I Made A Post Like "wow My Mental Health Is So Much Better Than It Used To Be" But Then I Deleted It

I relapsed into sh again, after having been clean for about 15 days

Usually I manage to go about a month clean before urges get too bad

And I did my arm for the first time (I usually only do my legs)

So yeah

I only quit because I have to take swimming classes at school and they're the absolute worst

half of my posts are just dedicated to monster consumption these days

I should've taken my blades with me

THIS exactly omg

why is my entire dash just edblr, wlw nsfw txt posts, occasional sh pics and every now n then something NORMAL 😭😭🙏

Powerwalking around the schoolyard because my friends want to play Volleyball

(I look like a fucking weird loner but at least I'm getting in my steps)

The monster cans have got to be at least a quarter of the experience, heck, a third. Have you ever looked at them closely, because man, these designs are just STUNNING.

(Today I some monster into a glass to check it's color like a normal person just does, and drinking from the can in comparison was just. So much better.)

I be typing out comments and then delete them because what if you think that's weird? What if it's rude? What if I'm unintentionally doing some kind of damage of you?

Theres this one special website which tells your weight in x days if you eat a certain amount of calories... What's it called??

Bread. Bread is my worst enemy. I am more than convinced of its evil intentions towards me, but I will thwart this dastardly beast as well.

Okay but why do I actually kinda love writing essays