mewhenigettosilly

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pretty good, js a little tired >////<

hi mootie!!

helloooo moot ^^ hru :]

I feel like you guys are too nice to me, I've never even gotten a rude comment or anything :D!! I don't deserve y'all <33!!!!!

The anxiety I get when I remember I might not have hid my blades properly

Trynna act cool and mysterious at the library knowing damn well I'm just scrolling on my silly tumblr 🧍‍♂️

70 followers >////<

Tyssmmm, I dont deserve all of you lol

IM ALSO 5 DAYS CLEAN NOW !!!!! It's so hard, i might relapse tonight, but still 5 days is a lot :]

I really want to cut off my friends because their so toxic and make me feel like shit, but I don't have anyone else to hang out with at school :/

I might not even talk to them, but at least I don't look like a fucking loner :(

One of them in particular is pissing me off cause they always tell me about their relationship struggles or their interests, and whenever I tell them something they dont listen. I can't care about them at all atp, like your partner doesn't like that you like men ?? Well I fucking told you that they were toxic I can't help you. The fuck do they want me to do ??? They send me weird images or weird things in general, and I tell them to stop and they never apologise and continue. They js make me uncomfortable and they used to punch me alot ╯︿╰ I fucking hate my friends, I'm gna jump into a meatgrinder.

hypersexual isn’t just being horny all the time btw please actually shut the fuck up

I don't rlly understand why I don't fit in with anyone :/ everyone just becomes boring, or is mean to me, or treats me in a way I don't want. I try to keep an open mind about my friends/people, but I want friends that are decent people. I want to surround myself with good people, because they would be good, and maybe I'd figure out the correct way to live and act around people, but everyone's who's bad has found there way to me ╯︿╰

I want to slitttt their throaatssss, it's not FAAIRRRRR, HOW COME THEY GET TO BE TOGETHER AND IM ALL SAD AND PATHETIC AND ALONE !!!!!

I was imagining the perfect partner in class again >////< Im going to try to get in classes without all of my current 'friends' because i just neeeeed to meet other people and find a partner whos js so nice >////<

Saw my moots @sw33tl1f3 do this poll so I'm doing it ^^

:3

Me when my blades are dull so to keep myself sane I have to look at shblr until I can get some new ones 😔💔

"No M, you can't carve the name of all your mutuals and friends onto your body !"

God forbid a boy has hobbies 🙄

FUCK YAEAHHHH MOONYYY !!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥

MOOOONYYYY HAIIII

thigh cuts are like the most evil thing ever. its so painful, its so hard to bandage, they re open when you walk. hate that shit. cannot believe i was a die hard thigh cutter for like 3 years that shit sucks

Every time i say I want to go home I don't mean the place that I live in. I mean a warm and welcoming place that wouldn't shame me for my feelings, it isn't the place in which I live right now, or anywhere where I used to live because none of them were warm and welcoming for me. I have no attachment to the place where I live/used to live in, quite the opposite, actually, I daydream about moving out every single day.

"you're all jirai enough" Until one of us is fat, pudgy, copes/deals with trauma in a different manner than what's commonly perceived, doesn't dress "dark girly", is transgender, is gay, is a man (????there's a literal term for Male jirais), is black, isn't European, isn't Japanese, isn't American, is from a second or third world country, *can't* dress "dark girly", doesn't self harm, doesn't do drugs, doesn't do alcohol, is hypersexual, isn't an NSO fan, is pro-recovery (that one's a little debatable but whatever), isn't a female in general, isn't deathly pale, doesn't have an ED, doesn't have "soul crushing" trauma, is undiagnosed, self harms but not by cutting, and the list goes on

typing “me n who?” knowing that i am difficult and unlovable

It’s so weird that people’s first thought isn’t cutting themselves when they’re having a shitty day. Crazyyyyyy like I’m about to have the time of my life with my blades when I get home.

Another thing I hate with jirai tt is that whenever there's a darker skinned or plus sized jirai they don't classify them as one :(((

I wish I had a reason to attend school :P

having a partner must be so awesome

nothing's more fun than spiraling after a s3xual encounter you purposely put yourself into.

i think i have bpd but idk how to mention it to one of my therapists because what if im wrong and just being an attention whore ˙◠˙

I’ve been alone before, but being alone again still hurts.

im kinda like a tomagotchi, if u dont give me enuf attention, ill die, & im not saying that to be dramatic, ill literally km$ if u dont give me all ur attention

Jirai tiktok when a minor can't afford the expensive blouses that adults can >:((

(seriously wtf is wrong with Jirai tiktok, they revolve it all around the fashion and whenever they see someone who actually has a more explosive disorder they get angry that there not doing it correctly...like...that's the whole point...Jirai means Landmine, and Landmine's explode...)

“you hurt yourself so what’s the difference of me hitting you” im mentally ill and your just crazy.

If you become one of my anons I swear I’ll treat you right 🙏 I’ll literally be the best ever I’ll give you above minimum wage AND head pats