through the day is to find is a new TV show to obesses over, preferably one with at least 3 seasons.

Me: I am not crazy. I am not crazy

Brain: burn everything!

Me: No that's not me

Brain: kill everyone!

Me: NOOO

Brain: nothing is worth it. Everything you do has no meaning.

Me: ....plz stop torturing me, my teachers already do that.

just heard someone say "revision is just doubting you knowledge" and i cant stop thinking abt it

i feel like suguru never broke the habit of eating candy/drinking soda after eating curses.

like even as an adult with all the cult leader stuff, he still always carried around small candies or lollipops to stave off the nasty taste after eating a curse. especially after you came into his life.

it felt strange to eat a curse only to kiss you with those same lips without something to cleanse his palette. he didn’t want to associate the bitter taste of a curse with your lips, he’d much rather associate them with something sickly sweet.

the sound of crinkling wrappers and soft crunching had become customary, a sort of white noise after suguru had ingested a curse. he always, always leaned in for a kiss after, slipping his dyed tongue into your mouth as you hummed at the sweet flavor laving over your tastebuds, even playfully trying to guess the flavor from the remnants of the sugary treat.

that’s why you watched him expectantly as he finished the remnants of his lollipop, his tongue mindlessly fiddling with the stick for a moment before throwing it away. he raised an eyebrow when he noticed your stare, a smirk gracing his lips.

“is there something on my face?” he sounded too smug to be clueless. you only shook your head in response, that same wide eyed, expectant gaze fixed on his face.

he broke sooner than he would’ve liked, clicking his tongue with a small “c’mere.” he fought back a smile when you came closer, cupping your face in his hands before pressing his lips to yours in a heated kiss. you pulled him closer, a small gasp leaving him when you sucked on his tongue softly before pulling away completely with a thoughtful hum.

“is it peach?”

he gave you an incredulous look, a small laugh leaving him at your words. god, you were going to be the death of him.

(you were right.)

Guys I was just going by my day when i saw someone mention taco bell so i opened the fic and now im crying.... can someone cheer me up

Hoes made me so mad i became spiritually connected with the moon and turned to crystals and incense and journalled just to feel something

Ya know,who knew drinking a whole gallon jug of sweet tea in a day by myself would give me dysentery 😑😑

Let it burn