Was Trying To Read A Book While Pacing Around My Room But A Couple Pages In I Realized Just How Heavy

First day at my Grandma's, and she moved her bathroom scale an now I can't find it :(

So now I'll have to go two days without weighing myself, and I can check my weight in three days after my Dad and I are home again... it's not an issue, I usually don't weigh myself everyday, either, it's just that I was planning to do it to keep myself accountable... Easter with my Grandma, a dangerous game food-wise

3dblr is such a helpful community to have, or I can at least say this for myself.

I've learned so much about harm reduction from some of you, as well as what food i can make/e@t without going above my limit.

I know it's obviously a disorder and all of the other things that could be said as a fact, but also I firmly believe that without community, it would be so much worse. All of the acceptance, unwavering support in recovery when people want that, as well as not forcing anyone to do anything. A lot of people don't get that sort of freedom.

I think back at people who lived before the internet who had an 3d, some like; Karen Carpenter (who died from it), Jane Fonda, Sally Field, and even some of our older family members. I imagine it must've been even more isolating, plus absolutely less support and harm reductive information readily available.

While we aren't lucky, we do have eachother, and all of this other insight gifted to us by eachother. All of this proves to me just how important community and solidarity can be.

Sometimes I just like to drink hot water no tea no nothing

I swear it tastes different than cold water

Fuck it, Dad actually bought me the weed protein bar let's fucking go

Was looking for protein bars today and there was one with weed

Also a guy had a monster energy t shirt and I fucking need that

Can overly excessive caffeine consumption be, like,

Bad?

i made a post like "wow my mental health is so much better than it used to be" but then i deleted it cause i remembered that it's actually just as bad, but in a new, different way

i was almost bamboozeled into thinking i got better when i'm actually just a different flavor of miserable now

I got a new book to reeeaaad

I don't read a lot (I used to inhale books as a kid and I have my fanfiction phases, but I just don't have tiiiimeee and when school is stressful the last thing I want to do is read even more 🥲)

But I'm supper excited for this one

Okay so. I've seen my fair share of transphobia on edblr [for crying out loud you're on THE lgbt app] and I'm just going to say that transgender people have the HIGHEST RATE OF EATING DISORDERS.

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Statistically 71% of transgender individuals currently or have previously at some point in their lives struggled with an eating disorder.

But why do so many trans people develop eating disorders you may ask? The biggest factor is: Discrimination. All around, discrimination leads to the development of severe disorders. The other major reason is gender dysphoria, with GD comes the feeling that you lack control over your body which is generally a huge contributor to eating disorders but most trans people tend to live in unaccepting or downright hateful environments basically leading to lack of control x2.

Trans people will also develop eating disorders to change their bodies in very drastic ways, especially when there is no access to gender affirming care like for trans men, top surgery and for trans women, to give a more sleek feminine look to the body.

I specifically see a lot of cisgender men in ed spaces complaining about the prevalence of trans men in the "male ed" tags but I'm going to pull another stat on you- 42% of cisgender men who struggle with eating disorders are also part of the lgbt community, so if you're part of that 42% and are still being transphobic, you should look into lgbt history in general and thank the group that gave you your rights. If you're a cis straight male complaining about trans people struggling with eating disorders, just remember that plenty of people will never even entertain the thought that you have a "woman disorder".

So if you're out here bitching about "why are there trans men in the checks tags" and plenty more hateful shit that I do not feel comfortable quoting- just think about this, statistically there is just going to be an "overwhelming" amount of trans people in all online ed communities. If you aren't comfortable with that then it's probably time you recover babe <3

Do i hate it when people worry about me? Hell yea! Does it feel nice to know that someone gives a shit about me/notices that i'm getting worse? YES!