I Relapsed Into Sh Again, After Having Been Clean For About 15 Days

Having a g

Girlfriend that I can visjr at any time would fix me

we could kiss kisandhugs and kissedss a then hug sna d cuddle and ksis mmrrre

I'm in a love-hate relationship with my scars

Hello!

I'm E. I kind of got a lot of interests and then none at all, but my hobbies are music (especially Cello and singing), art sometimes, science, movies and shows, Hermitcraft and my ed.

It's what I'll be posting about mainly, so dni if you aren't fine with seeing content about eating disorders. I'll probably talk about self harm as well.

By the way, my languages are English and German, so even though I'd say I'm relatively fluent in English, errors can still happen, soooo do be forgiving I guess :)

This is a shitty intro post and I might update it later, but I'm lazy af so who knows if that'll actually ever happen.

Always looking for mutuals! :D

Stats below cut

Height: 173 cm (5.8ft)

Hw/Sw: 70.4kg (155lbs)

Cw: 65.6kg (144lbs)

Gw: 65.0kg (143lbs)

Gw: 60.0kg (132lbs)

Gw: 55.5kg (122lbs)

Gw: 50.0kg (110lbs)

Let me know if I messed up with the imperial units lol

I can't believe I was actually considering thinking about thinking to consider recovery, when my siblings apparently see me the way they do - and if all it took was that and a good scroll through Tumblr then I guess I really wouldn't be ready at all

They shouldn't have me shopping for clothes if they don't want me to make pretty little red engravings on my legs after

Family is going out to eat with me shit-

I hate my body more than I like food.

My parents bought me so many protein bars and I didn't even ask them to djsncjdksksnwbsbdfb

Gosh I am so happy

At this point, I'm not even trying to quit cutting properly

I only quit because of the swimming classes at school I have to take, but I don't fucking care anymore, as long as I don't do it a couple of days ahead it's fine

I never wanted to stop for myself and I guess I won't then, just maybe lower, well, the amount a little

Having a white monster rn, man it's been months since I last had one, I missed that stuff