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The jealousy of other people's skills, the weight of insurmountable expectations, the fear of not achieving and the limitless procrastination keeps me from doing anything.
The fact there's someone out there working hours after midnight and into the lazy afternoons. The fact there's people who run in the rain to reach a destination. The fact there's people who have someone they think of when they sleep or someone that makes them feel alive. The fact there's someone who works harder than you ever could. The fact there's someone who is way better at what you do without any extra effort. The fact.....you will never be what you want to be in life.
I wish I didn't care about anything. To live a life with no destinations, a path where I don't know to what it is leading to. I want to be a no thoughts; head empty kind of person. I want to have no interests in life or so many interests that the failure of a particular thing doesn't bother me, that I can move on freely from one thing to other without regrets. A life of no assumptions, regrets, resolutions, promises, expectations. A life that's full of colour and light, where I walk as if no one else is watching, talk as if none of my words matter, eat as if there's no effect of the food on my body, sleep as if I can be in an endless slumber.
If you don't have to think or care about anything, you can live a life of a nobody. Your actions won't matter and that's okay, actions make past or future but you would always live in the present.
"It's not about the want to die but the desire to simply not exist"
-Me, 2022
Life goes on:
Life goes on,
When the blossoms may.
When dry leaves fall down,
In a sun free day.
Life goes on,
When childhood ends.
When you grow apart,
From all your friends.
Life goes on,
When you walk alone.
In sunny paths and trails,
Of a hillside house.
Life goes on,
When you let things go.
When you accept,
There's always left some hope.
Life goes on and on
And on till the-
Day you die and-
Leave your imprint behind.
~ME